June 28, 2010 - My sister and I were sitting discussing business with my account manager in a CIBC bank in a mall in Ottawa last Wednesday when the sound of a train startled us. My account manager looked me in the face as I mumbled "earthquake", and indeed next came 12-15 seconds of jarring ground shaking. The look of horror on my account manager's face was something I'll never forget, it was the first day her young kids were home off school for the summer. Everyone evacuated the building and stood in the parking lot trying to use cellphones, us included. I managed to get some texts out although cell service was spotty to say the least. After chatting with some folks in my hometown (100 miles away) and Toronto (400 miles away), and finding out they had felt it, I realized for Ottawa this was a pretty big earthquake.
We were let back in the mall about an hour later although we weren't allowed back in the bank for some time. It turned out to be a 5.5 about 60 miles from the city, which is not a huge earthquake of course, but there was some serious damage in Quebec at the epicenter including a bridge that fell into the Ottawa river and some broken glass and cracked buildings throughout Ottawa. I was living on Vancouver Island during the big Seattle quake in 2001 so I recognized the "train" sound right away, this felt nowhere near as violent as that one was, even though I was hundreds of miles away from the epicenter then. It was truly startling though as Ottawa and area is not an earthquake zone and it really got me thinking what it would be like to be right in the middle of a big one like Chile or Haiti of last year. Scary.

I made some changes to the site - part of a process to make my site ipad friendly. I have never been a fan of Apple, mainly because of endless compatibility issues, although I know Microsoft causes a huge part of the problem. Anyway I bought one to make sure my site would work with it and it mostly does now although there's some little design glitches that are driving me insane but don't compromise overall usability. Why this ipad is not able to render flash is truly beyond me and the lack of USB ports makes it very insular - not to mention it won't allow you to use third party softwares. Besides that it's actually a nifty little thing!

Also coming soon we're working hard on a mobile friendly version of the site - tylersroom.mobi. This will have our own features and several feeds that will be available for mobile. It won't include the entire site but will be an extra section for mobile users to access. I can't imagine watching porn on my Blackberry but ya know whatever floats your boat hehe.

Here's some pics around the garden from this spring and summer so far!

May 9, 2010 - Just a quick note to say hi and to tell you there are some awesome new things in the pipeline including some Bluray video feeds that will really impress! The Originals have been awesome if you haven't checked lately, the 'Super' version of the videos are high definition (HD), 9000i resolution and 1920 X 1280 in dimension! You can burn them to a DVD for a High Def experience like no other! We're proud to offer such cutting edge quality - the best in the porn industry!

Here's some pics around the garden from this spring. More soon!

February 28, 2010 - I have always loved the winter Olympic games (there's stuff about Turin and Salt Lake City in this blog) but these games were so much more special in my own country and my favorite city in the world! The opening ceremonies just blew me away and now the closing ceremonies are due up this evening. The USA (our neighbours ) had an awesome Olympics, especially their amazing Alpine team! Canada, well we broke the all-time most gold medals at a single games record with 14 awesome gold performances! Holy man have we got some patriotism going - every city, every town, every street - we are one happy and proud nation! We've spent so many years sort of hanging our mantra on being proud NOT to be American - something has happened this past decade, maybe our work in Afghanistan and all our lost soldiers, not sure, but this Olympics has brought my country together like never before in my lifetime and even if it's just been a temporary break in our normally aloof way - I'm thoroughly PROUD to be a Canadian!



What do I need to say about hockey. A gold medal game for the ages.





Some of the many hilites for me were... Joannie Rochette skating to a bronze medal days after her Mother's unexpected death, she was truly golden to all of us. I am not a big fan of ice dancing but I definitely saw how good those two Canadians, Tessa Virtue and Scott Moir, skated - talk about in synch with each other during that spinning part. Charles Hamelin and the awesome reaction of his girlfriend Marianne St. Gelais (who also medaled) when he won the gold medal in the 500M short track speedskating! Jon Montgomery drinking a pitcher of beer during his victory walk through Whistler for his gold medal in skeleton. Shaun White's preformance in the pike was just plain stunning. I could go on and on but likely you were watching too!


Gotta love curling - you tell me in what other sport can you drink beer while you play! Did you know there's only one place in the world, somewhere in Scotland, they can get the granite from to make those rocks so they don't break and they sweat enough whatever that means and - brace yourselves everyone - they are running oot! Curling is doomed! Big congrats to both our women's and men's teams! Silver and gold respectively.


A couple of low points for me was the women's hockey - how painful is that to watch. It is so completely uncompetitive - only the US women's team can challenge Canada - all other teams get beaten 20-0. If the rest of the world was catching up slowly fine but they're not - it's going the opposite way. Time to dump women's hockey from the Olympics. And I feel almost blasphemous for saying this and I'm glad we won our first gold and all - and I was totally caught up in the moment but - I have a very strange fascination with Dale Begg-Smith, I have for many years now since I lived In BC, and I think he actually won that race handily as do alot of people. He made no errors whatsoever and Alexandre Bilodeau did make a few but like figure skating we have to take the word of the judges.


Silly moments... halfpipe bronze medalist Scotty Lagos (USA) sent home early cause these 'racy' pictures of him surfaced on the net. I mean really! he's a snowboarder, give me a break - poor guy, just having some fun. Sexy tattoo!




Sad moment of course the extremely tragic death of the Georgian luger Nodar Kumaritashvili who should have been here tonight representing his country at the closing ceremonies.


HD videos of the opening ceremony for anyone who missed it or wants to see it again as well as some memorable TV commercials are here... Opening Ceremony Videos.

The one below is a hilite for me.

Countdown to the Ceremony



Thanks Canada - that was some show!

January 31, 2010 - Hey guys (and gals) make sure you check out the Originals - the latest updates are awesome quality and I added an option of a large 1280 X 720 (7000 bitrate/720p) "super" version which is perfect for burning to DVD and watching on a large display! Jaro and Miro make for a hot couple, Miro clearly loves to bottom. This week's guy Tomas has a beautiful round butt and sexy eyes! Even the non-member preview videos are hot and in HD so be sure to check them out! There are many more hot originals in the pipeline. I have been going over the website and making some changes to aid in navigation etc and there will be lots of new additions and interesting things coming up over the next few months so watch for those. As always any suggestions are welcome, you can email me here.

