February 28, 2010 - I have always loved the winter Olympic games (there's stuff about Turin and Salt Lake City in this blog) but these games were so much more special in my own country and my favorite city in the world! The opening ceremonies just blew me away and now the closing ceremonies are due up this evening. The USA (our neighbours ) had an awesome Olympics, especially their amazing Alpine team! Canada, well we broke the all-time most gold medals at a single games record with 14 awesome gold performances! Holy man have we got some patriotism going - every city, every town, every street - we are one happy and proud nation! We've spent so many years sort of hanging our mantra on being proud NOT to be American - something has happened this past decade, maybe our work in Afghanistan and all our lost soldiers, not sure, but this Olympics has brought my country together like never before in my lifetime and even if it's just been a temporary break in our normally aloof way - I'm thoroughly PROUD to be a Canadian!
What do I need to say about hockey. A gold medal game for the ages.
Some of the many hilites for me were... Joannie Rochette skating to a bronze medal days after her Mother's unexpected death, she was truly golden to all of us. I am not a big fan of ice dancing but I definitely saw how good those two Canadians, Tessa Virtue and Scott Moir, skated - talk about in synch with each other during that spinning part. Charles Hamelin and the awesome reaction of his girlfriend Marianne St. Gelais (who also medaled) when he won the gold medal in the 500M short track speedskating! Jon Montgomery drinking a pitcher of beer during his victory walk through Whistler for his gold medal in skeleton. Shaun White's preformance in the pike was just plain stunning. I could go on and on but likely you were watching too!
Gotta love curling - you tell me in what other sport can you drink beer while you play! Did you know there's only one place in the world, somewhere in Scotland, they can get the granite from to make those rocks so they don't break and they sweat enough whatever that means and - brace yourselves everyone - they are running oot! Curling is doomed! Big congrats to both our women's and men's teams! Silver and gold respectively.
A couple of low points for me was the women's hockey - how painful is that to watch. It is so completely uncompetitive - only the US women's team can challenge Canada - all other teams get beaten 20-0. If the rest of the world was catching up slowly fine but they're not - it's going the opposite way. Time to dump women's hockey from the Olympics. And I feel almost blasphemous for saying this and I'm glad we won our first gold and all - and I was totally caught up in the moment but - I have a very strange fascination with Dale Begg-Smith, I have for many years now since I lived In BC, and I think he actually won that race handily as do alot of people. He made no errors whatsoever and Alexandre Bilodeau did make a few but like figure skating we have to take the word of the judges.
Silly moments... halfpipe bronze medalist Scotty Lagos (USA) sent home early cause these 'racy' pictures of him surfaced on the net. I mean really! he's a snowboarder, give me a break - poor guy, just having some fun. Sexy tattoo!
Sad moment of course the extremely tragic death of the Georgian luger Nodar Kumaritashvili who should have been here tonight representing his country at the closing ceremonies.
HD videos of the opening ceremony for anyone who missed it or wants to see it again as well as some memorable TV commercials are here... Opening Ceremony Videos.
The one below is a hilite for me.
Countdown to the Ceremony
Thanks Canada - that was some show!
January 31, 2010 - Hey guys (and gals) make sure you check out the Originals - the latest updates are awesome quality and I added an option of a large 1280 X 720 (7000 bitrate/720p) "super" version which is perfect for burning to DVD and watching on a large display! Jaro and Miro make for a hot couple, Miro clearly loves to bottom. This week's guy Tomas has a beautiful round butt and sexy eyes! Even the non-member preview videos are hot and in HD so be sure to check them out! There are many more hot originals in the pipeline. I have been going over the website and making some changes to aid in navigation etc and there will be lots of new additions and interesting things coming up over the next few months so watch for those. As always any suggestions are welcome, you can email me here.
After three years of working for Tylersroom, Ryan has moved on to pursue new things. I would like to thank him for his help over the years and of course his friendship. I wish him all the best in his new endeavors. Meilleur de chance dans instruit Ryan et votre carrière future! I will be introducing a new Tylersroom guy here and on the forum soon and look forward to his participation.
If you don't know who these guys are then you're probably not a hockey fan. The Sedin twins play for my Vancouver Canucks and Henrik is the top scorer in the league right now and could become the first ever Vancouver Canuck to win the Hart Trophy (most points in the regular season). His identical brother Daniel is right on pace to be tied with Henrik (like he did last year exactly LOL) but he missed the first 20 games with a foot injury. Add Alex Burrows to the mix (he surely must have some Sedin DNA hehe) and you have the league's best line by far. Watching the twins play is surreal, I have been watching hockey since I was a kid and never have I seen two players so in synch with each other - not even Gretzky and Kurri. It's uncanny and super fun to watch! Henrik and Daniel have been very underated and are just getting better and better every year, I think they're going to get lots of attention soon. Then there's Ryan Kesler's line and Luongo in net and well it's looking really promising this year for Vancouver - first the Olympics then the Stanlety Cup - yup, that sounds just fine to me.
Gotta love this effort... I had a Jeep like this once and remember all those sounds soooo well.
I updated my Canada page (that page dates back ten years :P) with a kewl video by maritime rappers Classified - their take on 'O Canada' - it's well done and certain to bring out some patriotism in my fellow Canadians. Thanks to Zonato for posting that on the forum.
December 4, 2009 - Unlike 'balloon boy' and 'WH party crashers' et al, Susan Boyle was a delightful story this year and worth every bit of the attention it garnered.
I received her album today from Amazon and not only does it live up to the hype it exceeds it and then some.
She does 12 diverse songs and nails every single one of them. Man, her rendition of 'Wild Horses' by The Rolling Stones (her professed personal fave in the liner notes) brings a tear to my eye, Mick Jagger said he must have written the song for Susan all those years ago they just never met. I would tend to agree hehe.
'Cry me a River' is breathtaking in it's intensity. The hymn 'How Great Thou Art' (one of my Mum's favorites) is breathy and inspirational. Her take on 'Daydream Believer' is cute. 'Amazing Grace', well that's just the sound of a siren of ethereal Scottish fields and well - just amazing. The only original song on the album, written for Susan by Audra Mae is yet another stand out, 'Who I Was Born To Be' has some nice lyrics and fits right in with all of these timeless classics. She closes with 'Silent Night' - hauntingly beautiful with her leading the choir.
She has some slightly rough edges in her delivery and that coupled with her playful Scottish accent is what makes this better I believe than a more polished singer would ever have done with this collection.
The song, that of course is her signature, is in no way better than her other offerings but it stands out simply for the sweet fairytale that is the discovery of Susan Boyle. Hearing the wonderful orchestra follow her into a spell-binding crescendo as she sings 'I Dreamed A Dream' made the hair on my neck stand up. Again.
Having smashed sales records already I will be surprised if this collection of songs does not end up as one of the top ten best selling albums of all time.
I can't believe this decade is coming to an end.
It's certainly been an interesting one for me but that's another post hehe.
This is simply a question...
We had the nineties, the seventies, the twenties etc - what will this decade be called? The zeroes?
November 22, 2009 - I had an interesting conversation with someone about Asperger's Syndrome the other day which inspired me to revisit this subject.
In this conversation something I hear about alot came up. The currently "fashionable" aspect of Asperger's Syndrome, it's use in characters on television and in movies as well as celebrities and the like coming forward to say that they too have the syndrome. There is even rumours of how it will be taken off the official list of Pervasive Developmental Disorders - this doesn't mean it doesn't exist - this is an attempt to re-classify the syndrome which is probably a good thing from what I've learned. I even read where one person said "You have to volunteer for the diagnosis or it won't work" WTF!
I am a cynic, I'm a realist and I fight with anything abstract - always have. I had never even heard of this syndrome (I barely even knew what Autism was other than I thought it was a children's thing) before I was diagnosed and I never sought out the diagnosis. I was getting help for a creeping cocaine problem and this is what led to the Asperger's discovery. I ignored it the first week, the second week the word 'Aspergers' stuck with me, after the third week I was googling and reading on my own. I found the article from the lady at CNN from my original post and that was my cathartic moment. I knew something was going on.
The reason, in my mind, people are making light of Asperger's Syndrome is because of the symptoms - there are a zillion manifestations of the symptoms. Going by just that everyone could be an Aspie in one way or another. "I hate driving in the city, it overwhelms me, therefore I'm an Aspie", "I have days I can't stand being around people - I must be an Aspie", "I don't like crowds - Aspie.". This is a pile of bunk - you have to learn the traits which cause the widely assorted symptoms in a group of vastly different personalities. A group is made up of a series of associated traits or characteristics not symptoms. If you have one trait of an Aspergers person you are not part of the group - you must have almost ALL the traits which is how the group was formed in the first place - in this case based on studies done in the 40s by Hans Asperger who saw this cluster of characteristics as very distinct. I might sound combative about this but I NEVER went looking for this and when something so matter of factly describes and answers life long puzzles and questions for you it's hard to hear a non-Aspie make light of it based on some false information and "band wagon" weirdos. Why would anyone want to have social deficiencies and super hyper-sensitive senses?
Try going through your life hating to be touched yet being as horny as any other red-blooded human. Finally I know the secret! I always needed to seek out solitude so I could rock in peace without looking like a twit - slider chairs have been my saviour - I know why now and don't feel so foolish about it anymore. I can't just randomly go somewhere, I have to know my exact route, right down to which streets I will turn left on and which aisles of the store I will go down - I preplan all this and just figured everyone did that. No wonder a driving test is so very difficult for me not knowing until seconds before which way I'm supposed to be going. I have an obsessive need to put periods of my life in exact chronological order in my mind/memory before I fall asleep at night - I thought this was what everyone did, counting sheep so to speak. I can't take people dropping in on me and invariably don't answer the door - even a phone call when not expected can throw me right off and usually goes unanswered. I could go on and on but as I said taking just one of these things on its own does not make up a person living with Aspergers - it's a cluster of genetic characteristics. Can we all have a label for our personalities? Possibly, but that's not the point, this is not a "personality type" it's a learning and maturing disability that is well documented. Unless you're an Aspie, my brain is wired differently than yours and I get through my life differently than you get through yours. Again I'm not talking symptoms or preferences - yes everybody gets through life in their own way - I'm talking fundamental social behaviour and patterns that distinctively distinguish a person living with Asperger's Syndrome.
I said I would reflect on how it has affected my life and in all honesty it has, quite substantially and in some unexpected ways. I met one VERY cute Aspie through my blog post who has become very special to me I also found out a good friend of mine, with whom I've had a combustible relationship with over the years to say the least, also had this diagnosis many years ago and I have enjoyed immensely relating our life's experiences since and understanding each other better.
I also have an Aspie folder in my email box with over a hundred emails from other Aspies, doctors, teachers, social workers and just people thanking me for helping to lead them in the direction of their own life's discoveries. I communicate regularly with many of these people now.
Has my life gotten better for knowing about Asperger's Syndrome, learning about how others live with it and seeing it first hand? Absolutely!
Has writing about this publicly been worth it? You bet it has!
For more info on Asperger's Syndrome read my post below from June 1, 2009.
Well it's been almost more than 2 months for me and I know for sure I'll never smoke again. The joy of quitting is wearing off now and I don't think about it nearly as much anymore.
Watching kitty and some others take on the book has had me thinking alot about it and why it works for so many people and seemed almost like magic to me.
I wonder if there IS something to be said for the fact you must really want to quit. I didn't think so because I never went into it particularily wanting to quit I had someone nagging me incessantly and it seemed to be the easier thing to do. After reading it I just figured anyone forced to read it would quit - maybe that's not it though.
It's simple to buy some patches or gum and use that stuff, it's even relatively easy to drop into a laser clinic etc - but reading a book - that takes a major effort. I've had that book in my bedside table for two years since Gail quit and suggested it to me. I never wanted to read it because she was so convincing it would work and the thought sort of frightened me hehe.
So maybe one really does have to want to quit when one takes the time to actually read a book about it.
I'm not diminishing the book at all - it's brilliant - and is the only reason I will never smoke for the rest of my life.
Just thoughts on the subject. For more info on this book and how I easily quit smoking read my post below from October 16, 2009.
November 10, 2009 - She's baaaccckkk.
Sarah Palin has one of the best selling books in recent years, millions of followers on Facebook and Twitter (a very Obama-like strategy for 2012) and a love her or hate her iconic personality that has the media frothing at the mouth following her every move for over a year now. Cult of personality.
She was on Oprah today promoting her new book "Going Rogue" and did OK I guess, still a little annoying, but she made sense at least. Network news was saying this show pulled superbowl type audience numbers, I watched it and I never watch daytime shows like that so that says something I guess. I think she'll be a serious force to be reckoned with, whether against her fellow Republicans in the primaries or even for the Whitehouse or perhaps as an afternoon talk show host.
Check out her cover on newsweek! Pretty sexy!
Will you read her book?
I think I'll pass on "Going Rogue" and save my pennies for the Playgirl magazine issue that will soon come to the shelves featuring her dirt-dishing "son-in-law" Levi Johnston. Serious fantasy material that boy is. On the road to hell with "his porn" according to Sarah though on Oprah today.
Actually I'll probably read Palin's book as a matter of fact you betcha I will!
October 28, 2009 - I sorta met this guy who I kinda care how I look around ya know...
So I decided to buy some new clothes today - some nice tops, polo type I had in mind - and some pants, some jeans and some of those chino type pants. So I got what looked like a good haul together at a local men's outlet - several pairs of pants and some kewl shirts - checked out and headed home none too worse for the experience (besides the irritating sales woman who kept happening to be folding clothes wherever I was - ie: I'm a shop lifter I did nothing but glare at her as I checked out ) .
Well wasn't that a total disaster. Nothing fit - not one cock-knocking thing.
I know what happened with the pants I thought the length came first not the waist so I totally fucked that up - but the shirts man I am so not a 'small' anymore LOL - maybe I haven't been clothes shopping since I was 18. Anyway, luckily I didn't take any tags off or anything and can return the stuff for some size adjustments tomorrow.
Set me back a notch or too though in my attempts to conquer my fear of clothes shopping.
October 16, 2009 - So after many years of smoking (heavily the past few) I've quit. It's been four weeks now and I can confidently say I'm done. Forever.
I read the book "Easy Way to Stop Smoking" by Allen Carr and just like all others who have read it - I stopped after the final chapter. I won't go into details about the book but I highly recommend it to any smokers who want to quit (and that's every smoker ). It's not some magic or drugs or nicotine replacement technique doomed to failure, Allen Carr masterfully and effectively undoes the smoker's brainwashing and puts the nicotine addiction in it's place as just an incredibly addicting substance but quickly in and out of the body and only relatively mild withdrawals. Once done reading this book quiting no longer becomes a fearful thing and that feeling of dread that you'll be missing something for the rest of your life just disappears. Willpower doesn't work - only in the very strong and then it's always a battle - this way you don't need willpower - it's a joy to quit. You learn that each new cigarette is not a relaxing, nice thing but a cure from the withdrawal of the last cigarette and just continuing the process. What smokers learn to feel as relaxation and stress relief is actually what's causing or increasing that stress in the first place. Non-smokers don't need a cigarette to relax. Funny how we want a cigarette sooo bad but then when we're actually smoking it we're often thinking 'yuck why am I doing this' - until it's out and then the whole process starts over again.
All the benefits of not smoking out number the benefits of smoking by far because there are no benefits to smoking! The changes (recovery) happen so fast to the body, the complexion gets so much better as does muscle tone, appetite, the senses of smell and taste, the breathing, the sex! and on and on and on...
I will never smoke again and quitting was one of the most enjoyable and easiest things I've ever experienced. I'm not kidding. Read the book!
So I'll stop now at the risk of being really annoying to any smokers reading this. But as the book says - quitting is one of the most important things a smoker can do in his lifetime, so you want to announce your accomplishment. Nobody ever announces they've started smoking.
Bandit hasn't been a "bad puppy" but I made this thread about him years ago so I thought I'd add his latest drama here...
Bandit has had a "friend" Chloe since he was a puppy, the farmer-next-door's dog, who he chases up and down the fence separating our properties every day. He spends all his time waiting for the tractor to come along the fence and go for his runs. This all seemed like fun and often Karen, Gail and I would watch on our side while the farmer watched on his side and nothing ever came of it. Rarely did either dog go on the other's property.