After three years of working for Tylersroom, Ryan has moved on to pursue new things. I would like to thank him for his help over the years and of course his friendship. I wish him all the best in his new endeavors. Meilleur de chance dans instruit Ryan et votre carrière future! I will be introducing a new Tylersroom guy here and on the forum soon and look forward to his participation.

If you don't know who these guys are then you're probably not a hockey fan. The Sedin twins play for my Vancouver Canucks and Henrik is the top scorer in the league right now and could become the first ever Vancouver Canuck to win the Hart Trophy (most points in the regular season). His identical brother Daniel is right on pace to be tied with Henrik (like he did last year exactly LOL) but he missed the first 20 games with a foot injury. Add Alex Burrows to the mix (he surely must have some Sedin DNA hehe) and you have the league's best line by far. Watching the twins play is surreal, I have been watching hockey since I was a kid and never have I seen two players so in synch with each other - not even Gretzky and Kurri. It's uncanny and super fun to watch! Henrik and Daniel have been very underated and are just getting better and better every year, I think they're going to get lots of attention soon. Then there's Ryan Kesler's line and Luongo in net and well it's looking really promising this year for Vancouver - first the Olympics then the Stanlety Cup - yup, that sounds just fine to me.





Gotta love this effort... I had a Jeep like this once and remember all those sounds soooo well.



I updated my Canada page (that page dates back ten years :P) with a kewl video by maritime rappers Classified - their take on 'O Canada' - it's well done and certain to bring out some patriotism in my fellow Canadians. Thanks to Zonato for posting that on the forum.

Here's some winter pics!

December 4, 2009 - Unlike 'balloon boy' and 'WH party crashers' et al, Susan Boyle was a delightful story this year and worth every bit of the attention it garnered.

I received her album today from Amazon and not only does it live up to the hype it exceeds it and then some.

She does 12 diverse songs and nails every single one of them. Man, her rendition of 'Wild Horses' by The Rolling Stones (her professed personal fave in the liner notes) brings a tear to my eye, Mick Jagger said he must have written the song for Susan all those years ago they just never met. I would tend to agree hehe.

'Cry me a River' is breathtaking in it's intensity. The hymn 'How Great Thou Art' (one of my Mum's favorites) is breathy and inspirational. Her take on 'Daydream Believer' is cute. 'Amazing Grace', well that's just the sound of a siren of ethereal Scottish fields and well - just amazing. The only original song on the album, written for Susan by Audra Mae is yet another stand out, 'Who I Was Born To Be' has some nice lyrics and fits right in with all of these timeless classics. She closes with 'Silent Night' - hauntingly beautiful with her leading the choir.

She has some slightly rough edges in her delivery and that coupled with her playful Scottish accent is what makes this better I believe than a more polished singer would ever have done with this collection.

The song, that of course is her signature, is in no way better than her other offerings but it stands out simply for the sweet fairytale that is the discovery of Susan Boyle. Hearing the wonderful orchestra follow her into a spell-binding crescendo as she sings 'I Dreamed A Dream' made the hair on my neck stand up. Again.

Having smashed sales records already I will be surprised if this collection of songs does not end up as one of the top ten best selling albums of all time.







I can't believe this decade is coming to an end.

It's certainly been an interesting one for me but that's another post hehe.

This is simply a question...

We had the nineties, the seventies, the twenties etc - what will this decade be called? The zeroes?

November 22, 2009 - I had an interesting conversation with someone about Asperger's Syndrome the other day which inspired me to revisit this subject.

In this conversation something I hear about alot came up. The currently "fashionable" aspect of Asperger's Syndrome, it's use in characters on television and in movies as well as celebrities and the like coming forward to say that they too have the syndrome. There is even rumours of how it will be taken off the official list of Pervasive Developmental Disorders - this doesn't mean it doesn't exist - this is an attempt to re-classify the syndrome which is probably a good thing from what I've learned. I even read where one person said "You have to volunteer for the diagnosis or it won't work" WTF!

I am a cynic, I'm a realist and I fight with anything abstract - always have. I had never even heard of this syndrome (I barely even knew what Autism was other than I thought it was a children's thing) before I was diagnosed and I never sought out the diagnosis. I was getting help for a creeping cocaine problem and this is what led to the Asperger's discovery. I ignored it the first week, the second week the word 'Aspergers' stuck with me, after the third week I was googling and reading on my own. I found the article from the lady at CNN from my original post and that was my cathartic moment. I knew something was going on.

The reason, in my mind, people are making light of Asperger's Syndrome is because of the symptoms - there are a zillion manifestations of the symptoms. Going by just that everyone could be an Aspie in one way or another. "I hate driving in the city, it overwhelms me, therefore I'm an Aspie", "I have days I can't stand being around people - I must be an Aspie", "I don't like crowds - Aspie.". This is a pile of bunk - you have to learn the traits which cause the widely assorted symptoms in a group of vastly different personalities. A group is made up of a series of associated traits or characteristics not symptoms. If you have one trait of an Aspergers person you are not part of the group - you must have almost ALL the traits which is how the group was formed in the first place - in this case based on studies done in the 40s by Hans Asperger who saw this cluster of characteristics as very distinct. I might sound combative about this but I NEVER went looking for this and when something so matter of factly describes and answers life long puzzles and questions for you it's hard to hear a non-Aspie make light of it based on some false information and "band wagon" weirdos. Why would anyone want to have social deficiencies and super hyper-sensitive senses?