This past spring the farmer added a new dog to the mix, a very ugly (OK I'm biased hehe) blueish-grey colored thing with pointy ears and a very mean face. For periods of time they kept this young dog chained but as the summer progressed he started joining Chloe in her little fence-running "game" with Bandit. Bandit stopped running the entire distance, seemed a little apprehensive and I could sense their demeanours changing. Chloe and "ugly" - I don't know his name, have started coming right on my property now challenging Bandit. He tends to keep his distance and just chase them off when necessary.
Well Bandit got attacked by those two dogs on Thursday. Bandit was freaking to go outside as usual while I was working with Ryan in his office. I let him out and off they went down the fence only this time they stopped and didn't come back. I called up to Ryan and told him to look at the dumb dogs with their heads stuck in the fence together again (this has happened before) but as soon as I opened the door I heard a noise I hope I never here again and started running to the scene. Chloe and Bandit were locked by the mouth and Bandit being in the worst position of the two was being pulled through the fence onto their side. I jumped in as Chloe and Bandit were locked (I could see Chloe's teeth coming out the bottom of Bandit's chin) I wailed on them both and made sounds I didn't know I could make. That not working, I tried to pull their mouths apart and got my hand stuck and got bit pretty badly - I know that's not the thing to do but my protective adrenaline was surging. While Chloe and Bandit were locked in the mouth hold - the other dog was taking chunks out of Bandit's back, tummy and legs. About ten seconds they let go of each other and my hand and I jumped on Bandit and smothered him with every ounce of strength I had as the other dogs kept coming at us. Luckily Ryan had come out to help although he is very nervous of dogs but just his presence and approach helped end the ordeal. Looking back I'm not sure this was an intentional fight - I think they accidentally got their mouths stuck (not unlike when they get their heads stuck in the fence) and it just escalated out of control. They always have had "words" with each other when they reach the fence ends and turn around to run back.
Bandit was a mess. I called the neighbours and they weren't very sympathetic - almost blaming me for inciting this over the years by letting Bandit out whenever the tractor or four-wheeler goes by - meanwhile they left me lying on top of my dog smothering him in the field, screaming and yelling while their dogs went at us. The farmer's wife did come out and was yelling for her husband but I guess he couldn't hear over his tractor. On the phone she made a dig deal about how mean and nasty the new breed of their younger dog is - I felt like I was being challenged - redneck farmers. Would they like me to get a second pit bull and even the playing field? As if. My dog is a gentle pet and I know their farm mentality makes their dogs a little less like pets and more like farm workers. She also tried to deny that her dogs ever came on my property and she see's my "dogs" on her property all the time - this is just not true. She can't see where they come over from her house but her husband has to know they come over here. She even said when she saw me lying in the field it was on her side so therefore Bandit was on their property - I told her I had a witness (Ryan) that that's not how it went. Before the new dog came along Bandit might have wandered over there occasionally but very rarely. I told her I needed to go for a tetanus shot as I haven't had one since I was a kid and she told me if I did that all our dogs would be quarantined - so I agreed to not do that. I did, however, take pictures of all the assorted wounds on me and the horrible wounds on my little boy. In the end they agreed to try and keep their dogs off my property if I stopped letting Bandit out whenever the tractor goes by - I explained that we all thought that was fun and games until the second dog came along and I asked if they thought differently why hadn't they spoken to me. Bottom line - they have guns - and I don't want to not get along with my neighbours there's been no trouble for 5 years now. They will get phone calls whenever those dogs are on my lot though.
It's Sunday now and Bandit has recovered very well - most of the swelling is under control and he's been licking his wounds better. He couldn't open his mouth to eat for two days but he's back eating now and I'm tucking the odd children's aspirin in his food.
I think these pictures sum it up well. Who is challenging and who is defending...
Here's some pics around the garden from this fall.
In our own way.
August 8, 2009 - I hope everyone is enjoying their summer (or winter ). It's been very cool, wet and generally gloomy in my part of the world this summer and people are starting to feel ripped off as we near the fall. When we do have a sunny day it sure is appreciated though.
Just a quick update - there is some exciting stuff coming up this fall, I am pleased to say we have partnered with a world class producer/director and have started shooting scenes for our upcoming new section 'Canadian Beef'! This section will be the new Originals and all the models will be totally shot for our site in stunning HD - you might recognize some people and things in the movies. The guys will all be Canadian and there will be lots of action shoots to accompany some of the hotties' solos. We will have a feedback system in place and will be able to produce what you want to see! I'm looking forward to this and hope it will be something you enjoy. So watch for that in the fall.
June 29, 2009 - We added a large resource to the site - Gay Porn Portal - 38 genre specific video consoles (each with a very decent selection), 4 HDTV feeds and a bunch of fun flash based games. Like I say on the main page this could be an entire website on it's own .
We're also up to 200 Originals now! That's almost 4 years worth, man time flies, it doesn't feel like that long at all since we started with those.
I've been enjoying Wimbledon this year. Just finished up the round of sixteen and both my picks, Serena and Roger are still going. Predictable I know but I figure always choosing Serena nets me one or two slams a year and well Nadal hadn't dropped out when I picked Federer, so I wasn't picking the favorite at that point. My heart would like to see Andy Roddick win this one, somehow I feel he works very hard and deserves another slam trophy. Check out the bigger version of his pic below by clicking on it.
Interesting to see Scotsman Andy Murray play under the home pressure, would be pretty awesome to see him win as well. An all Williams final is still possible, really hope not - no offence to the gals but I've had enough of those.
Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett dead in one day? It's like fate has taken to acting like a serial killer. I, like most guys of my generation, had the famous poster on my bedroom wall. Farrah was a beautiful woman on the inside as well as on the outside by all accounts. Her recent documentary on her struggle with cancer was inspiring and showed the inner strength she had. She lost her hard battle and will be missed.
Michael Jackson was murdered by a sort of cruelty, too large and viscious to fathom. Not unlike Elvis Presley, who had already been assassinated by the public and press and his closest friends, Michael had been shunned by the same over the past few years, even Quincy Jones, who made millions off his younger protege, had refused communication with him.
When Jackson married Lisa-Marie Presley, many viewed it as a sham wedding to divert attention away from his first molestation trial. I always thought it was more the King of Pop and daughter of King or Rock n Roll thing Michael was after, albeit a bad reason to marry, I mean look at his remarkably absurd sons' names Prince Michael Jackson I and II. Legacy and history with grandeur. The high camp aesthetics, heroic self portraits, red velvet thrones - all parts of his perverse and beautiful kingdom.
Michael was making a comeback. When he officially announced it, as always his charmingly innocent fans were there. After all this was the very same man who rewrote pop music as we knew it with Thriller. Or was he?
His eccentricity too great, his reputation so damaged, the world had all but written him off. He drifted, ghastly yet still stylish; like Blanche Dubois.
He left his beloved Neverland ranch and it's treasures to languish in neglect. His final exit off stage can be easily traced to his second molestation trial. Pyjamas, sleek black jackets, long eyelashes and pageboy wigs appeared to have pushed the public too far for sympathy. He seemed oblivious (as if in a morphine induced haze as some said), he won the trial but not much else.
Jackson was never convicted of anything. He was weird, he was brash. He was the lonely child of an abusive father. His art is without precedent or succession.
Will the public continue to talk of his controversial life or let him have a measure of dignity. Dignity many have refused him because of his profound otherness and beauty that became greater, he asserted, through surgery, fashion and performance. His own georgeous freakishness.
Michael Jackson should be remembered for the music he wrote. For his impossibly perfect motion; his thwarted abject love; and the face of trauma he presented as an artistic gesture to exquisite pain, pain we all beheld and turned away from - as he expected - in disgust and terror.
June 1, 2009 - Seeing as my hockey team got knocked out in the second round, every other team I even vaguely like are gone and the freakin' Red Wings and Penguins are in the Stanley Cup finals I turn my attention to tennis and the French Open.
I watched in shock like everyone else as Rafael Nadal, the best player on clay and four time reigning champion, bowed out to Robert Soderling. Novak Djokovic (little shit disturber hehe), arguably the second best player on clay, was also taken out by a much lower ranked player. Upsets at the French Open are nothing new but I don't think anyone saw Rafa's early exit coming. It looks really good for Roger Federer, who won a really tough five setter today, to finally complete his personal grand slam (all four majors) and surpass Pete Sampras at the same time for most slams ever. I thought Andy Roddick was having a good run this year, but he too went down in flames today to home favorite Gael Monfils, a fun player to watch . On the women's side Serena started slow but is looking like a contender for sure. She can keep her Grand Slam quest (all 4 majors in same year) alive with a win. Dinara Safina is playing like the number one player she is and totally obliterating her opponents on what appears to be a collision course with Serena. It's awesome to see Maria Sharapova back and playing so well, I'm not going to count her out either. The French Open is my favorite tournament, such a fast surface and a tournament where underdogs often surprise.
What do you suppose is up with this pic?
Here's some more garden pics from the last weeks of May.
Asperger's Syndrome
I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome a couple of weeks ago and what a ride it's been since learning this. So many personal agonies in my life explained - connecting dots and reading how other's live their lives with the condition has just been eye opening. I can say it's an enormous relief because it is, but it doesn't change anything - it just makes some of the things I never understood about myself more understandable now. With learning I hope I'm able to find ways to make some of my deficiences less of a burden to myself and others. I will not use it as some kind of excuse for inappropriate behaviour (I already have that mastered lol) but as a way to try and cope with some of my aspie traits. My family has had a bit of an epiphany over this as we can relate it to my father who died in 1999. There is no doubt he had this syndrome as well and it makes some of his brutal choices about his family make more sense to us now.
One interesting thing is people born in Deep River, Ontario from 1965-1980 (that would include me) have a well-documented abnormal rate of Asperger's syndrome, well above the national average. This led me to wonder about living next to a nuclear power plant but that doesn't appear to be relevant, the leading theory is that it is a genetic condition. Just a coincidence I guess.
Most of you won't know me personally enough to know how profound a discovery this is for me. I am most definitely not looking for sympathy (see quote below) but I wanted to write about it in hopes I could find others who want to share or might learn themselves about Asperger's and people around them that might have the condition. I welcome any emails on the subject.
I wanted to write how this affects my life but it's too soon for me to really process it all yet. The following article was one sent to me early in my diagnosis and startled me with the extent to which it could have been written by me. I certainly couldn't have said it any better than this lady does...
Asperger's: My life as an Earthbound alien - an anonmymous person who works for CNN.
Recently, at 48 years of age, I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome. For most of my life, I knew that I was "other," not quite like everyone else. I searched for years for answers and found none, until an assignment at work required me to research autism. During that research, I found in the lives of other people with Asperger's threads of similarity that led to the diagnosis. Although having the diagnosis has been cathartic, it does not change the "otherness." It only confirms it.
When I talk to people about this aspect of myself, they always want to know what it means to be an "Aspie," as opposed to a "Neurotypical" (NT). Oh, dear, where to start . ...
The one thing people seem to know about Asperger's, if they know anything at all, is the geek factor. Bill Gates is rumored to be an Aspie. We tend to have specialized interests, and we will talk about them, ad infinitum, whether you are interested or not. Recognizing my tendency to soliloquize, I often choose silence, although perhaps not often enough. Due to our extensive vocabularies and uninflected manner of speaking, we are called "little professors," or arrogant.
I don't quite understand small talk, and early in my adult life, solecisms were frequent. At meetings, I launch into business without the expected social acknowledgments. It's not that I don't care about people, I am just very focused on task. Do you have to rehearse greeting people to reinforce that you should do it? I do.
I am lucky to have a very dear friend who savors my eccentricities. She laughs, lovingly, about one particular evening at a restaurant. Before she could get seated, I asked her what she knew about the golden ratio and began to spew everything I know about it. I re-emphasize how lucky I am to have her as a friend, because this incident occurred long before I was diagnosed.
A misconception is that Aspies do not have a sense of humor. It is true that we can be very literal, so we often miss the humor in everyday banter, but we can and do enjoy even subtle humor. Our literal interpretations, however, can be problematic.
In first grade, whenever someone made a mess in the classroom, the teacher would ask a student to get the janitor. The student would come back with Mr. Jones (not really his name), who carried a broom and large folding dustpan. When I was asked to get the janitor, I looked all over the school and reported back to the teacher that I could not find it. After all, the person was Mr. Jones, so the janitor must be the object, right?
I lack the ability to see emotion in most facial expressions. I compensate for this deficiency by listening to the inflections in people's voices and using logic to determine emotional context. The words people choose, their movements, or even how quickly they exit a meeting can provide clues to emotion.
I also have intensified senses -- touch, taste, smell, sight, and sound -- so I am attuned to lights, noise, textures, and smells. In a "busy" environment, I will eventually go into sensory overload and my mind will go blank. When this happens, I have to "go away" mentally for a brief period to regain focus. When I "return," I have to piece together what occurred while I was "away." The additional mental processing I must do to function every day is fatiguing, and I don't handle "ad hoc" very well. Being asked to respond quickly in the midst of all this other processing is difficult, sometimes impossible.
I am so sensitive to touch that a tickle hurts me. This is the hardest concept for most people to understand. How can a tickle hurt? All I can tell you is that it does, so I avoid being touched except by those who have learned how to touch me.
Hugs are dispensed infrequently, but if I do hug someone, I resemble Frankenstein's monster, arms extended to control contact. When my dad (who I suspect is an Aspie, too) and I hug, we both have "the approach." We sometimes miss and have to re-approach a couple of times until a brief, awkward hug is achieved.
In school, other children noted my differences, and I was bullied (and tickled into fits of despair) for years. Already needing extended periods of time alone, my response was to become even more of a loner. Uh oh. When you are weird, you are a joke. When you are a loner, you frighten people. It's always the quiet ones. ...
I am married (wow!), and my brilliant husband is an absolute sweetheart. I don't know any other man who has the self-confidence to be pushed away (sometimes sharply), both physically and mentally, as often as he has been. He has been gentle and patient (and, yes, frequently emotionally depleted) as we both worked through my need for space, tendency to go so deep into my own world that the real world and everyone in it cease to exist, and sensitivity to touch during the 26 (soon to be 27) years of our marriage.
I live with anxiety, because the world can be overwhelming and people have expectations that I always, sooner or later, fail to meet. I cannot begin to tell you how many times I have been told that I am rude, inaccessible or cold, yet I have never purposely tried to harm anyone, nor do I mean to be, well, mean.
I could tell you so much more, but instead let me share one last insight. Don't pity me or try to cure or change me. If you could live in my head for just one day, you might weep at how much beauty I perceive in the world with my exquisite senses. I would not trade one small bit of that beauty, as overwhelming and powerful as it can be, for "normalcy."
May 9, 2009 - Spring is here and the yearly spring clean up of Tylersroom is done. I removed a few rarely used and/or perpetually broken feeds and all savings will go towards some new stuff coming up soon. After much feedback we're going to increase the action partnerings in the Originals and throw in a few bonus episodes now and then. Also by request we will soon be adding a store where you will be able to buy any Originals scene in super high-quality DVD format or packages of scenes. Ryan and I always welcome feedback so never hesitate to email us.
I have been a Vancouver Canucks hockey fan for longer than I care to admit and have a great sense this could be our year. We have to get by the young and eager Chicago Black Hawks first and that series is currently tied 2-2 with game 5 tonight in Vancouver. Vancouver plays like a defensive clinic when they're on their game - boring as hell at times - frustrating for the other team, but ask The New Jersey Devils, this is a way to win cups. I picked the Pittsburgh Penguins and Vancouver Canucks in the finals from the outset and so far things are still on track for that possibility. Carolina Hurricanes being on the verge of upsetting the top seed Boston Bruins was not expected at all though and might be an unforerseen wildcard. And then there's the Anaheim Ducks, that team scares me, I'm not sure who The Canucks would be better off against in the western finals, the Red Wings or Ducks, if we make it that far. It's been some exciting hockey thus far.
Here's some pics of some early bloomers in the garden and me and Bandit. More soon...
April 2, 2009 - The snow is gone, the early bulbs are popping up and almost all the fish in my pond survived a very harsh winter. Spring is here woohoo!! I can't wait to get out and start taking some pics again. I'll be updating my blog more often as well. I've personally been through alot of crazy shit in the past 6 months and there's nothing more therapeutic than writing in here. Be warned hehe.