Try going through your life hating to be touched yet being as horny as any other red-blooded human. Finally I know the secret! I always needed to seek out solitude so I could rock in peace without looking like a twit - slider chairs have been my saviour - I know why now and don't feel so foolish about it anymore. I can't just randomly go somewhere, I have to know my exact route, right down to which streets I will turn left on and which aisles of the store I will go down - I preplan all this and just figured everyone did that. No wonder a driving test is so very difficult for me not knowing until seconds before which way I'm supposed to be going. I have an obsessive need to put periods of my life in exact chronological order in my mind/memory before I fall asleep at night - I thought this was what everyone did, counting sheep so to speak. I can't take people dropping in on me and invariably don't answer the door - even a phone call when not expected can throw me right off and usually goes unanswered. I could go on and on but as I said taking just one of these things on its own does not make up a person living with Aspergers - it's a cluster of genetic characteristics. Can we all have a label for our personalities? Possibly, but that's not the point, this is not a "personality type" it's a learning and maturing disability that is well documented. Unless you're an Aspie, my brain is wired differently than yours and I get through my life differently than you get through yours. Again I'm not talking symptoms or preferences - yes everybody gets through life in their own way - I'm talking fundamental social behaviour and patterns that distinctively distinguish a person living with Asperger's Syndrome.

I said I would reflect on how it has affected my life and in all honesty it has, quite substantially and in some unexpected ways. I met one VERY cute Aspie through my blog post who has become very special to me I also found out a good friend of mine, with whom I've had a combustible relationship with over the years to say the least, also had this diagnosis many years ago and I have enjoyed immensely relating our life's experiences since and understanding each other better.

I also have an Aspie folder in my email box with over a hundred emails from other Aspies, doctors, teachers, social workers and just people thanking me for helping to lead them in the direction of their own life's discoveries. I communicate regularly with many of these people now.

Has my life gotten better for knowing about Asperger's Syndrome, learning about how others live with it and seeing it first hand? Absolutely!

Has writing about this publicly been worth it? You bet it has!

For more info on Asperger's Syndrome read my post below from June 1, 2009.



Well it's been almost more than 2 months for me and I know for sure I'll never smoke again. The joy of quitting is wearing off now and I don't think about it nearly as much anymore.

Watching kitty and some others take on the book has had me thinking alot about it and why it works for so many people and seemed almost like magic to me.

I wonder if there IS something to be said for the fact you must really want to quit. I didn't think so because I never went into it particularily wanting to quit I had someone nagging me incessantly and it seemed to be the easier thing to do. After reading it I just figured anyone forced to read it would quit - maybe that's not it though.

It's simple to buy some patches or gum and use that stuff, it's even relatively easy to drop into a laser clinic etc - but reading a book - that takes a major effort. I've had that book in my bedside table for two years since Gail quit and suggested it to me. I never wanted to read it because she was so convincing it would work and the thought sort of frightened me hehe.

So maybe one really does have to want to quit when one takes the time to actually read a book about it.

I'm not diminishing the book at all - it's brilliant - and is the only reason I will never smoke for the rest of my life.

Just thoughts on the subject. For more info on this book and how I easily quit smoking read my post below from October 16, 2009.

November 10, 2009 - She's baaaccckkk.

Sarah Palin has one of the best selling books in recent years, millions of followers on Facebook and Twitter (a very Obama-like strategy for 2012) and a love her or hate her iconic personality that has the media frothing at the mouth following her every move for over a year now. Cult of personality.

She was on Oprah today promoting her new book "Going Rogue" and did OK I guess, still a little annoying, but she made sense at least. Network news was saying this show pulled superbowl type audience numbers, I watched it and I never watch daytime shows like that so that says something I guess. I think she'll be a serious force to be reckoned with, whether against her fellow Republicans in the primaries or even for the Whitehouse or perhaps as an afternoon talk show host.


Check out her cover on newsweek! Pretty sexy!



Will you read her book?



I think I'll pass on "Going Rogue" and save my pennies for the Playgirl magazine issue that will soon come to the shelves featuring her dirt-dishing "son-in-law" Levi Johnston. Serious fantasy material that boy is. On the road to hell with "his porn" according to Sarah though on Oprah today.



Actually I'll probably read Palin's book as a matter of fact you betcha I will!

October 28, 2009 - I sorta met this guy who I kinda care how I look around ya know...

So I decided to buy some new clothes today - some nice tops, polo type I had in mind - and some pants, some jeans and some of those chino type pants. So I got what looked like a good haul together at a local men's outlet - several pairs of pants and some kewl shirts - checked out and headed home none too worse for the experience (besides the irritating sales woman who kept happening to be folding clothes wherever I was - ie: I'm a shop lifter I did nothing but glare at her as I checked out ) .

Well wasn't that a total disaster. Nothing fit - not one cock-knocking thing.

I know what happened with the pants I thought the length came first not the waist so I totally fucked that up - but the shirts man I am so not a 'small' anymore LOL - maybe I haven't been clothes shopping since I was 18. Anyway, luckily I didn't take any tags off or anything and can return the stuff for some size adjustments tomorrow.

Set me back a notch or too though in my attempts to conquer my fear of clothes shopping.

October 16, 2009 - So after many years of smoking (heavily the past few) I've quit. It's been four weeks now and I can confidently say I'm done. Forever.

I read the book "Easy Way to Stop Smoking" by Allen Carr and just like all others who have read it - I stopped after the final chapter. I won't go into details about the book but I highly recommend it to any smokers who want to quit (and that's every smoker ). It's not some magic or drugs or nicotine replacement technique doomed to failure, Allen Carr masterfully and effectively undoes the smoker's brainwashing and puts the nicotine addiction in it's place as just an incredibly addicting substance but quickly in and out of the body and only relatively mild withdrawals. Once done reading this book quiting no longer becomes a fearful thing and that feeling of dread that you'll be missing something for the rest of your life just disappears. Willpower doesn't work - only in the very strong and then it's always a battle - this way you don't need willpower - it's a joy to quit. You learn that each new cigarette is not a relaxing, nice thing but a cure from the withdrawal of the last cigarette and just continuing the process. What smokers learn to feel as relaxation and stress relief is actually what's causing or increasing that stress in the first place. Non-smokers don't need a cigarette to relax. Funny how we want a cigarette sooo bad but then when we're actually smoking it we're often thinking 'yuck why am I doing this' - until it's out and then the whole process starts over again.

All the benefits of not smoking out number the benefits of smoking by far because there are no benefits to smoking! The changes (recovery) happen so fast to the body, the complexion gets so much better as does muscle tone, appetite, the senses of smell and taste, the breathing, the sex! and on and on and on...

I will never smoke again and quitting was one of the most enjoyable and easiest things I've ever experienced. I'm not kidding. Read the book!