Ryan and I have been quiet for a bit but we've been working hard on some big changes for the website which will be coming soon. Thanks very much for sticking with us during a tough economic time for alot of us. As always, feel free to email me or Ryan with problems, suggestions or just to say hello!
January 1, 2009 - Happy New Year!
I'd like to wish everyone a safe, peaceful, healthy and prosperous 2009.
There are lots of exciting new things in the works for Tylersroom in our ninth (!) year and once again I'd like to thank everyone for your continuing support.
Blog updates coming soon...
November 5, 2008
A great collection of the front pages of many newspapers depicting Obama's historic victory.
November 4, 2008
Nothing can stand in the way of the power of millions of voices calling for change.
October 28, 2008 - Why, as a Canadian, am I biting my nails down to the bone about the 2008 US election? Because what happens in the US will shape our future far more than anything that happens here at home. If America doesn't prosper, neither do we. If America isn't safe, neither are we. Canadians desperately want America to find it's way again.
I think (and really hope) Barack Obama is going to win, all the momentum and polling seems to be going his way. One week out and he's up by as much as 8 points in Virginia, a state that hasn't voted for a Democrat since 1964. He draws staggering crowds in both traditionally red and blue states like never before in the history of US politics.
John McCain and especially Sarah Palin are throwing mud and holding divisive rallies but the good news is - it doesn't appear to be working this time. The pitbull in lipstick has turned out to be an albatross in high heels hanging like a noose around McCain's neck. McCain and Palins' ugly campaign does not appear to be swinging independents in his favor but having quite the opposite effect.
If this becomes a rout (I hope), maybe we'll see the end of not only Bush-style economics and foreign policy, but the end of the poison that is the Rove-style politics of personal destruction.
In these times what matters in a leader is not knowledge, experience or partisan politics. What matters is character, temperament and judgement. Who's better to navigate through this mess? Even those who think Obama is a seriously flawed candidate now think it's him. He's a rookie but he's the best they've got.
Not all Republicans are clueless hockey moms or racists. A surprising number are intelligent professionals who are convinced Democrats are inherently evil. They really think that, if he's elected, it's the end of the world. They are the mirror image of the fanatics on the left except they wield influential power in the Republican party. Barack Obama will never get these people on his side. But if he wins he can do something else. Reset the tone.
Sometimes you don't know until near the end what an election is really all about. This election is no longer about the audacity of hope, or the first black president, or Sarah Palin, or the Iraq war or even the total ineptness of the current president. It's about America on the ropes, and it's ability to regain it's footing and find it's way again in a troubled world. The stakes are high for us because, until it does, we're all in trouble.
On a side note I started this website on Nov 12, 2000 right during the thick of the 2000 Florida result debacle and wrote my very first blog post on the day the Supreme Court said Bush was President. Needless to say I was whining in my first ever post.
Now it's done. The Bush era is over. Upwards and onwards friends.
After midnight on Saturday night I let Bandit out for a pee and he came face to face with a skunk. Well he won the battle but got sprayed right in the face in the process. I heard the commotion and called him in, as he got closer the fumes started to get stronger. He came in the house and proceeded to roll around on the floor and brush himself up against walls and cupboards. I almost lost my lunch (actually I did after a couple of hours in the stink ) I have never smelled anything like it. It was nothing like the drive-by smell of a skunk, not only was it 10 times stronger - strong enough to burn your nostrils - but it had this almost "burnt" smell to it. Really, really gross. I had already had a few drinks and had no idea what to do so I panicked and locked Bandit on Ryan's side for the night. A friend came over in the morning and Bandit was given two tomato juice baths and one shampoo bath. He still smells faintly but it's bearable now. I spent the entire day today washing down walls and floors. It's now a scintillatingly sickening aroma of cleaning products and skunk. Skunk is such a hard smell to get rid of. While I was trying to fall asleep that night I was just trying to pretend that I was back in my growing days
August 12, 2008 - Talk about a cloudy and rainy summer. Blah. Everyone keeps thinking it's gonna get better but here we are in mid August and it's still raining . Couple the rain with the incredible amount of snow we had earlier this year and long time precip records have been falling almost daily. On the up side the trees, grass and gardens are enjoying it. It hasn't really been hot this year either.
Thanks to all you guys for continually supporting my site and efforts for all these years. Watch for some new and interesting things in the fall. I've had many requests for more duos in the Originals, as we've had a string of solo guys, so those will be up soon. As always feel free to email Ryan or me if you need anything at all.
I've been enjoying the Olympics so far. I love watching the swimming and the new suits (though less revealing ) are very kewl and make the swimmers almost look like dolphins when they're racing. Sexy Michael Phelps has won two golds at this point and is still on target for eight. The men's relay final was just wild, Lezak's last minute heroics were great fun to watch. Talk about winning by a fingernail, apparently if the French swimmer had touched with his fingertips instead of his palms the result would have been much different. Haven't watched much else yet, lots of women's beach volley ball has been on and man is that like softcore porn or what . What's up with those itty bitty suits? Question is do the men just wear loin clothes? No medals for Canada yet but our swimmers actually have done well breaking tons of personal and Canadian records. I missed the opening ceremony but I've heard it was pretty fantastic.
Should be interesting who Obama picks as his VP. I find it a little odd that Bill Clinton will be introducing him/her on Wednesday night of the Democratic National Convention in a couple of weeks . It certainly doesn't look like his wife will be chosen as she's slated to talk Tuesday unless it's all a smoke screen but I doubt it. I wonder if the die-hard Hillary people will make any noise at the convention. Should be interesting to watch.
Even though nobody seems to want to address it (and for good reason) race is definitely going to play a big factor in this election, not that I think it should, but it will. I think Obama will have to tackle it graciously head on and not try to avoid it. He has to take the lead and try and reassure people he "is one of them" without playing the "race card" himself. Rumor already has it McCain's campaign plans to artfully, viciously exacerbate race in the weeks ahead. Not to mention the preacher who won't go away, Jeremiah Wright, is releasing a book and doing a book tour in October. The Obamans must not be so pleased about that.
I don't think Obama will win this election. Think ahead twenty years and imagine looking back on this election. Would it really seem that strange looking back that the first black major-party nominee, a guy with little experience, no foreign policy credentials in an age of terrorism and unrest, a very different background and the name Barack Hussein Obama, lost? It would probably seem inevitable. That Obama has beautifully and eloquently convinced many that the opposite outcome is even possible is his gift.
If I could vote, I would solidly fall into the category of undecided at this point.
My Challenger is finally in . I've had this car on order for 16 months and it was well worth the wait - I just love it! Dodge did a fantastic job keeping the retro styling of it's 1970's brother. The detail is really well done right down to the vintage fuel cap . I lucked out and got a 2008.75 First Edition version of this car but I'm betting you will see them all over the road in 2009. They will be available in a few different models in 2009, not all with the big Hemis under the hood. Some pics here.
Also here's some pics from around the garden from July and early August.
Talk to you later!
July 27, 2008 - I hope everyone is having a great summer. I've been roaming a bit, gardening alot and Ryan has been holding down the fort. I'll be updating my blog soon with some info about what is coming for the site in the fall, some pics from the past month and my usual ranting haha.
June 22, 2008 - Coming up on the 8th year for this site. There are a lot of changes going on in the industry and I will endeavor to keep this site relevant and interesting in the coming years. There hasn't been alot of new feeds available for us lately but
we currently have 755 videos in the Video Downloads, 132 exclusive videos and pic sets in the Originals and 180,000 pictures in the Selected Sets. There will be some exciting new additions in the next few months so stay tuned.
I really disliked Hillary Clinton little more than a year ago but I must say she won me over during the last three months of her historic campaign. I was sad to see her go and don't really think she will be on the ticket as VP. I read somewhere that Michelle Obama can't stand her and is seriously pressuring her hubby not to choose her. My bet is if Barack Obama continues to lead in the polls closer to the August convention he will chose someone else, if he's behind or neck-in-neck maybe he'll take Hillary but I still think it's a long shot. For the past few months Clinton showed herself to be articulate, well informed, smart as a tack and graceful. The biased US press made me sick, the night Obama got the number of delegates he needed to clinch the nomination, when they jumped all over her because she didn't concede and throw her support behind him that night. What a crock, can you imagine how hard that must have been for her after getting so close? She bowed out graciously a few days later in a very eloquent speech that she gave a pass to speech wirters on and wrote herself. If only she had found her own voice a year ago. "We didn't quite break the glass ceiling but there are now 18,000 cracks." Senator Obama better start talking issues and stop spouting talking points and lofty esoteric speechs because he's starting to appear like an empty suit. I'm sure he can surround himself with strong people but for a year that heavily favors the Democrats he seems a risky choice. Mind you with the big increase in registered Democrats (more than 40% first time since the polling started in the 60s) and the dwindling GOP base this could be a romp. I am convinced Hillary Clinton would have been a stronger general election canadidate but things worked out they way they did. I can't stand John McCain and his pandering so I guess it's Bambam as the lesser of two evils. Don't get me wrong I used to think McCain was one of the few decent Republicans but the man has really changed and is talking a whole load of crap right now. Saying Obama would be a continuation of the Carter administration is just plain silly and a little desperate if you ask me. Should be a very interesting fall nonetheless.
It was a shellacking very unbefitting King Fed. The French Open once again proved to be Nadal's territory for the fourth year in a row as he humiliated the world's number 1 player Roger Federer 6-1, 6-3, 6-0 in the shortest finals match in the Open's history. I don't think Wimbledon will come any easier for Roger. I had money on Djokovic for the Grand Slam this year until Nadal screwed it up. I think Nadal is going to be a thorn in alot of players' sides when it comes to the French Open not unlike Henin was. Speaking of Henin, I was very sad to see her retire, I lived to see her get beaten. I have noone to put anti-webpages up about anymore. I loved to hate her but she was a damn fine and entertaining player. The women's side has become a little boring right now and she will be missed. You can't help but like Rafa tho, is he a nice young man or what? Not like Djokovic who seems to rub alot of people the wrong way.
Bring on the grass.
Here's some more garden pics taken this month. I've been asked by many of my readers if I could show a peek of the inside of my house after all the outdoor pics I've posted over the years. I can't take good indoor pics so I put a quick video tour together, the quality is only so-so but I did the best I could. I also mumble alot during it sorry for that, now I know why people are always asking me to speak up.
My crib.
I've decided I've had enough of being single. I have started going out and meeting people and it's like someone unmuzzled me - once I get started you can't shut me up. I've been having fun though and I know not to try too hard but I would sure like to meet someone special. Suitors welcome.
May 19, 2008 - I've given up on these US elections. I never get my way. It never works out like I expect or hope. First in 1999 I thought it was impossible that a poorly spoken, seemingly dim-witted guy could be elected but he was... twice. In 2004 I thought Kerry was the absolute worst of the 8 or so Democratic contenders. When he rode onto the set of Letterman or whatever it was on his motor bike in leather pants I cringed. Same with the windusrfing episode. Now in 2008 I thought you had a bright, well informed and strong candidate and now she appears to be getting railroaded out of the picture. Meanwhile West Virginia is voting tonight and will likely give her a huge victory. Doesn't matter it's over says the media. Obama is like a huge question mark for me, I don't know exactly what it is he stands for. "Change" doesn't cut it with me as Bush ran on "Change" in 2000. I would however, if I could cast a vote, vote for either HRC or BHO over McCain. He confuses the hell out of me, when he ran against Bush in 2000 for the Republican nomination he seemed like a totally different person that he is now. He definitely takes the pandering game to whole new level. I think we have an election coming up here in Canada, hopefully I might at least get my way up here.
Spring is in full swing up here and I've started taking some pics around the garden again, you can see them here. Laterz
April 26, 2008 - The site is humming along in it's 8th year online and I thank you, as always, for your continuing support. I took some time off this year and left the day to day operations to Ryan. Seems like nobody noticed I was gone
so big kudos to Ryan on a job well done. I'm back at work now and seeking out some hot new stuff for the site! Comments and suggestions are always more than welcome. You can email me anytime.
For all those who wrote asking why I wasn't updating here anymore, thanks for reading and I'll try to keep it up better. I could go off on a tangent about the US election but I don't wanna piss anyone off too much and I'm actually pretty mixed up by the whole thing anyway. One thing I can say is that it's been better than geography class anyday for learning about the States and thier populations not too mention how the whole process works. Quite a messy piece of work if you ask me but then you didn't ask and I'm not talking about politics.
Spring has finally arrived up here and not a minute too soon. In typical Eastern Ontario fashion we went from 35 F to 85 F in 4 days. It just stunning how fast things are growing this week, playing catch-up maybe. Lots of pics to come.
I've always wanted a cottage by the water so this spring I decided to get the next best thing, a camper trailer. I got it from Ryan's grandparents who have kept it like brand new for the past few years. I plan on taking TR on the road this summer.
Maybe I'll install some webcams and see what kind of trouble I can get up to.
Some pics of the camper are here.
Check back for updates of my travels in the TRmobile.
December 18, 2007 - Well this site has sure grown over the past couple of months. 25 new quality feeds have been added, fulfilling my promise that I would replace all the stale stuff I removed in the summer. Now the bottom of the page is just as important as the top! Among the noteworthy new feeds is Gay Mega Feed this could be an entire website on it's own and in all honesty has more content than alot of stand alone paysites that exist out there. The TV feeds are also outstanding quality with a diverse assortment of videos served up in fab high definition streaming video! Vic and Pavel on the Originals have proved to be our most popular offering in that section yet. Lots more hot stuff coming soon! Also with some new advertising and such over the past couple of months we have gained alot of new members, I welcome you all, hope you enjoy the site and as always you can email me anytime with problems, feedback or just to say hello.
What a year for snow where I live. We are just getting walloped, it's not even Christmas yet and we already have 2 feet on the ground and it just keeps coming. A complete flip from the unusual green Chistmas we had last year. I actually love the snow and find nothing more invigorating than bundling up and spending some time outdoors, I don't think anything beats the feeling of coming in the warm house for a hot drink after a few hours in the freezing cold. I thought this was a kewl picture, it's my dog Bandit's girlfriend from the farm next door waiting patiently like a statue in the perishing cold for Bandit to come out and play, Bandit does his best to stay and play with her but he does not have the coat she has and doesn't last long in these freezing temperatures. You can click on the pic to enlarge it as you can with most pics on my blog. Here's some more winter pics I have taken over the past month.
The garage is coming along well and is pretty much wrapped up until the new year I've updated the picture gallery here.
I am having company for the Christmas holidays so I've been busy decorating the house and a tree. I'm also hosting my family supper this year, my Mum is worrying her head off that I won't be able to pull it off and we'll end up at McDonalds for Christmas dinner. Mum should really have more faith in my ability to call friends for help. I'm really in the spirit this year, I wonder if all the snow adds to that feeling. Have a really good holiday season to all who celebrate and a safe and peaceful new year. It's been a pleasure serving up my website for yet another year.
November 20, 2007 - If you like hot Asian guys then I just added a new site for you! Boykakke is one of the premiere Asian gay sites on the net. Hope you enjoy. We are very close to the debut of our "DVD a day" for the Video Downloads. You will be able to download a new full length DVD every day and the videos will be presented with categories and search functions for easier browsing! I will also welcome suggestions for titles you would like to see on the site.
My driver's test update.... I didn't fail, my stupid car failed.
Actually I let the damn plates expire. The guy didn't even start the test.
I totally forgot your plates have to be renewed on your birthday in Ontario. It's different out west. When I renewed it today the lady said I should have gotten mail about it but unless it got lost in the shuffle - I didn't.
Oh well, one good thing I managed to rebook the test for a week from Friday, I was very worried it would be months.
October 31, 2007 - When I moved out west I let my Ontario license expire for more than 7 years. When I moved back they told me I'd have to go through the whole process again. I have been driving but I've needed a licensed driver with me.
And YES I've always made sure the licensed driver is with me.
Well I have my driver's test (finally! ) in a week. I can't believe after driving for so many years that I'm actually nervous. I'll die if I fail.
I've been practising parallel parking, I would say that's my biggest weakness. A friend told me she told her instructor she couldn't do it and he asked "Do you ever plan on doing it?" she said no and that was it - she passed. I wonder if I should take that approach? My luck that'll fail me on the spot.
Anyway, I'll do lots of driving in the next week to get ready.
I'm building a garage and thought I'd share the progress in pics
How Could You?
A story told from a dog's point of view...
When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and gloves and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" - but then you'd relent, and roll me over for a belly rub.
My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together. I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs," you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home when you were out.
Gradually, you began spending more time on your computer and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love.
He, now your partner, is not a "dog person" - still I welcomed him into our home, tried to show him affection, and obeyed him. I was happy because you were happy.
There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me. These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every expenditure on my behalf.
Now, you have a new opportunity in another city, and you will be moving to a place that does not allow pets. You've made the right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only family.
I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for him." They shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog, even one with "papers." You gave me a goodbye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you. You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too.
After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked "How could you?"
They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us, of course, but I lost my appetite days ago. At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you that you had changed your mind - that this was all a bad dream...or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might save me. When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited.
I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day, and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room. A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood.
She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured "How could you?"
Perhaps because she understood my dogspeak, she said "I'm so sorry." She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself - a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place. And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her. It was you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of. I will think of you and wait for you forever.
May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty.
October 16, 2007 - As some of you will know I've been a pot smoker for a very long time. I started in my late teens and never looked back. I even tried growing the stuff for awhile. Over the years I have defended it's use with the common arguments such as "it's not as harmful as alcohol and that's legal", "it doesn't lead to heavier drug use", "pot smokers are mostly pacifists", "it's natural" all of that stuff. Well I still believe that is doesn't lead to harder drug use, if it did I would surely have died from a heroin overdose by now. I also still find the comparison to alcohol legit and believe it's prohibition goes way back to the 40's and 50's and the chemical industries' desire to put the hemp industry out of business and pave the way for all the chemicals and plastics the world consumes today. I still believe it is a peaceful form of recreation and doesn't lead to barroom brawls. I don't think it's entirely natural. The way it is grown hydroponically nowadays is definitely not natural and the pot has gotten extremely potent with the grower's interference. Bottom line I don't condemn it.
I have, however, come to the conclusion that it has not been good for me. I have always been a shy guy but my pot usage has made that much worse almost to the point of shut in at times. It makes me put stuff off and be a major procrastinator. I don't think it ever affected my memory like I've heard it does to other people but how can I really judge what I don't know.
Three weeks ago I had a very sudden desire to make changes in my life. It came out of nowhere, nothing really induced it, it just happened. I decided I didn't want to smoke anymore. Ever since I became a webmaster and started working online the habit has gotten worse for me. At least when I worked outside of the house I never used to toke until after work allowing me to lead a half normal life at work.
So for the past three weeks I have not touched the stuff during daylight hours and now have it down to just one "bedtime toke". I'm really scared of my ability to sleep without it, sleeping was always a problem for me going back to when I was just a youngster and pot was a savior for that. I did make it through two nights in the past three weeks without touching the stuff at all but the sleeping was rough and I woke up pretty tired. I plan to cut it out completely but need to do it my own way at my own speed. The first few mornings during the first week I woke up inexplicably sad, almost to the point of tears, that has since passed thank goodness. The changes in me have been astronomical and everyone in my life has really noticed. I'm way more sociable and actually have a hard time staying home now and I find myself getting bored alot more often. So I go out even if it's just driving around the town or visiting my Mum. I find I'm still pretty intolerant of alot of things, but I always have been and that is something I intend to work on. Time has slowed down in a major way I find myself looking at the clock ten times a day, hopefully that too will pass, not that I want time to fly by but I need to get the time flow thing working again.
I am not one for taking vitamins and supplements - I do OK eating but I am taking salmon oil at the suggestion of a good friend who has been through the quitting pot saga. I drink half my weight in ounces of water every day now and I have noticed a huge change in my skin, digestion and other things. I never drank water before and now I find myself craving it. Don't let anyone tell you drinking water isn't a good thing. It definitely is. Anyway that's where I'm at right now. Cheers to a clear-headed future. I'll keep you posted how it goes.
A few of you have asked me how I keep in shape (at my age ) so I put together a little video of my daily routine, it's pretty bad but it does show my daily exercise routine. You can see it
here.
Hope everyone is well and if anyone has any tips or wants to talk about pot usage please drop me an email. As always if you have any comments, complaints, suggestions or anything at all about the website I love hearing from you. Here's some more assorted pics from around the house from the past few weeks - some amazing colors in the garden.
September 19, 2007 - Lots of new stuff coming up this fall and I was particularily pleased to add Jake Cruise to the line up. Jake films and often participates in his videos and has become world renowned for his ability to find hot, often straight amateur guys. Some people like his personal interaction with the boys others don't. Check it out for yourself and let me know what you think. Stay tuned for more new additions in the next few weeks. The new full length
Video Downloads seem to be a hit - you're sure gobbling them up and giving the servers a good workout on Sundays.
The US Open was truly entertaining this year. No rain like the washout that was Wimbledon this year and lots of close, memorable matches. Seeying Moya get so far was a highlight. Everyone is asking "Can anyone beat Roger Federer" and the short answer is no. Actually that's the long answer too. Nobody even came close except for young Novak Djokovic who had 7 set points against him in the first two sets and lost both in heart breaking tie breaks. Federer has an incredible knack of denying his opponent on the really important points, combine that with a little nervousness to close out sets by Novak and that was the story of the match. The fact he didn't collapse after those sets is another tribute to him. He will certainly be a force to reckon with in the future, my hunch is Federer might be passing the torch to him one day. Novak is such a likable guy too, did you see his imitations of other player's serves at the end of his semi finals match? They were just hilarious, he nailed Sharapova, Roddick and Nadal and had the crowd in stitches. You can search Djokovic on YouTube to see those performances. Justine Henin managed to beat both William sisters en route to winning the championship, a feat nobody has ever accomplished. I think Henin is in Serena's head now after the three straight quarterfinal losses but I really thought Venus would beat her. Henin is looking supreme on the courts right now and is breathtaking to watch. The power coming out of that little smurf is incredible. Since she divorced her husband earlier this year she seems so much more friendly, outgoing and happy - I'm actually starting to like her (just a bit ). That battle tank of a thing, Kusnetsova, who faced her in the finals really didn't put up much of a fight. Justine is starting to look like the female Federer. I must admit I'm a bit weary of tennis at this point. It was a great season but I'm glad it's over.
Well it certainly was a great summer. I'm still single and content with that for now. I find I get alot more lonely in the winter months than in the summer. I'm thinking of taking up some kind of winter sport this year for two reasons, to stay healthy and to stay sociable. I don't want to spend another winter hibernating which is what I tend to do. I might try and take a trip somewhere this year, I'm not a seasoned traveller, more of a home body, but I'm starting to get a bug to travel.
August 28, 2007 - Another summer coming to an end, man this one went by fast for me. I had a great summer fixing up and painting the outside of my house, working on changes to the website and meeting new friends. Campfires and canoeing were a couple of highlights for me, poison ivy a definite low point . The trees are starting to turn really early this year and the Canada geese are even starting to gather for their southward migration - might be an early winter this year. The site has had some facelifts over the summer as you've probably noticed. I tried to make the Video Downloads, Originals and the Selected Sets a little easier to browse with larger thumbs and more preview pics. The Video Downloads will feature one full length movie each week as opposed to mixed scenes from now on. There is also some new stuff on the horizon for September I always appreciate your feedback so please keep all the emails coming. All kinds of feedback are welcome - email me anytime.
This was a strange sight to me, I wasn't quite sure what to make of it... perhaps a UFO (to me anyway ). This jet came out of nowhere and the smoke trail just suddenly started mid air. It came up so fast in the weirdest arc I've ever seen, made no sound at all, even when right over head - telling me it was one big ass plane as it must of been way up there. Almost looks like a 767 with a package on it's belly. Payload?? I researched some Canadian military planes and couldn't find anything quite like it. Any aviation whiz's out there care to let me know what the heck it is??
The US Open just started this week, I haven't had a lot of time to tune in but my picks this go around are Serena Williams and Novak Djokovic - neither a heavy favorite but both definitely contenders. As I've said before I think in Serena's case if she wants to win it bad enough she can will herself to. I've been playing a little tennis this summer and man am I rusty. Quite the workout on the knees and ankles tennis is.
Speaking of work outs, I've approached mine with a new vigor lately. I've been steadliy increasing the weights I use, something I stopped doing years ago, and I am seeing some results already Getting older I sure realize the importance of stretching now. I make sure and stretch before and after working out. I can even touch my toes again - something I thought was long since a thing of my past. If you can't touch your toes here's three simple exercises which will make it easier to do.
1) Get down on all fours, hands in line with shoulders, knees in line with hips. I think this exercise is officially called a Camel Cat. Round your back by pushing it upward. Pause then push your lower back towards the floor like an arched position of a cat. Do that ten times. Try touching your toes. If it's still a no go....
2) Place your heels on a 2x4 or 25 lb weight. Maintaining the natural curve in your lower back, bend forward at your hips and reach toward your toes. Pause, stand up and repeat ten times. Try touching your toes now, if it's still a no go then do the same thing again but this time elevate your toes instead of your heel on the 2x4. Try touching your toes again, if it's still not possible...
3) While standing roll the bottom of your bare foot over a tennis ball. Work your entire sole over the ball for 60 seconds and repeat with your other foot. I bet you can touch your toes now.
Well happy back to school or work for those lucky enough to have had some time off this summer. Here's some late summer pics of me, Bandit, the house and garden.
July 14, 2007 - The new Originals duo went over well. Vic and Erik are pretty sexy young guys and they made a really hot video together, we'll see more of those two in the weeks to come. If you missed them there's some preview pics and a 30 second preview clip below. Martin, the beefy young hunk to the right will be coming to the Originals soon as well.
Here's a peek at Milan and Lukas who will be next week's coupling. There are some hot movies coming up for the Video Downloads including a personal fave of mine "Prague Sightseeing" so look for those over the next few weeks. The new help page will be up by Monday and feel free to contact us anytime if you have problems, feedback or suggestions.
It's been quite the week around here trying to get the damn colors for the outside of the house right. The week started out very frustrating but by the end we had finally found some colors we're satisfied with. My consulting group and I were all finally on the same page. Sometimes there were way too many cooks in the kitchen I think.
So one side is basically done, I posted some pics at the link below. Now come sides 2, 3 and 4 of the neverending painting project.
Here's some new pics of the house painting and stuff.
July 7, 2007 - We missed an Originals update this week, sorry for that, but I think the wait will be worth it for the new stuff next week.
There are some new video feeds coming this week which will feature really high quality streams of movies from exclusive studios not seen on other networks! Tylersroom currently boasts on site 680 videos in the Video Downloads, 90 exclusive videos and pic sets in the Originals and 160,000 pictures in the Selected Sets.
What a match Federer and Nadal just played in the Wimbledon finals. Wow. Federer won but Rafa pushed him to the edge, Roger was truly lost in the fourth set and I have never seen him unravel like that, true champions can pull themselves together and that he is and that he did in the fifth set. Nadal is getting closer and closer to Federer with every tournament it seems. I am quite pleased with myself I finally picked a Grand Slam winner, I don't get it right very often because I rarely choose the favorites. Venus Williams played like the Venus of old and smoked her way to the Championship in awesome form not unlike Serena did at the Australian Open a few months back. The William sisters are back with a vengeance this year. Novak Djokovic on the men's side impressed me the most this tournament, he is young and going to be a force to be reckoned with. He's just snuck his way into the top ten and is now ranked third in the world. He's really cute too, has a great personality and I love the way he takes off his shirt post match and throws it to the crowd a la soccer match. Not sure what the proper folk at the All England Club think about that.
The house painting came to a grinding halt on Friday when I decided I didn't like the new color scheme. Man was I in the doghouse haha. After several gallons of new colors we reached a consensus and will keep the main color but add a dark ochre to the windows to try and tone the overall look down. I was finding it a little jarring.
Here's some pics of me conquering my newly acquired fear of heights, the painting progress and more garden pics.
July 2, 2007 - I hope everyone is enjoying their summer. The weather up here has been a bit funky, either boiling hot or unnaturally cool. Not very much rain though and things are starting to need it. Moving along with the outside painting of my place though, I'm finding it alot of work but I have good help. I used to paint for a living years ago but I don't recall it being as physical as I do now. Maybe I'm just not in as good shape as I was then but it is nice to do some physical work for a change. I also used to (bravely or stupidly haha) hang off the top of a 40 foot ladder by one leg without a second thought - now put me at the top of a 20 foot and I'm basically paralyzed.
I've posted some pics of the progress at the end of this post and I'll be posting a before and after look when I'm done for anyone who is interested in that type of thing. Someone got a tattoo.
The Original's action duos that I promised are ready and we should see the first episode this Friday, next Friday at the latest. This is pretty hot stuff so I'm sure you'll be as pleased with it as I am. The new video download formats have gone over well. I have closed the forum as I want to focus all my energy on the main site again. The tone there had eroded from the cheery place it once was and the file sharing was becoming a major issue for me as well. It was a good run and I thank everyone who participated. There will be a new support/help page up shortly and Ryan, Jason and I are always here to provide support.
You can contact us through the links on this page. I will be updating this blog more often now with site updates, personal pics and my usual rantings.
Wimbledon seemed to come really fast on the heels of the French Open this year, not a bad thing for us tennis fans though. The rain, however, has made the tournament a real drag to watch and is obviously starting to wear on the players, Rafa Nadal has been downright cranky which is unusual for him. They are almost four days behind schedule now. My picks for this one are Venus Williams and Nadal. Tall order for Nadal to beat Federer at Wimbledon but ya never know, surely he has to break out of clay at some point. Just watched Serena Williams play through and win with a nasty leg injury, watching it happen at the end of the second set was brutal. What a performance in grit and determination that was.
Now she has another showdown with Justine Henin in the quarters. If the injury sticks then I can only imagine it will be lights out for her - Henin is playing really well. I don't like betting against Serena ever mind you, she says she's the best in the world when she's healthy and at this point I'm tending to agree with her. Could still have an all Williams Ladies finals. Andy Roddick sure is a hottie and is playing well with Jimmy Connors coaching, he has a good chance as well, although he will inevitably find a way to bottle it.
Here's some pics of the painting and garden the past couple of weeks.
A joke...
There is this costume party with the theme being emotions, you have to come dressed as an emotion. One guy shows up with a big heart costume on, the guy on the door asks what emotion he is and the guy says he is love. "Go ahead in" says the door guy. The next guy to walk up is dressed as a tooth. "What emotion do you represent?" the door guy asks. "Well, I'm pain" he replies. "Cute, go right in" says the door guy. Another guy approachs buck naked wearing nothing but a pear on his dick. Surprised the door guy asks "And just what emotion do you represent?" he replies "I'm fuckin' despair."
June 4, 2007 -
A few things I wanted to bring up regarding the site.
Starting soon the Original's updates will be mostly action episodes instead of just the solo we've had for the past while. Most of it has been arranged I just need a few weeks to get it flowing.
The Video Downloads will have an additional option of a HQ flash file to choose from. That should be ready for this Sunday's update.
Some might remember a few years back we were the guinea pigs for a new set of video feeds that were based on flash. It was really buggy back then and we soon abandoned them. Well I've heard from a couple of webmaster buddies that these are good feeds now. So I'm talking to them now - watch for that shortly. Maybe nothing in terms of super exclusive stuff but more variety is always a good thing.
I was also wondering if anyone would be interested in a story section? How about full novels you can download with covers and all? Not sure what the demand would be for something like this so I need feedback on that before I go ahead. Feel free to add your 2 cents to the thread I started in the forum.
Well that bites, that rotten Justine Henin (she divorced the Hardenne guy) beat Serena Williams at the French Open (I had Serena picked and Nadal on the men's side in my pool). Oh well, she played much better than Serena this time. Can't see anyone dethroning Henin now. Jankovic is playing well as is Sharapova (that girl is 6'4" now ) but I still think it's Justine's to lose.
I think the best match of the tournament thus far was Sharapova and the veteran Patty Schnyder in the round of 16. A three set cliff hanger with Sharapova fighting off numerous Schnyder match points before finally overcoming her 9-7 in the third. Talk about both women never giving up.