So I'll stop now at the risk of being really annoying to any smokers reading this.
But as the book says - quitting is one of the most important things a smoker can do in his lifetime, so you want to announce your accomplishment.
Nobody ever announces they've started smoking.







http://www.theeasywaytostopsmoking.com/

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Bandit hasn't been a "bad puppy" but I made this thread about him years ago so I thought I'd add his latest drama here...

Bandit has had a "friend" Chloe since he was a puppy, the farmer-next-door's dog, who he chases up and down the fence separating our properties every day. He spends all his time waiting for the tractor to come along the fence and go for his runs. This all seemed like fun and often Karen, Gail and I would watch on our side while the farmer watched on his side and nothing ever came of it. Rarely did either dog go on the other's property.

This past spring the farmer added a new dog to the mix, a very ugly (OK I'm biased hehe) blueish-grey colored thing with pointy ears and a very mean face. For periods of time they kept this young dog chained but as the summer progressed he started joining Chloe in her little fence-running "game" with Bandit. Bandit stopped running the entire distance, seemed a little apprehensive and I could sense their demeanours changing. Chloe and "ugly" - I don't know his name, have started coming right on my property now challenging Bandit. He tends to keep his distance and just chase them off when necessary.

Well Bandit got attacked by those two dogs on Thursday. Bandit was freaking to go outside as usual while I was working with Ryan in his office. I let him out and off they went down the fence only this time they stopped and didn't come back. I called up to Ryan and told him to look at the dumb dogs with their heads stuck in the fence together again (this has happened before) but as soon as I opened the door I heard a noise I hope I never here again and started running to the scene. Chloe and Bandit were locked by the mouth and Bandit being in the worst position of the two was being pulled through the fence onto their side. I jumped in as Chloe and Bandit were locked (I could see Chloe's teeth coming out the bottom of Bandit's chin) I wailed on them both and made sounds I didn't know I could make. That not working, I tried to pull their mouths apart and got my hand stuck and got bit pretty badly - I know that's not the thing to do but my protective adrenaline was surging. While Chloe and Bandit were locked in the mouth hold - the other dog was taking chunks out of Bandit's back, tummy and legs. About ten seconds they let go of each other and my hand and I jumped on Bandit and smothered him with every ounce of strength I had as the other dogs kept coming at us. Luckily Ryan had come out to help although he is very nervous of dogs but just his presence and approach helped end the ordeal. Looking back I'm not sure this was an intentional fight - I think they accidentally got their mouths stuck (not unlike when they get their heads stuck in the fence) and it just escalated out of control. They always have had "words" with each other when they reach the fence ends and turn around to run back.

Bandit was a mess. I called the neighbours and they weren't very sympathetic - almost blaming me for inciting this over the years by letting Bandit out whenever the tractor or four-wheeler goes by - meanwhile they left me lying on top of my dog smothering him in the field, screaming and yelling while their dogs went at us. The farmer's wife did come out and was yelling for her husband but I guess he couldn't hear over his tractor. On the phone she made a dig deal about how mean and nasty the new breed of their younger dog is - I felt like I was being challenged - redneck farmers. Would they like me to get a second pit bull and even the playing field? As if. My dog is a gentle pet and I know their farm mentality makes their dogs a little less like pets and more like farm workers. She also tried to deny that her dogs ever came on my property and she see's my "dogs" on her property all the time - this is just not true. She can't see where they come over from her house but her husband has to know they come over here. She even said when she saw me lying in the field it was on her side so therefore Bandit was on their property - I told her I had a witness (Ryan) that that's not how it went. Before the new dog came along Bandit might have wandered over there occasionally but very rarely. I told her I needed to go for a tetanus shot as I haven't had one since I was a kid and she told me if I did that all our dogs would be quarantined - so I agreed to not do that. I did, however, take pictures of all the assorted wounds on me and the horrible wounds on my little boy. In the end they agreed to try and keep their dogs off my property if I stopped letting Bandit out whenever the tractor goes by - I explained that we all thought that was fun and games until the second dog came along and I asked if they thought differently why hadn't they spoken to me. Bottom line - they have guns - and I don't want to not get along with my neighbours there's been no trouble for 5 years now. They will get phone calls whenever those dogs are on my lot though.

It's Sunday now and Bandit has recovered very well - most of the swelling is under control and he's been licking his wounds better. He couldn't open his mouth to eat for two days but he's back eating now and I'm tucking the odd children's aspirin in his food.

I think these pictures sum it up well. Who is challenging and who is defending...





Here's some pics around the garden from this fall.





In our own way.

August 8, 2009 - I hope everyone is enjoying their summer (or winter ). It's been very cool, wet and generally gloomy in my part of the world this summer and people are starting to feel ripped off as we near the fall.
When we do have a sunny day it sure is appreciated though.

Just a quick update - there is some exciting stuff coming up this fall, I am pleased to say we have partnered with a world class producer/director and have started shooting scenes for our upcoming new section 'Canadian Beef'! This section will be the new Originals and all the models will be totally shot for our site in stunning HD - you might recognize some people and things in the movies.
The guys will all be Canadian and there will be lots of action shoots to accompany some of the hotties' solos. We will have a feedback system in place and will be able to produce what you want to see! I'm looking forward to this and hope it will be something you enjoy. So watch for that in the fall.


Here's some pics around the garden from July.

June 29, 2009 - We added a large resource to the site - Gay Porn Portal - 38 genre specific video consoles (each with a very decent selection), 4 HDTV feeds and a bunch of fun flash based games. Like I say on the main page this could be an entire website on it's own .
We're also up to 200 Originals now! That's almost 4 years worth, man time flies, it doesn't feel like that long at all since we started with those.


I've been enjoying Wimbledon this year. Just finished up the round of sixteen and both my picks, Serena and Roger are still going. Predictable I know but I figure always choosing Serena nets me one or two slams a year and well Nadal hadn't dropped out when I picked Federer, so I wasn't picking the favorite at that point. My heart would like to see Andy Roddick win this one, somehow I feel he works very hard and deserves another slam trophy. Check out the bigger version of his pic below by clicking on it. Interesting to see Scotsman Andy Murray play under the home pressure, would be pretty awesome to see him win as well. An all Williams final is still possible, really hope not - no offence to the gals but I've had enough of those.






Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett dead in one day? It's like fate has taken to acting like a serial killer.
I, like most guys of my generation, had the famous poster on my bedroom wall. Farrah was a beautiful woman on the inside as well as on the outside by all accounts. Her recent documentary on her struggle with cancer was inspiring and showed the inner strength she had. She lost her hard battle and will be missed.

Michael Jackson was murdered by a sort of cruelty, too large and viscious to fathom. Not unlike Elvis Presley, who had already been assassinated by the public and press and his closest friends, Michael had been shunned by the same over the past few years, even Quincy Jones, who made millions off his younger protege, had refused communication with him.

When Jackson married Lisa-Marie Presley, many viewed it as a sham wedding to divert attention away from his first molestation trial. I always thought it was more the King of Pop and daughter of King or Rock n Roll thing Michael was after, albeit a bad reason to marry, I mean look at his remarkably absurd sons' names Prince Michael Jackson I and II. Legacy and history with grandeur. The high camp aesthetics, heroic self portraits, red velvet thrones - all parts of his perverse and beautiful kingdom.

Michael was making a comeback. When he officially announced it, as always his charmingly innocent fans were there. After all this was the very same man who rewrote pop music as we knew it with Thriller. Or was he?
His eccentricity too great, his reputation so damaged, the world had all but written him off. He drifted, ghastly yet still stylish; like Blanche Dubois.
He left his beloved Neverland ranch and it's treasures to languish in neglect. His final exit off stage can be easily traced to his second molestation trial. Pyjamas, sleek black jackets, long eyelashes and pageboy wigs appeared to have pushed the public too far for sympathy. He seemed oblivious (as if in a morphine induced haze as some said), he won the trial but not much else.

Jackson was never convicted of anything. He was weird, he was brash. He was the lonely child of an abusive father. His art is without precedent or succession.

Will the public continue to talk of his controversial life or let him have a measure of dignity. Dignity many have refused him because of his profound otherness and beauty that became greater, he asserted, through surgery, fashion and performance. His own georgeous freakishness.

Michael Jackson should be remembered for the music he wrote. For his impossibly perfect motion; his thwarted abject love; and the face of trauma he presented as an artistic gesture to exquisite pain, pain we all beheld and turned away from - as he expected - in disgust and terror.



Thanks for the music.


Here's some pics around the garden from June.

June 1, 2009 - Seeing as my hockey team got knocked out in the second round, every other team I even vaguely like are gone and the freakin' Red Wings and Penguins are in the Stanley Cup finals I turn my attention to tennis and the French Open.

I watched in shock like everyone else as Rafael Nadal, the best player on clay and four time reigning champion, bowed out to Robert Soderling. Novak Djokovic (little shit disturber hehe), arguably the second best player on clay, was also taken out by a much lower ranked player. Upsets at the French Open are nothing new but I don't think anyone saw Rafa's early exit coming. It looks really good for Roger Federer, who won a really tough five setter today, to finally complete his personal grand slam (all four majors) and surpass Pete Sampras at the same time for most slams ever. I thought Andy Roddick was having a good run this year, but he too went down in flames today to home favorite Gael Monfils, a fun player to watch .
On the women's side Serena started slow but is looking like a contender for sure. She can keep her Grand Slam quest (all 4 majors in same year) alive with a win. Dinara Safina is playing like the number one player she is and totally obliterating her opponents on what appears to be a collision course with Serena. It's awesome to see Maria Sharapova back and playing so well, I'm not going to count her out either.
The French Open is my favorite tournament, such a fast surface and a tournament where underdogs often surprise.

What do you suppose is up with this pic?






Here's some more garden pics from the last weeks of May.


Asperger's Syndrome
I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome a couple of weeks ago and what a ride it's been since learning this. So many personal agonies in my life explained - connecting dots and reading how other's live their lives with the condition has just been eye opening. I can say it's an enormous relief because it is, but it doesn't change anything - it just makes some of the things I never understood about myself more understandable now. With learning I hope I'm able to find ways to make some of my deficiences less of a burden to myself and others. I will not use it as some kind of excuse for inappropriate behaviour (I already have that mastered lol) but as a way to try and cope with some of my aspie traits. My family has had a bit of an epiphany over this as we can relate it to my father who died in 1999. There is no doubt he had this syndrome as well and it makes some of his brutal choices about his family make more sense to us now.
One interesting thing is people born in Deep River, Ontario from 1965-1980 (that would include me) have a well-documented abnormal rate of Asperger's syndrome, well above the national average. This led me to wonder about living next to a nuclear power plant but that doesn't appear to be relevant, the leading theory is that it is a genetic condition. Just a coincidence I guess.

Most of you won't know me personally enough to know how profound a discovery this is for me. I am most definitely not looking for sympathy (see quote below) but I wanted to write about it in hopes I could find others who want to share or might learn themselves about Asperger's and people around them that might have the condition. I welcome any emails on the subject.

Info on it... http://www.aspergers.ca

Another guy from Deep River... http://swim4aspergers.wordpress.com

Wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asperger_syndrome

I wanted to write how this affects my life but it's too soon for me to really process it all yet. The following article was one sent to me early in my diagnosis and startled me with the extent to which it could have been written by me. I certainly couldn't have said it any better than this lady does...

Asperger's: My life as an Earthbound alien
- an anonmymous person who works for CNN.

Recently, at 48 years of age, I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome. For most of my life, I knew that I was "other," not quite like everyone else. I searched for years for answers and found none, until an assignment at work required me to research autism. During that research, I found in the lives of other people with Asperger's threads of similarity that led to the diagnosis. Although having the diagnosis has been cathartic, it does not change the "otherness." It only confirms it.

When I talk to people about this aspect of myself, they always want to know what it means to be an "Aspie," as opposed to a "Neurotypical" (NT). Oh, dear, where to start . ...

The one thing people seem to know about Asperger's, if they know anything at all, is the geek factor. Bill Gates is rumored to be an Aspie. We tend to have specialized interests, and we will talk about them, ad infinitum, whether you are interested or not. Recognizing my tendency to soliloquize, I often choose silence, although perhaps not often enough. Due to our extensive vocabularies and uninflected manner of speaking, we are called "little professors," or arrogant.