Tommy Robredo (handsome dude ) put up a good challenge in the quarters against Federer but it sure looks like he and Nadal are cruising towards a finals re-match.
I'm not very popular with the hockey fans around here (Ottawa Valley) as I've been cheering for the Anaheim Ducks since they knocked 'my' team (The Vancouver Canucks) out of the NHL playoffs. I always root for the team that beats my favorite team - I think it's better to be beaten by the eventual champs - sorta makes them like the runners up.
After surviving a first period blitz by Ottawa the Ducks completely took over last night in game 4 to take a 3-1 series stranglehold back to Anaheim for game 5. I have to admit I was almost hoping the Sens would win tonight so the series might go longer. Very entertaining series. At times it seemed Anaheim was so quick they made Ottawa look like the Old Timers league.
The Ducks are awesome - who knew so explosive and so much fun to watch. The score could have been 6-2 tonight but for the posts.
Ottawa has a great, talented team but they just seem stymied by the incredible Ducks defence, constant shoot-ins and tireless working of the boards. Not to mention the Ducks are winning way more face offs.
Did you see Don Cherry's debut on NBC? LOL not so good - he kept losing his voice.
Here's some pics I took around the garden the past couple of weeks.
Some personal stuff. My Dad and Mum divorced when I was 10. I was asked to choose who I wanted to live with. I really wanted to stay where my friends were in Deep River but my sister got to speak first and she chose Mum so I felt it was the right thing to do to choose Dad, his new wife, a new school and life in Pembroke (about 30 miles away). Anyway long story short, after bouncing back and forth a couple of times I was out on my own when I was 16.
I had an encounter with my Dad when I was 18 and was in my first year of college in another town. I had blown a big part of my student loan on my first ever car (was a wreck of a thing when I think back but I sure was pleased) and was back in Deep River visiting friends. Well I took my friends downtown to the confectionary most proud of my new wheels. On the way there we happened to pass my Dad and his wife out walking their dogs. Being young and I guess wanting to show Dad I was doing OK I honked as we passed them and we went around the block and went by honking again. They didn't acknowledge me and were walking very quickly at this point. Off we went to the store. As soon as we got what we wanted and went to drive home we were surrounded by the entire Deep River police force (3 cars - small town haha) the officer said he had a report of me reckless driving. He asked for my license which I gave him. He looked a little surprised and said do you know John, I said "Yes that's my Dad". He said "Oh geez OK we'll just go over there and straighten this out". I sat in the cop car for about 10 minutes while the cop was inside Dad's house talking. He came out looking a little off and said "I have to charge you with reckless driving, endangering life". I went to court and it was basically dismissed (Dad was a big player in town) but the judge told me I wasn't welcome in the town I grew up in.
Okay the short version isn't that short haha. Sorry for being a little personal, I am not looking for any kind of sympathy - I just need to talk about what happened yesterday.
So that's the last time I ever saw my Dad. The last time I ever spoke to him he was driving me back to Pembroke after trying to accomodate me when I was 14 and he said "Don't come back until you're a success and have a degree. I expect you'll be in jail. Maybe you should join the army".
So I fell out of touch with all family after I went out on my own at 16. As I've said before, when I got back in touch Dad had died a few years earlier, young at 56. I never felt any sorrow, never cried, nothing. I had a big blank spot there. Apprently my Dad was good at doing this too and unfortunately I take after him a little.
Yesterday, I got a surprise message from Helen, my Dad's wife, who really had tried hard to make the "new" family work way back then. I remember her kitchen table family meetings LOL "Tyler, you have such mean eyes" mean? no, more like blanking out not unlike the father. Helen went along with my Dad all those years later in blocking out my sister and I and I always wondered why. It wasn't her way, at least back then it wasn't. I was my Dad's way though at least I've always thought it was. Loyalty to Dad?
She wants to meet up with me. I just about dropped dead on the spot. She wants to meet with me 20 years later? Isn't she frightened I will be after my Dad's money? Tell me what a failure I am for being gay? Running an adult business? (Dad was a pioneer with computers at AECL). Cynical yes, for good reason, no. I never knew Helen to be anything but a nice woman.
Tonight it hit me like a tidal wave out of nowhere. I cried so much my head and chest ached. All these questions, possiblities that Helen might answer flooded my mind. OMG maybe I did love my Dad, is it possible to hold off grieving a death for 6 years?
I just freakin want to know why he wrote me off. I just kept asking that tonight "WHY?"
I think this might be one of the healthiest meetings of my whole life.
May 14, 2007 - Warm weather means guys in shorts with no shirts on. The weather has been beautiful here in Eastern Ontario for the past couple of weeks, all the bulbs are blooming, the grass is green and shirtless boys are starting to appear. . Ryan and Jason have really settled in now and are starting to come up with new ideas and ways to improve and add to the site. . We added a couple of new video feeds to the Elite series, what the Elite Series lacks in newer titles they make up for in high quality resolution. They just need to expand their library a little but with all the other options available around here they're a great extra for the site nonetheless. There is some new stuff coming up later this month. If you're not a member of my site check out all the daily updates offered on the What's New page. Never a dull day around here!
Back to the nice weather for a minute, as you might know from some of the picture galleries I've posted I live in a very old but large wooden farm house. Well a buddy and I have taken on the daunting task of scraping it down and repainting it. It has a ton of trim so the job is pretty big. The house has been blue for 25 years now and around town is actually refered to as the 'Blue House on the Hill' as it used to be a B&B, even a Tearoom once, well I guess I might be confusing the locals because it's going a totally new color scheme . A light sandstone type color with white trim and red and olive accents. So far we are 80% through a really good prep job (well I must be honest here my buddy is 70% through it, I'm maybe 10% through LOL), he's rebuilding the veranda as well. I've painted for a living in the past so I intend to kick into full gear when we start that part. I'll post some pics throughout the various stages on the forum and here.
Here's some pics I took around the garden and of the house prepping this week.
Well it's nice to see Daimler and Chrysler split, Daimler has been bleeding Chrysler dry for the past ten years. Too bad they still own 19%. I wonder how Jeep will factor into this and the future of the SRT. From what I've read Jeep and Dodge will all stay under the Chrysler umbrella and the restructuring that was in place will continue.
Speaking of Dodge, the Challenger is back in 2008. It is starting production in the fall (in Canada ) and will be on the ground in spring 2008. Dodge has stayed very true to the original muscle car in this new beauty. I might just trade in my Charger for one of these. The pre-hype on the Challenger is huge amongst Dodge enthusiasts - they might have a big hit on their hands. I have heard conflicting stories about whether it will be available as an R/T or an SRT8 or both. But Dodge has confirmed it will come in Plum Crazy color. *drools*
As I have written before I ditched my family when I was in my late teens and went about my own life. After no contact at all with my Mum for 15 years we got back in touch. Much had changed, my Dad had died, my sister was married (and divorced) with two amazing children and all four of my grandparents were gone. It was a major wake up call about the importance of family and time no matter how hard it can be. My Mum reluctantly moved back to Canada a couple of years ago (she had been looking after her parents until their deaths in Coventry, England) desiring to be near to her son and daughter. We are all living close by each other now and despite some typical family quarreling get along quite well now.
For Mother's Day my sister and I took my Mum out for lunch and shopping to a little town that she had been wanting to visit. It was a great day, I have never seen my Mum so happy and it rubbed off on both of us. Later in the day I got this email from my Mum and just melted into a pile on the floor. I am so happy I am living my life with my Mum a big part of it and I will never leave again.
"Just to say thanks again for such a lovely mother's day. I had a really nice time (the best ever) having the two of you there together. Thanks also for driving so kindly - it probably is hard to do in such a vehicle and I appreciate it. I enjoyed my lunch, love my shirt and the bedspread is perfect on my bed. I have been looking for such a one for ages. Thanks also for the tulips and the English looking kitty. I think (she) most looks like Gracie so that will have to be her name. I never tell you this enough but you are my boy, my son and I love you."
Her boy.
Happy Mother's day Mum.
Take care all and enjoy spring!
April 11, 2007 - Well the big kitchen renovation is finally done. Way over budget and way over due but nonetheless it's done. I'm happy with it, it's especially nice at night very warm and inviting. Now it's time to learn how to cook
I was grocery shopping with a buddy last week and he suggested I try cooking a pork roast - well for PB and J Tyler that is a pretty big leap. He assured me his recipe was dummy proof and simple. He told me to put the roast and some baby potatoes and carrots in a roasting type pan, fill it up with 1/2 cup of water and seasoning of my choice. I did all that but misheard the 'fill the pan with a half cup of water' for 'fill the pan half full of water'. Well needless to say the damn thing took 2 hours to cook (boil I should say) and it was just AWFUL. Waterlogged and tasteless. Even Bandit gave it a pass. . I've put that behind me though and am going to try again sometime. The final kitchen pictures are here.
My new website helpers, Ryan and Jason are working out really well. Super nice young guys who are becoming quite active in the forums and webcam chat. They've caught on quickly and will continue running the site as you have come to expect while I seek out new content and partnerships for us.
Mar 22, 2007 - The amount of content on the site is getting crazy, the forums are very entertaining and our webcam chat has really picked up lately thanks to several outgoing guys I've been doing this alone for 7 years now and to be totally honest I'm really tired. I decided I wanted to keep it going over the past year as long as you want it so I have hired two young guys to take over the daily operations of the site. This will free me up to take a much needed holiday and do more of the stuff I enjoy doing like updating this blog and posting and catching up on the forum. The day to day, seven days a week, for all these years now has put me on empty. The guys who I am in the process of 'training' are great young lads who will make sure the site runs exactly as it does now. I will have more time to find and seek out new content and partnerships for new things to enhance the website as well. I will be introducing the guys on the forum shortly and I expect you to give them a healthy forum initiation (I'm working on thickening up their skin )
Thanks to everyone who wrote about my health - I'm doing great. I haven't had another bout of the vertigo and I'm working on eating better food.
Spring is in the air, I can't wait! After a particularily nasty beginning to March up here it has suddenly turned mild and the melt is on. I am looking forward to getting out with my camera and taking some more pictures. The pictures everyone shares in the Gallery on our forum are just amazing. Nature pics, travel pics, spontaneous pics, fun pics, self pics, memorabilia - you name it, it's there!
My seven month long kitchen project is finally coming to a close. I am really pleased with it, I'll post some pictures in a week or so. Till then, enjoy yourselves!
Feb 6, 2007 - *repeats to himself*
I will never take the Super Bee out in the snow again
I will never take the Super Bee out in the snow again
Mother nature is sure spanking us for having such a mild holiday season and fall. Plunged right into a major deep freeze We haven't got alot of snow at all though, maybe 8 inches total, unlike some parts of North America which have just been getting dumped on. Weird weather. More pics rescueing the Bee
Jan 29, 2007 - I haven't been around much the past few days as I've been trying to stay on my feet.
Just after supper on Saturday I was struck with a nauseating case of vertigo like I've never felt before. My first reaction was "man, this is good pot" but soon enough I realized something not so good was happening. It went on quite severe for about an hour - at one point I held onto the bed like it was floating in the ocean - after that it subsided considerably but was still there if I moved. I decided bed and TV was the answer, I was a little worried (OK alot worried ) but I hate doctors and hospitals and I especially hate having my evening ruined.
I was awoken several times in the night by this distant motor starting up and turning off every 30 seconds or so. It was a new noise and at 4 AM I decided to go hunting for it not knowing if it was in the house or not. I noticed the vertigo but it was not as bad as earlier. I couldn't find the source of the damn noise anywhere and frustrated I stuffed some tissue into my ears to drown it out and went back to bed. Well I never made the connection between the dizziness and the motor sound but thinking back I guess I should of when it was still just as loud with the earplugs in
Sunday morning, I felt much better but still dizzy if turning quickly or raising my arms. I figured I'd give it 24 more hours and see if perhaps it was just some weird flu variation (it came on so suddenly, seemingly out of nowhere) and just put up with it. I went for Sunday dinner at Mum's and she suggested I give it until Monday (today) and then go in if it was still there. She then told me about a condition my father got when he was about the same age as me and all the symptoms seemed pretty similar although not being an alarmist she also thought I might just have a bug. She gave me her emergency bat phone to take home with me just in case.
Still dizzy this morning I very reluctantly went to see my Doctor, he almost immediately diagnosed it as Meniere's Disease (what my father had had). An ear fluid problem that affects one's balance and can cause weird sounds in the ears and eventually hearing loss (not total but some ranges) unless treated. He is doing some blood tests and I have a brain scan on Wednesday just to be sure it's not a cerebral hemmorage (don't like the sound of that one ) but he's 99% it isn't that as I don't have neck pain and headaches which are other symptoms of that.
Only the first bout of Meniere lasts longer than 24 hours and a lingering feeling of motion sickness can last for several days after the attack - that is definately where I'm at now. It's a real nuisance as I love to rock and well you get the picture. I'd rather have the most painful injury than this kind of thing, it's a really nasty feeling.
I wish they hadn't called it Meniere's Disease, I don't like that word, disease. Why not Meniere's Syndrome or Meniere's Revenge - something kewl sounding.
So sorry for the rambling but I do hope it is this Meniere's thing as that is quite manageable. I had basically prepared my funeral on Saturday night I decided I want to be buried in the back yard in my Super Bee. Mom was not too pleased to hear that.
Jan 20, 2007 - Wow, an absolute shellacking at the Australian Open. Serena Williams was jaw droppingly good in the Aussie Open final, she absolutely decimated the world's new #1 Maria Sharapova. I don't think she'll hold that title for long as a matter of fact after seeing Serena play like this I'd say she is back with a vengeance. She says she's not even fit right now and intends to work on that - must make the other gals on the tour shudder. Maybe she will have a chance at the true Grand Slam this year, when she plays like this she is one of the sport's rare real superstars. Granted, Sharapova's serve failed her but I don't think there is anyone on this planet who could have beaten Serena tonight. Steffi was still at her prime at Serena's age... way to go Serena.
Jan 14, 2007 - I hope everyone had a good holiday season! I did but happy it's over and now it's back to work. I've been spending the first few weeks of the new year cleaning my place and catching up on webwork. We officially had a green Christmas, this pic was taken out back on the 25th. Crazy stuff, first one I remember around these parts. No new years resolutiuons on my part although I'd love to meet a partner this year. Someone special ya know. I know trying too hard doesn't work but I'm still hopeful.
Things are going to get ever better at Tylers Room. I have some stuff in the works plus the upcoming new Original models are some of the hottest ever. You can check some of them out here
I just don't get it. What will sending more troops accomplish? Training an army which fights against itself? Taking over and securing areas for one side, the Iraqi government? whose side? Or is it a long term commitment, wrapped up in a puppet Iraqi government, to control that country. Global positioning like a Risk game? Gets me that the Bush admin boys seem impatient with a US backed government of a complex nation just recently destroyed to get on with it and take control. In my eyes either the US slowly pulls out (or should I say redeploys) and a new dictator type takes power to control the sectarianism or the US army fully moves in for good. I'd love to look at the toilet bowl as half full but with this particular region/conflict I can't. Let's hope the newly elected US Congress and Senate can do something to stop this without harming any of the guys fighting over there.
OMG I just watched two pre-releases live from the upcoming new Sinéad O'Connor album 'Theology' WOW I am sooo excited, this sounds like vintage Sinéad, she's shaved her head again, has an edge to her voice, has a few crowfeet now which suit her lovely face just fine and the two new songs I heard are awesome. 9 of the 12 tracks will be her own writing woot - been a long while and three covers including two I can't wait to hear - Andrew Lloyd Webber & Tim Rice’s ‘I Don’t Know How To Love Him’ and traditional (Boney M to me ) ‘Rivers Of Babylon’, with new lyrics added by Sinéad. The buzz is she is gonna be back with a vengeance from what I heard this evening I concur.
My kitchen reno is WAY behind schedule. . But the center island just went in and I can finally see a light at the end of tunnel. I'll update that thread of pictures shortly and hopefully for the LAST time soon.
Take care buds.
Dec 20, 2006 - Woohoo! I just finished my Christmas shopping. Didn't take me too long, I found a nice package of envelopes at Staples and the line up at the bank machine wasn't too long.
If you've read here before you'll know I have been having my kitchen renovated and it was supposed to be all done and smart for Christmas dinner at Tylers. Well it's nowhere near done the current state of events has been updated in the kitchen reno page. I had to cancel dinner and now I've had a falling out with my Mum over it, my sister is mad at me and well it's a holly happy joy of a time. I'm having some forum mates over instead.
We have some snow though and that's a good thing. I love snowballs, snowforts and I even don't mind shovelling for the first couple of months. Here's some snow pics.
I couldn't drive the Super Bee in the winter it handles about as well on the snow as a toboggan so I stored it for the winter and maxed out my credit completely getting a Jeep for the winter. Now I have two cars and no money for gasoline. The Jeep is another fast one though. Here's a video my buddy and I made.
There are now currenly 514 video downloads, 57 originals vids and sets and 133,000 pictures in the Selected Sets. Not to mention almost all feeds and offsite content available on the net. Is there room to grow? Damn right. I have some new reality type sites to add to Tylersroom over the next few weeks.
Nov 29, 2006 - We got our first snow today, I doubt it will stay but it's nice to see . I can't wait to start working on my snow fort this year (we're supoosed to get a pile of snow this season) I'm bound and determined to make it a two story fort this year . The site is humming along well, membership is growing, content is growing and the forum community is getting more interactive all the time. Watch for some hot new additions this month.
So the US elections are in a few days. Looks like the Democrats are going to win the Congress, maybe even the slightest majority in the Senate. There are some fascinating races in Missouri, Virginia and Tennessee. Happy to see Santorum go in Pennysylvania, I never liked him. The use of "negative ads" is rampant in the US elections - why is that? Such dirty politics and it seems to get worse every year, spew whatever lies you want about your opponent. Here's my prediction in the House it will be a bit of a Democratic romp and they will pick up 30 plus seats, 241 Dem 194 Rep. In the Senate - 50 Republicans, 48 Democrats and 2 Independents (who caucus with the Dems). Cheney would hold the deciding vote if it works out like this. Whatever happens I think Bush is in for a rough final two years of his um Presidency (cough). Next up Obama??
So I went to the Chrysler dealership today to check out some pick up trucks. My poor old Jeep isn't doing so well and I don't know if she'll make another winter. Well I walked out the proud owner of a brand new 2007 Super Bee I'm really excited about it. My first ever new car and what a freaking car A 450 horse power , 6.1L Hemi, SRT rework of the Charger. Here's some pics.
Oct 28, 2006 - I just saw a Christmas commercial on TV. OK it really IS getting earlier every year.
I have been having a lot of fun taking pictures the past few months. Anyone can be a pro these days with the great digital cams out there. It gets a bit addictive, to the point where I'm thinking 'Hmmm maybe I better bring the camera, something might happen on the way to the grocery store.' Starting to look like a tourist in my own town. Here's some pics I took of Golden Lake, a nice spot about 45 minutes from my place and
here's some assorted pics.
The site is going well, lots of new members and so much content now I don't recognize some of the older stuff myself. I'd like to take this moment to thank all the members once again for all the terrific word of mouth advertising you do for me. Don't forget to email me with comments, complaints, suggestions, sexy pics of yerself etc. All correspondence is always welcome!
Oct 16, 2006 -
Some of you probably know I have been spending the past two years redecorating my house and trying to make it feel more like me and less countryish.
Well most of it was just that, redecorating, pretty easy stuff. I'm pretty satisfied with the house now except for the kitchen. And to fix this is not just a redecorating job It's an old plain country kitchen with big ugly appliances meant to serve for a B&B. It's dark and gloomy and the fridge is so loud it sounds like there's a helicopter landing in the kitchen when the compressor kicks in.
Anyway, the time has come and I've embarked on a pretty big remodeling job. I'm not doing it myself but I intend to help out and learn as much as I can. Windows and doors are getting moved etc so it's way beyond me. Some of you that visited wanted me to share pics of the progress so I thought I'd share it for anyone who likes this sort of thing.
The first group of pics is basically how it looked on day one. Some of the drawers are gone and it's emptied so it looks barer than it actually was.
Some of the pics are similar angles I just wanted to get as many as possible for the before, during and after effect. I'm going to keep adding pics until it's completely done. Kitchen Renovation
Sept 17, 2006 - Summer is over, it has turned dramatically cooler already and the trees are starting to turn already. I think we're in for a long winter. Lots of 9-11 coverage yesterday, was sad to see it all again but good to remind us I guess. The US Open was excellent this year, again Federer was unbeatable, but I had Roddick in my pool so I was happy he was the finalist. Maria Sharapova played about the best match I've seen in years to dispatch Henin-Hardenne. Good stuff. Agassi is such a sweet guy and it was sad to see him retire. My labor day weekend was very special. I had a house full of wonderful, genuine people. All members of the site and active forum members! I have never laughed so hard in years, maybe ever (Rox pass the damn wrinkle cream ). They've all gone home now and I must say I feel a little empty... actually a whole lot empty. To all my visitors I hope you consider me a friend because I sure do of everyone of you. Thank you AJ, Bucko, Carl, Gail, Karen and Scott (he was pacing himself ) for coming to the party and making it all the much better. And thank you LaRoux, Navy, Ottawaian, Roamer and Scarbie for making my whole weekend something I'll never forget.
There are pictures posted on the forum.
Aug 29, 2006 - Well summers winding down, it's been a really hectic one for me so I'm looking forward to things slowing down a bit.
Tried a new fast loading text- based version of the site last week, it don't go over so well Some really like it so it's nice to have it as an option. At least I didn't completely waste my time. You can see it here. I also made wide versions (1000px) of both pages and those have gone over really well. More than 70% of you use the wider page. I still introduce the site to new surfers with the narrow (800px) version so nobody has to horizontally scroll and has the option. Wide Gay College Parties was added last week and has instantly become one of Tylersroom's most visited links. I've also started adding duos to the Originals by request .
Took at trip to see Les Chutes Coulonge (Rapids) in Quebec, what a magnificent place. It's not that far from where I live so I've been when I was a kid, teenager actually - it was THE spot for drunken teen tent parties
They've made it all very touristy now and you can't just go where you want which takes a little of the adventure away. It's OK though cause it is certainly safer and you do get to some spots that were inacessible before. Here's some pics. It sure has been an up and down summer weather wise, very good growing season though. Here's some pics from this summer. Summer '06
July 19, 2006 - Any tennis fans? Wimbledon was great this year. I am not a big fan of Justine Henin-Hardenne so it was nice to see her beaten by a very deserving Amelie Mauresmo. I wished Hingis had gone a little further and I bet on Venus so I wasn't pleased to see her exit either. But good on Amelie, she put some of her demons to bed. On the men's side I bet on Rafael Nadal (what a freakin' hunk) who seemed like a bit of a grass long shot at the onset but he proved he will be a contender on all surfaces not just clay. Roger Federer was nearly perfect the entire tournament (predictably boring but a delight to watch) he only dropped one set in the finals to the seemingly infatigable Nadal. Those two men seem to be in a league of their own now and I see a great tough rivalry between the two for the next few years. Nadal is a real class act for such a young guy and Federer was gracious as he always is. Good tennis. This has been a weird summer around here for weather, either unseasonably chilly or melting hot. Lots of rain though so it has been an amazing year for gardening (my other hobby ) Here's some pics around the garden. Summer '06 Hope you're all having a great summer!!
June 11, 2006 - So I took my first trip to the big city in ten years this past weekend. I went with a couple of friends I met through the forum. The $300+ speeding ticket my friend got after being on the road only an hour should have been warning enough of what was to come . I enjoyed the drive down immensely, looking at all the beautiful scenery and interesting farms and houses. As we approached Toronto I got the same rush of adrenaline I used to get when I was kid going to the city. That was kewl. I lived in Toronto for several years in my early twenties so it was mostly familiar, lots of new growth and buildings however. We cruised down Church street (the gay hub) on the way to our hotel and it looked very much the same as I remembered it. The store I used to work at was still there as most everything was. Then came the hotel, the Days Inn downtown for anyone who wants to know a place NOT to stay. The room was so tiny it felt like a jail cell. The view was a high rise, the HS internet didn't work and the clerk kept giving me the wrong keys. The elevators were crazy busy, the lobby was like a sardine can and it was really noisy. I really felt sort of surrounded and uneasy. I hung out in my cell for a couple of hours while my friend reemed out the staff over the non-working internet as both of us rely on that for our jobs. They said they would fix it. Indeed they did just before checkout time So, we met up with some Torontonian mates and went out for dinner, that was good, but once again I found it very loud. From there we went to a strip club and wouldn't you know my friends sat us right in front of the stage. I almost died I prefer to be a fly on the wall at these type of venues. Other than getting locked out later it went OK there. Lotsa eye candy Probably the strangest thing to happen was on Saturday night at about 2 in the morning, I was coming into the hotel after another night at the clubs. There was this really sexy Greek looking guy standing in a rather provocative pose by the payphone. I went up to my room but my curiousity and slight tipsiness got the best of me and I went back down to the lobby, he was still there. He was wearing really low cut jeans and a tight blue T-shirt. He kept showing half his butt by discreetly pulling up his shirt I walked out of the hotel and around the block determined to get up the nerve to talk to him. I walked back in and of course went straight up to my room again - I'm such a chicken. Well I figured third time lucky (threw back another beer ) and went down again. This time I sat in a lounge chair nearby, when I was certain he was interested, I decided one more walk around the block and then I'd ask him up to my room. I get back to the hotel and what do you know he is surrounded by ten members of the SWAT team in full garb with guns drawn. I sheepishly walked by towards the elevator, I caught his eye and he looked terrified. I heard them asking him if he could speak english and he kept shaking his head. There had been a big terrorist plot foiled in the city that weekend and it was all over the news so I think they thought this poor guy was a terrorist scoping out the hotel. Maybe he was. I don't think so though, unless he was a cruising terrorist. Anyway the way the weekend had been going I'm really surprised I hadn't got him up to my room before the SWAT team broke down my door and arrested me for abetting a terrorist The ride home was fun and I looked forward almost the entire way to seeing my doggie again. Toronto hasn't changed much in ten years but I sure have. Gone is any trace of city boy, I won't take my country life for granted ever again. PS I'm going skydiving soon - - stay tuned.
June 8, 2006 - This global warming stuff is really terrifying. Regardless of what all the oil barons who run the world say, CO2 levels are at never seen before levels. The most respected climate scientists have added up CO2 levels and drought indeces and reached the conclusion that most of the US west will be dry as a bone in 20 years. Can you fathom the California fires then? I grew up in and now live back in eastern Canada and I can't believe how much hotter the summers are now. Everything seems to dry up to a crisp by July. For my country to join the US and pull out of Kyoto just demonstrates the environmental illiteracy of our leaders.
A great quote on our dependency on fossil fuels, Kurt Vonnegut, humanist, said "And like so many addicts efforts to face cold turkey our leaders are now committing violent crimes to get what little is left of what we're hooked on." Don't they read history? Don't they know of the Mayans?
Useless trivia Did you know everytime you see Homer Simpson you see the initials of his creator? His hair is an M and his ear is a G. Matt Groening
May 27, 2006 - I found a little spot beside my toolshed that was totally private from the farm next door and the road out front. I got undressed and wandered around a bit before lying in the sun.
I have never been buck naked outside and man did it feel neat. Made me a little horny - not sure I'd be allowed into a nudist camp
I have skin that has never seen the light of day, well it has now and some of it's a little red now
Was fun though, I think I'll do it again. There might be some intrigue in doing it somewhere where there's a danger of being caught.
Anyone else share my new interest??
May 18, 2006 - When it rains it pours, my cat of 16 years, Sebastian, died this morning.
While I was sitting in my chair watching TV tonight I looked and saw a cat looking right into the kitchen through a glass door. I jumped up, I thought it was Sebastian. I ran through the kitchen to the door and it was the orange farm cat from next door. He was the one coming in and eating the food I was leaving out in vain, I waved at him and smiled. I then fell to my knees and bawled my eyes out.
My Sebati boy is gone.
My bad puppy has left me with a load of guilt that the last year of Sebati's life was lived in fear and abandonment.
I can't believe how everything familiar to me is just evaporating right now. I guess things are meant to change in a hurry.
Sebastian went through it all with me for the past 16 years and was an above average cat. I'll be adding another tree to my property shortly.
I hope he died peacefully soaking in the sun, smelling the fresh air, listening to the birds and dreaming of the hunt once again.
Love you Bo-bat.
May 6, 2006 - They met through a mutual acquaintance at the shop where he worked. Fireworks went off for him and a heated, passionate affair followed. He was sure this was his soul mate. They moved out west together and the romance disappeared almost as fast as it started. That was OK, they worked it through and lived as friends quite comfortably. The soul mate he thought he had met ended up being very possessive and jealous of him. The lack of intimacy in their relationship added fuel to those feelings. This guy did all his shopping for him, even clothes shopping, and he did the cleaning and home chores.
As the years passed he started to become isolated and lonely. Living in a bubble was convenient, it prevented any conflicts but it also allowed a lack of self esteem to fester. He tried to meet friends, one girl in particular with young children was destined to become a great friend. They got along so well, he doted on her kids and she helped him with his new business. This didn't last long, he was soon asked to choose between his closed yet safe and sheltered life or this beautiful new friendship. Fear led him to opt for the safety of his bubble. He got used to not doing outside stuff for himself and resigned himself to it, he even let his driver's license expire. He decided he was scared of flying, this was a good way to close the door on ever traveling. His friend had sex partners outside of the house, he was allowed to do the same supposedly but of course he really wasn't. So he decided maybe he was just asexual, yes that was it. Now everything was perfectly in place. But the sadness grew. Alcohol became a friend.
As the years were passing he had been building himself a successful home business. Feeling a little more empowered he suggested moving back to where they had started from all those years before. His friend was very reluctant surely feeling the bubble might be tested. He won out though, money sometimes speaks volumes. So they moved back home. He started to get to know his family again, his friend caused all sorts of issues eventually threatening the choice of family or him but he was gaining a support network. Sensing losing the battle, his friend conceded and tried to make good with the family.
He bought himself a house, his first independent move in almost ten years. He could feel the cage door opening, he could taste the freedom he longed for. He started treating his friend poorly and it ripped him up inside, he wasn't a bad person yet he couldn't help it. New friends and family noticed a dramatic change in body language every time his friend entered the room. The end was near. No more closing the wound and hiding the scar. A few weeks ago he asked his friend to leave for the final time. He couldn't be caged on his friend's shelf anymore, he needed to be him first by himself. He needed to nurture new friendships without restrictions. His friend knew it was time, there was no point in continuing.
He'll care about his friend forever and hopes his friend will stop being hurt and mad and realize that the co-dependency was not a healthy part of either of their lives. He waited until his friend was standing on his own two feet and having success with a new career. He feels a little mad at himself for letting it go on so long but doesn't feel the years were wasted. His path took him there for one reason or another.
After his friend finally left, he was sad but full of anticipation for the next part of his journey through life. Freedom to do as he chooses is intoxicating for him. He's getting his driver's license back, planning to fly to Britain for a weekend and having a night out in the city with a new friend soon. He's scared shitless of life but ready to embrace it fully and take the ride wherever it might take him.
Man am I glad to be home.
April 22, 2006 - I met you in '95 when we were still pretty much kids. You were my saviour and the love of my life. Running away to British Columbia for our grand adventure was one of the best decisions of my life. We had such ups and downs but man did we rely on each other. From Chilliwack to Nanaimo we went through it all together, all the growing pains of two young men. From growing pot, working in restaurants and on cow farms to both having successful businesses, from being so juiced about starting a painting business together to visiting Sally Ann for dinner in Vancouver when we were down and out, we did those years together.
You mustn't think you failed me, you were my winner in every race. It's just time for me to discover who I am and I know you know me that. I'll always have your back J. No one else can have the part of me I gave to you.
YLT
April 17, 2006 - I am one upset puppy. My little guy has taken a sudden, alarming, nasty turn and I don't know why or what to do about it.
He has always been aggressive but in a friendly alpha male kinda way. Now, twice in three days, he's showed real aggression towards people.
First the carpenter who was here hanging some doors for me. He was chatting away with Gail and I and I looked down and noticed Bandit's snout was wrinkling up. I bent down and sort of inconspicuously clutched his collar and held him. I felt him trembling so I hurried him off to the kitchen.