I don't quite understand small talk, and early in my adult life, solecisms were frequent. At meetings, I launch into business without the expected social acknowledgments. It's not that I don't care about people, I am just very focused on task. Do you have to rehearse greeting people to reinforce that you should do it? I do.

I am lucky to have a very dear friend who savors my eccentricities. She laughs, lovingly, about one particular evening at a restaurant. Before she could get seated, I asked her what she knew about the golden ratio and began to spew everything I know about it. I re-emphasize how lucky I am to have her as a friend, because this incident occurred long before I was diagnosed.

A misconception is that Aspies do not have a sense of humor. It is true that we can be very literal, so we often miss the humor in everyday banter, but we can and do enjoy even subtle humor. Our literal interpretations, however, can be problematic.

In first grade, whenever someone made a mess in the classroom, the teacher would ask a student to get the janitor. The student would come back with Mr. Jones (not really his name), who carried a broom and large folding dustpan. When I was asked to get the janitor, I looked all over the school and reported back to the teacher that I could not find it. After all, the person was Mr. Jones, so the janitor must be the object, right?

I lack the ability to see emotion in most facial expressions. I compensate for this deficiency by listening to the inflections in people's voices and using logic to determine emotional context. The words people choose, their movements, or even how quickly they exit a meeting can provide clues to emotion.

I also have intensified senses -- touch, taste, smell, sight, and sound -- so I am attuned to lights, noise, textures, and smells. In a "busy" environment, I will eventually go into sensory overload and my mind will go blank. When this happens, I have to "go away" mentally for a brief period to regain focus. When I "return," I have to piece together what occurred while I was "away." The additional mental processing I must do to function every day is fatiguing, and I don't handle "ad hoc" very well. Being asked to respond quickly in the midst of all this other processing is difficult, sometimes impossible.

I am so sensitive to touch that a tickle hurts me. This is the hardest concept for most people to understand. How can a tickle hurt? All I can tell you is that it does, so I avoid being touched except by those who have learned how to touch me.

Hugs are dispensed infrequently, but if I do hug someone, I resemble Frankenstein's monster, arms extended to control contact. When my dad (who I suspect is an Aspie, too) and I hug, we both have "the approach." We sometimes miss and have to re-approach a couple of times until a brief, awkward hug is achieved.

In school, other children noted my differences, and I was bullied (and tickled into fits of despair) for years. Already needing extended periods of time alone, my response was to become even more of a loner. Uh oh. When you are weird, you are a joke. When you are a loner, you frighten people. It's always the quiet ones. ...

I am married (wow!), and my brilliant husband is an absolute sweetheart. I don't know any other man who has the self-confidence to be pushed away (sometimes sharply), both physically and mentally, as often as he has been. He has been gentle and patient (and, yes, frequently emotionally depleted) as we both worked through my need for space, tendency to go so deep into my own world that the real world and everyone in it cease to exist, and sensitivity to touch during the 26 (soon to be 27) years of our marriage.

I live with anxiety, because the world can be overwhelming and people have expectations that I always, sooner or later, fail to meet. I cannot begin to tell you how many times I have been told that I am rude, inaccessible or cold, yet I have never purposely tried to harm anyone, nor do I mean to be, well, mean.

I could tell you so much more, but instead let me share one last insight. Don't pity me or try to cure or change me. If you could live in my head for just one day, you might weep at how much beauty I perceive in the world with my exquisite senses. I would not trade one small bit of that beauty, as overwhelming and powerful as it can be, for "normalcy."

May 9, 2009 - Spring is here and the yearly spring clean up of Tylersroom is done. I removed a few rarely used and/or perpetually broken feeds and all savings will go towards some new stuff coming up soon. After much feedback we're going to increase the action partnerings in the Originals and throw in a few bonus episodes now and then. Also by request we will soon be adding a store where you will be able to buy any Originals scene in super high-quality DVD format or packages of scenes. Ryan and I always welcome feedback so never hesitate to email us.

I have been a Vancouver Canucks hockey fan for longer than I care to admit and have a great sense this could be our year. We have to get by the young and eager Chicago Black Hawks first and that series is currently tied 2-2 with game 5 tonight in Vancouver. Vancouver plays like a defensive clinic when they're on their game - boring as hell at times - frustrating for the other team, but ask The New Jersey Devils, this is a way to win cups. I picked the Pittsburgh Penguins and Vancouver Canucks in the finals from the outset and so far things are still on track for that possibility. Carolina Hurricanes being on the verge of upsetting the top seed Boston Bruins was not expected at all though and might be an unforerseen wildcard. And then there's the Anaheim Ducks, that team scares me, I'm not sure who The Canucks would be better off against in the western finals, the Red Wings or Ducks, if we make it that far. It's been some exciting hockey thus far.

Here's some pics of some early bloomers in the garden and me and Bandit. More soon...

April 2, 2009 - The snow is gone, the early bulbs are popping up and almost all the fish in my pond survived a very harsh winter. Spring is here woohoo!! I can't wait to get out and start taking some pics again. I'll be updating my blog more often as well. I've personally been through alot of crazy shit in the past 6 months and there's nothing more therapeutic than writing in here. Be warned hehe.

Ryan and I have been quiet for a bit but we've been working hard on some big changes for the website which will be coming soon. Thanks very much for sticking with us during a tough economic time for alot of us. As always, feel free to email me or Ryan with problems, suggestions or just to say hello!

January 1, 2009 - Happy New Year!

I'd like to wish everyone a safe, peaceful, healthy and prosperous 2009.

There are lots of exciting new things in the works for Tylersroom in our ninth (!) year and once again I'd like to thank everyone for your continuing support.

Blog updates coming soon...

November 5, 2008



A great collection of the front pages of many newspapers depicting Obama's historic victory.

November 4, 2008

Nothing can stand in the way of the power of millions of voices calling for change.

October 28, 2008 - Why, as a Canadian, am I biting my nails down to the bone about the 2008 US election? Because what happens in the US will shape our future far more than anything that happens here at home. If America doesn't prosper, neither do we. If America isn't safe, neither are we. Canadians desperately want America to find it's way again.