Today, I took him and another dog I look after, Dixie, out for a truck ride. I stopped to get gas and this very intense, in your face young guy pumping gas was chatting me up through my window. I asked to fill it as it was on empty ($80 freaking bucks ) well Bandit came up between the seats and for the first time ever I heard him growl, he wrinkled his snout and lunged over my shoulder. I pushed him back and he then took after Dixie. Thank goodness my friend Gail was there or I swear he would have killed her. He had such a weird glazed look in his eyes and they were fixed intently on Dixie who was crouching at Gail's knees in the front seat until I got home as fast as I could.
I can't believe I have a vicious dog. I'm so peaceful, it can't be me. I do nothing but love him. The sudden change is alarming, I can't bear to have another dog put down, especially this way. But my Mom has put the fear of god into me tonight by telling me that even if a burglar broke in and got bit by Bandit I could be sued and/or put in jail. I adore dogs, and obviously have fallen for Bandit and this is such a scary situation. I can't put him up for adoption cause I know they'll just put him down.
Anyway, I'm going to seek help tomorrow. I feel nervous of my own dog and that can't be.
April 8, 2006 - Now, my good friend has moved out and I'm totally alone in this big house
It's OK as it's different this year, I have plans to travel and meet friends with a new vigor. Maybe even reclaim some old friendships. I've been a bird captured in a cage - now I'm free.
My self esteem is growing and I am looking at life anew. I'm not a kid anymore... but I am excited about life again.
April 2, 2006 - Flashbacks... Skipping swimming lessons all summer long, hiding in the woods, saying I went and then nearly drowning on parent's view day.
Four feet tall, rescuing my very heavy cat during a major thunderstorm and downpour. Ungrateful thing scratched my eye out, literally hooked his claw in my eyeball, I just held it there and ran... into the corner of my neighbours partly open steel garage door. Came home looking like a horror flick casualty. Many stitches,and being made fun of cause of the eyepatch later, I cut the cat's whiskers off.
Being locked in the garage on Saturday mornings with my sister so my parents could sleep in.
Flying overseas without parents, getting a special "Unattended" badge and riding with the pilot some of the way.
Eating almost 2 dozen donuts after smoking up for the first time.
Drinking half a vinegar bottle full of straight rum that a buddy snuck out of his parents house, first drink ever, lasted about 5 minutes in consciousness, then woke up a day and a half later naked in a cold bath with every piece of tupperware in the house in the bath with me. I've never drank hard liquor since.
My first beer experience, feeling really cool, being a guest at my big sister's party with all her much cooler than mine friends, only to get hammered and proceed to go around the room knocking peoples beers on the floor with a broomstick. They locked me outside and I proceeded to hit their cars with the broomstick. I think I got beat up.
Changing schools so many times, and parents for that matter that I never made alot of friends.
Being a playground leader and an avid boy scout.
Not being allowed to go out for halloween after I was 8. Too old according to the dad. All the other kids went. To rub salt in the wound "I was now old enough to hand the goods out".
*gets up off couch*
March 27, 2006 - Well spring has certainly sprung around here. It is a sloppy mess outside, I've spent quite a bit of time today spreading snowbanks around trying to hurry it up . I sat on the veranda for an hour doing a crossword and have my first tan of the year woot!
The webcam chat on this site has sure picked up. I think there is more hot amateur action in there than on any of the actual cam feeds! There is a regular bunch of us there almost on a nightly basis.
Woohoo, my bedroom is finally finished after three months of renovating No more granny style, I think it looks really nice and masculine. The room looks way bigger too as I took the faux wall of closets out and restored the original chimney closet. My fave part is the floor, it's brand new hardwood maple... I've never owned a new floor
January 24, 2006 - Do I have a future as an election predictor?
My prediction:
CPC: 119 Liberal: 103 NDP: 29 Bloq: 56 Ind: 1
Ipsos Reid:
CPC 149 Liberal: 72 NDP: 30 Bloq: 57
RESULT:
CPC: 124 Liberal: 103 NDP: 29 Bloq: 51 Ind: 1
Great result, our Liberal leader resigned with amazing grace and left his party in strong opposition. Resigning now, was honorable and good for the party, their leadership convention will steal the spotlight and renew the party.
Best part of a bittersweet night for me... Belinda got re-elected in Newmarket Aurora - biggest and best surprise of the night for me. Scott Brison made it, Hedy trounced Svend and Tina Keeper won in Manitoba too.
Otta your NDP guy made it.
The nasty bible thumper Cheryl Gallant from my riding won despite all my efforts to rig the polls.
With this result, Harper will have a really hard time getting anything too radical accomplished. If he sticks to a moderate postion, we'll support him and give him a chance. Try anything funny and Michael, Belinda or maybe Scott will send him packing in a couple of years.l
Govern yourselves accordingly.
Thank goodness for checks and balances and in Prime Minister Harper's words "God bless Canada"
OK, it's midnight and the election is tomorrow - I want to revise my prediction...
Undecideds are breaking Liberal again. Otta, your riding is going NDP again I think. Broadbent's legacy and Dewar's family status will push him over the top.
Churchhill (Manitoba) is one that could flip Libaral or NDP still, polling in Northern Manitoba is shaky at best, Liberal, former aboriginal TV star, Tina Keeper should get it.
Another shaky one is Tobique-Mactaquac (New Brunswick), Liberal incumbent Andy Savoy should get through but not certain at all.
The pundits say BC will decide it this time... I don't think so, if Prince Edward Island stays Liberal red (our colors are opposite from you guys in the States - GWB would be blue up here) and there is no change in New Brunswick, NFLD and Nova Scotia then it will be close to what I projected, Liberals and NDP can split Vancouver and Island however they want it won't affect the outcome.
I do believe Harper will win and become PM, Martin will likely have to ride off into the sunset, replaced by maybe Ignatieff or Mahoney - dammit I wish Belinda would win her seat - she would be in the running too. I don't think Harper will have a strong mandate. A tiny minority, he will not get his radical right agenda through.
Summer election 2007 anyone?
January20, 2006 WARNING: Canadian politics - likely to bore the hell out of you if you don't live here and even if you do for that matter.
Well, we are three days away from our second National election in two years. This time, however, we are apparently about to turf our fiscally responsible (yet corrupt, scream the opposition) Liberal government for a new Conservative government. Somehow Canadians have forgotten that this is not the Progressive Conservative (PC) party of old this is a coalition (CPC) of a few remnants of that party and the western based Reform/Alliance party.
The CPC's leader Steven Harper is an extreme right winger pretending to be middle of the road and muzzling all his candidates with radical views, including the bible thumping candidate Cheryl Gallant from my riding. I'll vote NDP like I always do but this riding is as safe a Conservative seat as Ontario has to offer. The area is like a throwback to the early 1900's, in a constant state of decay and Gallant continues to do nothing for this area. I moved from a solidly NDP riding in Nanaimo, BC so having this woman as my representative is repugnant. I think I'll run against her next time.
Harper makes his platform appealing, there are juicy fiscal tidbits in there that would benefit me tremendously. But I can't accept his views on abortion, gay rights, kyoto etc He is like a Bushlet in the making. He was on a town hall type show last night and somebody asked him if he would fritter away our good standing and run a deficit, he of course answered no. Then the moderator pushed him further and asked him if there were any circumstances he could see running a deficit... he said "If we go to war" What??? Bahahahahaha
Things were looking like a CPC majority last week but thank goodness there is a substantial amount of undecideds moving to the "Stop Harper" side this week and all polls show a minority for them now. To me the magic number is 122, they need to be held to 122 seats or less not that I think they will at this point . That way the NDP and Liberals will have more seats combined than the CPC. The Bloq aside this will help in reeling Harper in.
What possible PM assures people that if elected he can't get out of control because the civil service and courts are mostly Liberal. Assuring checks and balances on himself.
My prediction for the 308 seats:
CPC: 126 Liberal: 95 NDP: 29 Bloq: 57 Ind: 1
Interesting races...
Trinity Spadina (Toronto) - Looks like Olivia Chow (NDP leader Jack Layton's wife) might squeak by this time. Liberal Ianno might get swept away by the CPC rise and vote split. Was within 1000 vote margin Liberal last time.
Vancouver Centre - I love Hedy Fry - she's so over the top. She does a good job representing her constituents though. Thieving gay activist Svend Robinson is running here for the NDP and the CPC candidate is strong. It will be a three way horse race but I think Hedy will win it again.
Edmonton Center - They call her "Landslide Annie" because she continually wins this seat for the Liberals in an otherwise completely conservative/reform/alliance province. Some say she gets her good cablinet posts because she is the token Alberta Liberal, I've watched her for years and it's not the case. She's hard working, honest and extremely bright. Sadly, I think her luck will run out on Monday - I think this one will give the CPC an Alberta sweep.
Newmarket Aurora (Ontario) - Floor walker and spoilt rich girl Belinda Stronach is going to lose this seat. Bill Clinton can't even help her this time. She's proved herself an undesirable opportunist. Pity though, she's a babe, and it's fun watching the Senators fall over themselves trying to get a picture with her.
Kings Hants (Nova Scotia) - Scott Brison should hold this seat for the Liberals. A lifelong Tory, he walked the floor too, but for much more honorable reasons than Stronach. It will be a nail biter though.
I could go on but I'm sure there is nobody reading at this point
I had a traumatic morning, Bandit got hit by a pickup truck,
robust little fellow flew a few feet through the air and ran home.
He's been hard to reconcile since. He's got some cuts
and I'm sure some bruises but nothing serious appears to be
wrong except he's terrified. He won't go near the
doors, won't go outside and insists on being under the
coffee table.
I didn't actually see it, he crossed the
highway in front of my house to visit with a woman who looked exactly like
Karen (same hat as she wears) and by the time I got there the
truck driver and her were looking in the ditches, they
didn't realize he'd run home. The woman felt so bad and
she kept saying "he came to see me" I told her it was
in no way her fault. She said the collision made a
huge thud and was not convinced Bandit could have
survived so she came up to the house and indeed made a
positive ID. She seemed relieved and amazed but
suggested I watch him closely for a few hours.
I am watching him closely and I'll take him to the vet
if he appears to be hurt worse. Right now he's just
frightened. I think the worst part might be he will no
longer be allowed loose on the property
Hopefully the rest of the day will be better.
A letter I posted on our forum to some of my members on the fifth anniversary of my site...
Novemeber 12, 2005
Dear Dodo, you have built my board and I care about you muchly.
Dear LaRoux, what can I say, you have helped me thru some rough times, love ya bud.
Dear Ross, you have made me laugh and smile so much it aches.
Dear Cockman121, I would dearly prefer to call you by your real name, you have been a little sanity in some craziness.
Dear Belgian Bloke your travel pics and gentle kindness have many times made my day.
Dear Zonato, you're clever and I've picked up on your subtleties and thank you for them.
Dear Catman, I've grown very fond of you. Thanks for all your help.
Dear Ottawaian, I've met you in person and you are as wonderful, giving and entertaining in person as you are on the board.
Dear Sunshine, I adore you and your fearlessness.
Dear Roamer1, you are king of the one liners and so much more. It's a treat to know you.
Dear Bj1, you have been so caring and I'll always have a special place for you my friend.
Dear Moondoggy, you're brilliant and I'm glad we've met here.
Dear OFG, you come and go but I thank you for your humor and all the great posts.
Dear Dom, you disappeared and that's OK. I'm glad to hear updates about you now and then.
Dear Jwilliam747, you had me in stitches in the webcam chat, come back sometime soon.
Dear PharmD25, thanks for the advice and the 'girl got owned' night.
Dear Ian, I'm looking forward to meeting up with you soon. You're photography has been a great addition to our board.
Dear Essexboy, thanks for all your contributions and fun.
Dear Digby, you rock.
Dear Grannymede, you're a good friend.
Dear Crazyho, you are too.
Dear Nysus, you challenge me and I appreciate that professionally.
Dear StudioDale, I miss you muchly buddy.
Dear Lenny, missed you and glad you're back.
Dear NYCSam, another original who holds a special place around here.
Dear Ausie Rabbit, you're a friend too. Let's be gardening penpals.
Dear Mark3274, thanks for the Bush bashing.
Dear Bnabud, you've been a big help in the toolshed. Thanks.
Dear Jed, thanks for all the jokes you've posted. Keep 'em coming.
And that's the top thirty by most posts, I could look further I'm sure and find many more who have contributed greatly and are friends but I had to stop somewhere and didn't look at the next page so please noone be offended. A big thanks to everyone who ever posted here.
My site is 5 years old on November 12. It's been a blast but I'm giving it up.
Just kidding, I love this job!!
I have enjoyed finding what I thought was the best stuff, charging as little as I could and building a family. I don't advertise much as alot of you know, it's never been about "business" to me. I get alot of other webmasters asking me "How do you have such a big member base with such little "presence". It's you guys, I am a real guy who doesn't consider anonymity a way of business online, and you guys spread the word. This site is a classic example of word of mouth and for that I am so grateful. My biggest pride is I've earned your trust in a not so trustworthy environment.
I turned on my first computer in August 2000, before that I was one of these "you'll never catch me with a computer and Big Brother in my living room types", by November 2000 I had a home page called "Tyler's Room" where I broadcast my webcam, the rest is my history.
July 22 2005 -One year since Blackie died.
One broken heart.
One candle burning brightly.
One new puppy.
One freshly planted tree.
One million memories of my baby.
Time has healed me but I am still sad. My baby has been gone for a year now.
Don't know if any of you guys know what's going on in the US or care for that matter. But the DOJ (Department of Justice) under the guidance of the conservative religious right is carrying out Bush's threat of spending his political capital to pay back the people who put him back in the WH.
They have turned our industry upside down with proposed changes to some record keeping regulations otherwise known as Title 2257 of the USC Criminal Code. In an attempt to harm this industry (this age old industry that will never go away ) they have set a deadline of June 23 for compliance with these unreasonable amendments.
I'm not going to get into a discussion about it here for you guys, it's likely not interesting to many of you BUT it already affects even you guys in a couple of early ways... FALCON, BACKYARD TWINKS and STEEL SHAFT will permanently go offline on June 20, so get your fill now. I'm working with a new set of non-US producers to find some cool replacements. These companies do not want to jeopardize the privacy of their models which this amendment calls for.
DON'T GET ME WRONG, there is nothing non-compliant or illegal about my site anyway, but they are imposing an unecessary burden on "secondary producers".
I however am CANADIAN and these ridiculous laws can't be enforced on me. I do choose to comply on behalf of the US businesses I deal with though and cause I CAN.
There are gonna be some effects if this actually comes to fruition though. The FSC (Free Speech Coalition), of whom I am a paying member, has filed numerous injunctions based on Sundance vs Reno and expect at worst a delay.
AGAIN, I'm not, nor are the companies I work with trying to hide anything or impede any efforts to clean up c*p* but this legislation is designed to go after the adult industry as a whole in a non constructive, whichhunt type way.
Rant over. Get your fill of Falcon now I'll keep you posted of any further developements impacting Tylersroom.
No stem cell research, now even aids patients with diminishing syndrome can't use marijuana. For gawds sakes my US buddies, you HAVE got to stop the religious right from turning the clock back on your country.
Canada is about to legalize prostitution after studying the success of the Dutch model, lower STD's, almost zero prostitution related crime etc. We're still moving forward thank goodness.
Ok, gotta rant some more before bed...
Did you know that marijuana is illegal only cause it's part of the hemp family? In the crazy days of prohibition in the US the major oils and plastics companies like Dow and Exxon were hell bent on taking over the world with their plastics. The annoying advances in one of nature's most helpful fibres, hemp, was impeding their domination and the US government, as always, was wrapped up in the oil industry. They took the flowering version of hemp and deemed it a "drug", even though it had been used for 1000's of years as a medicine (never was it considered bad, a threat or illegal until then). Then a huge campaign of public hysteria turned it into what it still is today, some feared substance. I, personally, rarely use it, but I KNOW it is not nearly as harmful as alcohol or cocaine. Alcohol, is easy to regulate and hard to produce compared to hemp. God forbid the farmers of the land got rich, no they couldn't have that. Oil was far too easy for just a few of the world's elite to profit from. As the world was evolving at that time (50's) and the US was emerging the economic super power, many, many countries followed suit for the sake of their US loan dependencies. The poorer the country often the harsher the penalty ( meanwhile these countries are OK with opium ). The world hasn't changed much since "pot" was deemed illegal by the US but one thing is for certain, throughout history powers have changed and the far east is next in line. War and such won't win it long term.