I think (and really hope) Barack Obama is going to win, all the momentum and polling seems to be going his way. One week out and he's up by as much as 8 points in Virginia, a state that hasn't voted for a Democrat since 1964. He draws staggering crowds in both traditionally red and blue states like never before in the history of US politics.

John McCain and especially Sarah Palin are throwing mud and holding divisive rallies but the good news is - it doesn't appear to be working this time. The pitbull in lipstick has turned out to be an albatross in high heels hanging like a noose around McCain's neck. McCain and Palins' ugly campaign does not appear to be swinging independents in his favor but having quite the opposite effect.

If this becomes a rout (I hope), maybe we'll see the end of not only Bush-style economics and foreign policy, but the end of the poison that is the Rove-style politics of personal destruction.

In these times what matters in a leader is not knowledge, experience or partisan politics. What matters is character, temperament and judgement. Who's better to navigate through this mess? Even those who think Obama is a seriously flawed candidate now think it's him. He's a rookie but he's the best they've got.

Not all Republicans are clueless hockey moms or racists. A surprising number are intelligent professionals who are convinced Democrats are inherently evil. They really think that, if he's elected, it's the end of the world. They are the mirror image of the fanatics on the left except they wield influential power in the Republican party. Barack Obama will never get these people on his side. But if he wins he can do something else. Reset the tone.

Sometimes you don't know until near the end what an election is really all about. This election is no longer about the audacity of hope, or the first black president, or Sarah Palin, or the Iraq war or even the total ineptness of the current president. It's about America on the ropes, and it's ability to regain it's footing and find it's way again in a troubled world. The stakes are high for us because, until it does, we're all in trouble.




On a side note I started this website on Nov 12, 2000 right during the thick of the 2000 Florida result debacle and wrote my very first blog post on the day the Supreme Court said Bush was President. Needless to say I was whining in my first ever post.

Now it's done. The Bush era is over. Upwards and onwards friends.


After midnight on Saturday night I let Bandit out for a pee and he came face to face with a skunk.
Well he won the battle but got sprayed right in the face in the process.
I heard the commotion and called him in, as he got closer the fumes started to get stronger. He came in the house and proceeded to roll around on the floor and brush himself up against walls and cupboards.
I almost lost my lunch (actually I did after a couple of hours in the stink ) I have never smelled anything like it. It was nothing like the drive-by smell of a skunk, not only was it 10 times stronger - strong enough to burn your nostrils - but it had this almost "burnt" smell to it. Really, really gross.
I had already had a few drinks and had no idea what to do so I panicked and locked Bandit on Ryan's side for the night.
A friend came over in the morning and Bandit was given two tomato juice baths and one shampoo bath. He still smells faintly but it's bearable now.
I spent the entire day today washing down walls and floors. It's now a scintillatingly sickening aroma of cleaning products and skunk. Skunk is such a hard smell to get rid of.
While I was trying to fall asleep that night I was just trying to pretend that I was back in my growing days

August 12, 2008 - Talk about a cloudy and rainy summer. Blah. Everyone keeps thinking it's gonna get better but here we are in mid August and it's still raining . Couple the rain with the incredible amount of snow we had earlier this year and long time precip records have been falling almost daily. On the up side the trees, grass and gardens are enjoying it. It hasn't really been hot this year either.

Thanks to all you guys for continually supporting my site and efforts for all these years. Watch for some new and interesting things in the fall. I've had many requests for more duos in the Originals, as we've had a string of solo guys, so those will be up soon. As always feel free to email Ryan or me if you need anything at all.

I've been enjoying the Olympics so far. I love watching the swimming and the new suits (though less revealing ) are very kewl and make the swimmers almost look like dolphins when they're racing. Sexy Michael Phelps has won two golds at this point and is still on target for eight. The men's relay final was just wild, Lezak's last minute heroics were great fun to watch. Talk about winning by a fingernail, apparently if the French swimmer had touched with his fingertips instead of his palms the result would have been much different. Haven't watched much else yet, lots of women's beach volley ball has been on and man is that like softcore porn or what . What's up with those itty bitty suits? Question is do the men just wear loin clothes? No medals for Canada yet but our swimmers actually have done well breaking tons of personal and Canadian records. I missed the opening ceremony but I've heard it was pretty fantastic.

Should be interesting who Obama picks as his VP. I find it a little odd that Bill Clinton will be introducing him/her on Wednesday night of the Democratic National Convention in a couple of weeks . It certainly doesn't look like his wife will be chosen as she's slated to talk Tuesday unless it's all a smoke screen but I doubt it. I wonder if the die-hard Hillary people will make any noise at the convention. Should be interesting to watch.
Even though nobody seems to want to address it (and for good reason) race is definitely going to play a big factor in this election, not that I think it should, but it will. I think Obama will have to tackle it graciously head on and not try to avoid it. He has to take the lead and try and reassure people he "is one of them" without playing the "race card" himself. Rumor already has it McCain's campaign plans to artfully, viciously exacerbate race in the weeks ahead. Not to mention the preacher who won't go away, Jeremiah Wright, is releasing a book and doing a book tour in October. The Obamans must not be so pleased about that.
I don't think Obama will win this election. Think ahead twenty years and imagine looking back on this election. Would it really seem that strange looking back that the first black major-party nominee, a guy with little experience, no foreign policy credentials in an age of terrorism and unrest, a very different background and the name Barack Hussein Obama, lost? It would probably seem inevitable. That Obama has beautifully and eloquently convinced many that the opposite outcome is even possible is his gift.
If I could vote, I would solidly fall into the category of undecided at this point.

My Challenger is finally in . I've had this car on order for 16 months and it was well worth the wait - I just love it! Dodge did a fantastic job keeping the retro styling of it's 1970's brother. The detail is really well done right down to the vintage fuel cap . I lucked out and got a 2008.75 First Edition version of this car but I'm betting you will see them all over the road in 2009. They will be available in a few different models in 2009, not all with the big Hemis under the hood. Some pics here.

Also here's some pics from around the garden from July and early August.

Talk to you later!

July 27, 2008 - I hope everyone is having a great summer. I've been roaming a bit, gardening alot and Ryan has been holding down the fort. I'll be updating my blog soon with some info about what is coming for the site in the fall, some pics from the past month and my usual ranting haha.

June 22, 2008 - Coming up on the 8th year for this site. There are a lot of changes going on in the industry and I will endeavor to keep this site relevant and interesting in the coming years. There hasn't been alot of new feeds available for us lately but we currently have 755 videos in the Video Downloads, 132 exclusive videos and pic sets in the Originals and 180,000 pictures in the Selected Sets. There will be some exciting new additions in the next few months so stay tuned.

I really disliked Hillary Clinton little more than a year ago but I must say she won me over during the last three months of her historic campaign. I was sad to see her go and don't really think she will be on the ticket as VP. I read somewhere that Michelle Obama can't stand her and is seriously pressuring her hubby not to choose her. My bet is if Barack Obama continues to lead in the polls closer to the August convention he will chose someone else, if he's behind or neck-in-neck maybe he'll take Hillary but I still think it's a long shot. For the past few months Clinton showed herself to be articulate, well informed, smart as a tack and graceful. The biased US press made me sick, the night Obama got the number of delegates he needed to clinch the nomination, when they jumped all over her because she didn't concede and throw her support behind him that night. What a crock, can you imagine how hard that must have been for her after getting so close? She bowed out graciously a few days later in a very eloquent speech that she gave a pass to speech wirters on and wrote herself. If only she had found her own voice a year ago. "We didn't quite break the glass ceiling but there are now 18,000 cracks."
Senator Obama better start talking issues and stop spouting talking points and lofty esoteric speechs because he's starting to appear like an empty suit. I'm sure he can surround himself with strong people but for a year that heavily favors the Democrats he seems a risky choice. Mind you with the big increase in registered Democrats (more than 40% first time since the polling started in the 60s) and the dwindling GOP base this could be a romp. I am convinced Hillary Clinton would have been a stronger general election canadidate but things worked out they way they did. I can't stand John McCain and his pandering so I guess it's Bambam as the lesser of two evils. Don't get me wrong I used to think McCain was one of the few decent Republicans but the man has really changed and is talking a whole load of crap right now. Saying Obama would be a continuation of the Carter administration is just plain silly and a little desperate if you ask me. Should be a very interesting fall nonetheless.

It was a shellacking very unbefitting King Fed.
The French Open once again proved to be Nadal's territory for the fourth year in a row as he humiliated the world's number 1 player Roger Federer 6-1, 6-3, 6-0 in the shortest finals match in the Open's history.
I don't think Wimbledon will come any easier for Roger. I had money on Djokovic for the Grand Slam this year until Nadal screwed it up. I think Nadal is going to be a thorn in alot of players' sides when it comes to the French Open not unlike Henin was. Speaking of Henin, I was very sad to see her retire, I lived to see her get beaten. I have noone to put anti-webpages up about anymore. I loved to hate her but she was a damn fine and entertaining player. The women's side has become a little boring right now and she will be missed.
You can't help but like Rafa tho, is he a nice young man or what? Not like Djokovic who seems to rub alot of people the wrong way.

Bring on the grass.



Here's some more garden pics taken this month. I've been asked by many of my readers if I could show a peek of the inside of my house after all the outdoor pics I've posted over the years. I can't take good indoor pics so I put a quick video tour together, the quality is only so-so but I did the best I could. I also mumble alot during it sorry for that, now I know why people are always asking me to speak up. My crib.

I've decided I've had enough of being single. I have started going out and meeting people and it's like someone unmuzzled me - once I get started you can't shut me up. I've been having fun though and I know not to try too hard but I would sure like to meet someone special. Suitors welcome.

May 19, 2008 - I've given up on these US elections. I never get my way. It never works out like I expect or hope. First in 1999 I thought it was impossible that a poorly spoken, seemingly dim-witted guy could be elected but he was... twice. In 2004 I thought Kerry was the absolute worst of the 8 or so Democratic contenders. When he rode onto the set of Letterman or whatever it was on his motor bike in leather pants I cringed. Same with the windusrfing episode. Now in 2008 I thought you had a bright, well informed and strong candidate and now she appears to be getting railroaded out of the picture. Meanwhile West Virginia is voting tonight and will likely give her a huge victory. Doesn't matter it's over says the media. Obama is like a huge question mark for me, I don't know exactly what it is he stands for. "Change" doesn't cut it with me as Bush ran on "Change" in 2000. I would however, if I could cast a vote, vote for either HRC or BHO over McCain. He confuses the hell out of me, when he ran against Bush in 2000 for the Republican nomination he seemed like a totally different person that he is now. He definitely takes the pandering game to whole new level. I think we have an election coming up here in Canada, hopefully I might at least get my way up here.

Spring is in full swing up here and I've started taking some pics around the garden again, you can see them here. Laterz

April 26, 2008 - The site is humming along in it's 8th year online and I thank you, as always, for your continuing support. I took some time off this year and left the day to day operations to Ryan. Seems like nobody noticed I was gone so big kudos to Ryan on a job well done. I'm back at work now and seeking out some hot new stuff for the site! Comments and suggestions are always more than welcome. You can email me anytime.

For all those who wrote asking why I wasn't updating here anymore, thanks for reading and I'll try to keep it up better. I could go off on a tangent about the US election but I don't wanna piss anyone off too much and I'm actually pretty mixed up by the whole thing anyway. One thing I can say is that it's been better than geography class anyday for learning about the States and thier populations not too mention how the whole process works. Quite a messy piece of work if you ask me but then you didn't ask and I'm not talking about politics.

Spring has finally arrived up here and not a minute too soon. In typical Eastern Ontario fashion we went from 35 F to 85 F in 4 days. It just stunning how fast things are growing this week, playing catch-up maybe. Lots of pics to come. I've always wanted a cottage by the water so this spring I decided to get the next best thing, a camper trailer. I got it from Ryan's grandparents who have kept it like brand new for the past few years. I plan on taking TR on the road this summer. Maybe I'll install some webcams and see what kind of trouble I can get up to. Some pics of the camper are here. Check back for updates of my travels in the TRmobile.