Just my two cents.
May 17, 2005 -Another birthday. My big present this year is that I'm living back where I grew up, my mother is back in my life and I'm putting down roots and feeling content. On Sunday the 22nd my mom and Gail organized a get together of friends of mine past and present. It's going to be an outdoor BBQ (weather permitting) hence the manic gardening in the past week. Of course mom, Gail and sister Joanne will be here. I will also be seeing my fill-in mother Sheila, who took me in during the years my mom couldn't handle me when I was 13, 14 and 15. I haven't laid eyes on Sheila since 1992, she rocked and I love her to death. My first love Bill and his new partner are coming from Toronto and they're bringing my Toronto years' best friend Chris with them, plus a new friend from Kingston - the party element. My long term good friend John, whom I love dearly, will be cooking up a storm. A former college professor who now holds tantic sex weekends is coming with his new wife. My lovely nieces Ashley and Zara with mom Les and partner Frank, will be here. A really handsome farm guy in his early thirties who lives nearby will be here. Bandit, Dixie, Sebastian, Winston and Avril will have a blast - keeping them out of Gail's masterpieces of gardens will be the chore.
This has been a really intense year of highs and lows. The Ibill crash in September almost ruined tylersroom, yet the site recovered and is blessed to now have it's biggest following ever. My best friend and love of my life Blackie died in July last year and sent me into an emotional tailspin yet now I find myself in love again with a little guy who's turning out to have the capability of filling those huge paws. I've got unwelcome grey hairs and permanent creases on my stomach yet my health is good and I'm stronger than I've ever been.
Meeting all you wonderful characters on our forums has made this site so special to me now. You lived some of this past year with me and I have lived some of the incredible hardships and fabulous moments in the lives of you guys.
And the laughs. The best of laughs.
Happy 32 to me.
P.S. LOOK what I got for my birthday just a few minutes ago... my heart skipped a beat when I opened it. My baby has been immortalized and I'm speechless.
I have a good friend who lives in another part of this house, we eat together often, he uses the kitchen to run his baking business out of and I'm glad he lives here or this house would be totally empty.
Gail and Karen come two days a week to help out in the garden, I like those days, they've become great friends.
Mom's set in her ways and we have our weekly times. Like those too.
Problem is I'm kinda lonely. I feel I have alot to share and noone to share with. When I see the all new flowers and growth sprouting every morning, Bandit splashing in his kiddie pool in the hot afternoon, listening to tunes with a beer in the evening... always alone. Sigh.
I hate living in the city, don't like crowds or bars and am extremely shy.
I'm content with where I'm at in my life at 32 but as I said... kinda lonely.
With all my conflicts with the gay urban lifestyle, what am I to do?
I'm really sad tonight... I know I shouldn't be but tomorrow is Bandit's big day. Chop chop. Apparently it's gonna be nice and fast with a laser.
But it is really bugging me. I won't sleep tonight, I just want it over with. I can't look him in the eye this evening. Never had any problems fixing female dogs but cause he's a boy...
My new puppy! Introducing Bandit!
If you can start the day without caffeine
If you can get going without pep pills,
If you can always be cheerful, ignoring people with your troubles,
If you can eat the same food every day and be grateful for it,
If you can understand when your loved ones are too busy to give you any time,
If you can overlook it when those that love you take it out on you when, through no fault of yours, something goes wrong,
If you can take criticism and blame without resentment,
If you can ignore a friends limited education and never correct him,
If you can resist treating a rich friend better than a poor friend,
If you can face the world without deceit,
If you can conquer tension without medical help,
If you can relax without liquor, or drink,
If you can sleep without the aid of drugs,
If you can say honestly that deep in your heart you have no prejudice against creed, color, religion, or politics
Then my friends you are almost as good as your dog.
Eight weeks have passed since I lost Blackie and I still miss her very much. I had a bit of a restless thing come over me after she died and I packed up all my stuff and hit the road. I've been travelling for the past month and am ready to settle down again. I still can't bring myself to consider another dog, Blackie was juust soooo possesive but I really miss the company of a dog. This picture is the last day of Blackie's life, I guess my face says it all. A member made this little movie for me and posted it on our forum, I thought it was really sweet! Speaking of forums, if it seems like I have been posting stuff here less often it's because I added a forum for members and that keeps me very busy. It's become a really friendly hang out with lots of interesting diverse voices. If you are a member be sure to check it out, if you aren't a member, check it out if you ever do decide to join! There are some good new additions coming up this month (September) and I added a video download section which the guys seem to really like. I am going to try and add as many downloads as I can monthly. The members choice movies are popular and most of the glitches with that new Flash streaming technology seemed to have been ironed out. It's a blast reading your reaction to some of the movies that end up getting voted in!
Seven weeks away from the US election and Bush seems to be in the driver's seat. Why? I watched that excellent Republican convention with dismay. Moderate after moderate praising Bush. Arnold was awesome, the mother of all moderate Republicans....
And then there's Kerry. Loser, capital L, loser. I don't know how he can survive the Bush machine's smear campaigning. He's just not good enough. Wake me up when he's finished droning.
So that leaves me, personally, in a no win situation... I'm glad I'm Canadian, but US politics still affects us heavily.
Here's my fearless prediction...
Bush wins the Presidency again fairly handily in the electoral college. But it will be virtually tied in popular vote although not as close as 2000.
Cheney will retire and won't opt to succeed Bush in 2008. Bring on Schwarzenegger, who will be able to run after Bush makes the change in the Constitution during his second term as a "repay" for helping him win in 2004. Six years of California Governor behind him, he'll have the credentials.
The Democrats will nominate Hillary Clinton in a landslide.
Imagine the drama of a Clinton/ Scwarzenegger election? Teeheehee.
Scwarzenegger wins the Whitehouse in 2008. Yeesh, I must be tired, I think I need to lie down. :P
July 22, 2004, so, after a brief agonizing struggle with cancer, it's over. I insisted Blackie be at home with me away from the hospital. We took our last truck ride (truck rides were one of her favourite things) and she even mustered a bark or two at passing doggies. When we got home we went upstairs and lay down together, she had a peanut butter cup, I know chocolate and dogs don't mix, but Blackie just adored the odd peanut butter cup.
The vet arrived around 5 pm came upstairs, explained a few things to me and then gave Blackie her shot. I held my girl tight and whispered in her ear how great a friend she has been.
She is being cremated and I am gonna spread her ashes in her favourite park and on her favourite beach, the rest are going in a little container which I am going to hang from my rearview mirror so she never misses a truck ride.
I am so sad. My baby is gone.
May 2004, my how time is flying by these days. I'm glad it's spring though, there's tons of outdoor stuff to do around this place, and I've had quite enough of this hibernation stuff. I was out painting the deck this afternoon when the doorbell rang, after I bought a box of cookies off the Girl Guide I came back up and guess who was relaxing in the sun right up againt my work? Doh. Oil based paint, not sure what to do about it. Maybe a dalmation, yeah that's it, a little work and she might pass....
Well the site sure got larger in a big hurry last month, 23 new movie feeds, fraternity guys, 30 new photo sets and all the regular shit... a record month for tylersroom for sure. May is looking just as promising, there is a hot new feed coming, I can't spill details yet but it is gonna be a hot raunchy number... you're gonna love it. Stay tuned! The forum is working out well, good place to help each other out and make friends, I should have thought of it monthes ago. Did you see the collage of US soldiers killed in Iraq? Pretty powerful stuff, you can see it here (it's a big ass file 2300K). Speaking of Bush, what is with all these ridiculous Kerry bashing TV ads... and attacking his military record, now that's is just plain incredible to me, coming from Mr. AWOL himself. Kerry doesn't impress me much at all but at least he might have a fighting chance of repairing some of the damage to world relations this administration did. The more I see of Kerry, the more I wish Howard Dean had been given a shot. He just mighta stirred things up enough to cause some interest, Kerry is as dull as worn sandpaper. He gave a half decent speech the other day on what must be done in Iraq but really it was the same old stuff we already knew. Maybe a more personable VP candidate will help that ticket. Eh, from what I've heard, like Florida in 2000 it's all gonna come down to Ohio this year.
Well the fun of my H2 has just about worn off, time for the real thing now hehe! Speaking of Hummer's, have you seen these two fabulous TV ads? Even if you're not a fan of the truck itself ya gotta love these spots. The first one is the new ad featuring Mojave3's "Bluebird of Happiness" from the album "Spoon and Rafter". I bought this album just the other day and I recommend it highly. The 10 minute long version of this song is about the best thing I've heard in years, so infectious. Watch Illumination. The other one is an award winning spot about an enterprising young man who isn't afraid to take his own path to reach his goal. The rules of the race only say "first one down wins". They don't say anything about what route you have to take. It was directed and edited by Scott Hicks and Hank Corwin (JFK, Natural Born Killers). The song is "Happy Jack" from The Who. This is one of my favourite commercials of all time. Watch Happy Jack. Anyhoo, I have got one heck of a sunburn coming in at the moment so I think I'm gonna go have a cool bath. Later!
Well I must have forgotten what these Eastern Ontario winters are like, holy crap there's alot of snow. Weather aside, I'm loving Ottawa, what a great place to be. The site is steaming along, lotsa new stuff lately, and looking forward to a bountiful spring of new content. The site is so big now I keep finding stuff I totally forgot was here! I guess I was wrong about General Clark, very wrong, nice guy but he would never have cut it, he's just too new to politics. He often looked like a deer caught in the headlights. Kerry and Andrews will probably be the ticket and I can't see how those two could lose against Bush. An experienced, decorated Senator and a younthful energetic guy who is one of the best public speakers ever. It's going to be an interesting election year... Bring it on! I'm glad the stuff about Bush's miltary record is being brought up again. He sends 500+ to their deaths in an uneccessary war, it's no wonder people want to know the truth. Well I bought a HUMMER and I love it. Maybe I'll get a real one someday! This is the kewlest remote control truck you'll ever see. I recommend it highly for some fun and it attracts the young guys like flies as well! Damn, it's snowing again, I'm gonna see if I can rig some sort of plow up to my HUMMER to plow the driveway! See ya.
Well, I am moving back to my home province of Ontario, my British Columbia tour has come to an end! When I told some of my friends back in Ontario they said "WHY?". True, so much is so better out here, definately the weather is and the lifestyle is more laid back but as the old saying goes "home is where the heart is" and I miss my family and friends too much. Blowing snow, sleet, hail, ice and slush, those can all be turned into good things, not sure how but I'm sure they can. The site is still steaming on, added lots on interesting new stuff recently including Dick Show, CumOnBoys, Naked Frathouse and BoysCasting. Look for a new "Originals" section soon featuring exclusive Canadian guys you won't see anywhere else. So, Governor Schwarzenegger eh? I am not sure about that one, apparently he will be making an announcement soon that his Lieutenant Governor will be Xena, Warrior Princess. Seriously though, watch carefully what this guy does to cut that deficit, money doesn't just suddenly appear with a new Governership. The best news of the past few monthes... it is starting to look like common sense is coming to bear and Bush might not get reelected. He has screwed everything up so badly I think any replacement would be better, at least to help get the rest of the world back on side. I really like Clark (buttons and T-shirts here) and think that he is the most capable of beating Bush. Clark's evolving position on Iraq is totally understandable (given the Whitehouse's deception on WMD and imminent threats) and actually mirrors my own. This guy is articulate, direct and above all Presidential. I would just love to see Bush standing at the side of the new President being sworn in, on that day the rest of the world will be wearing his now famous smirk. OK, enough of that, I have got to get packed, I will be taking lots of photos on the way home to share with you in this section soon. Bye for now.
"These Margueritas are weapons of mass destruction" - Overheard during George W. Bush's vacation. Woohoo, I finally finished resizing those selected galleries, what a monumental task, over 50,000 monster pics. Now members have the option of seeing the big ass originals or faster loading browser size versions. Just added Live Twinks and Black Shots and there is a lot more coming up soon, gearing up for the fall season! This site is just getting massive but I vow to not raise the member fee, just keep spreading the word like you have been! Arnold for California Governor, that just strikes me as plain funny.
Summer 2003
Well, July 1 (Can) , July 4 (US) and pride week are here, yada yada yada... to me it's summer, woohoo, and I'm a happy camper! I need to thank Heather who does most of the money crap and John who is responsible for some of the fabulous pics you see for helping me with this site. I will continue to pursue the best content for you guys. On the political front Canada's PM Jean Chretien is resigning in a blaze of controversial glory, decriminilizing possesion of pot, legalizing gay marriages and making it very evident what he thinks of his US counterpart. Later and thanks, Jean! And bring on a man who I think will do us proud, Paul Martin, he is going to represent us well internationally. On the US front, what a bunch of drivel the democrats have in the line up at the moment. Bush must be grinning himself silly. I just can't reason the impeachment issue over Clinton's little affair as opposed to the current US administrations blatant deceit over the IRAQ debacle. The only hope is that General Wesley Clark jumps in, he will create a tidal wave and be a fabulous leader in my opinion. Run, General, run. A bunch of new content is coming up soon so stay tuned. Chow for now.
Alot of people ask me if this website is still mine and is it still run by me... the answer to both questions is yes! I do everything myself and am grateful for the incredible support I get. Today is May 23, Happy Birthday Mum! I brought back "Our Guys" and "Live and Raw" recently, it felt kinda empty without them and since L&R's return, well you guys have made it quite clear that it is your favourite external feed, bar none. It's a beautiful day on the west coast and Blackie is guilting me out so I gotta go for a walkie!
As you have probably noticed I have an eye out for quality content as opposed to "fill". I have been around almost three years now and I am sick and tired of the poor quality shit these straight companies dish our way. I try, now, to buy from gay guys (and gals) who know what we are all about. The incredible surge in "straight" gay sites is just incredible and to be avoided. New feeds Sex Gaymes and Cruiser Boys are some of the best vids yours truly has ever seen!
I am SO DAMN OPPOSED to this war stuff... what the hell is wrong with the US Government, I have so many friends down there and NONE of them agree that war is the answer. Canada is really in a quagmire, especially if the US renders the UN irrelevant, because we have always based our politics around the UN and NATO. Tough decisions ahead for this country, I'm sure. How can anyone like Bush??? He is TOTALLY infuriating. I have never had a politician actually really seriously annoy me as he does. Everytime he speaks I cringe. What I hope for is that he continues to mess up the US economy so bad (he's well on his way) that he gets turfed like his father did, no matter the outcome of his war. Blair will also be a goner, hopefully. Shame though, I really liked him until I came to realize he models almost all his politics after Clinton and, now, Bush. The thought of IRAQ being an active threat to the USA is just so silly. I know Canadians who have been there and the country will barely be able to defend itself for a couple of weeks against the so called "coalition of the willing". The propaganda floating around over here is just so over the top. Can you believe the way things are unfolding? It's not the same old, same old this time, things are very different. You know Bush has even spoken of using nukes in an unprovoked attack? Kindler, gentler nukes, apparently, smart enough to bury themselves deep in the ground and then detonate. Lessening "collateral" surface damage, while wiping out underground bunkers and leaving poisonous, festering wounds on the earth. Sounds like a great plan!
On Michael Jackson's TV show, soft soul, a little mixed up obviously. To me it is like accusing a twelve year old boy of raping his pal. I thought the program was hard to watch, I just can't get past his appearance. The only time he looks even remotely normal is when he looks like a woman, an awful lot like Diana Ross I might add. But his personality seems so genuinely gentle even when put in that dubious context. When Martin asked him about the "bed" thing, I thought Michael's reaction about the "you think bed means sexual, it's not sexual" was the most telling moment and toughest to watch. I didn't get a chance to catch his rebuttal, apparently, it too was a little odd, a little too far the other way. Bottom line to me, I own all his CD's, play them rarely (music tastes have changed) but enjoyed them immensely at the time and thank him for that. That's all. What's a little funny is that the two programs were two of the most watched shows in television history. For all his oddness this man is still capable of commanding more people's attention than Bush and Blair combined could ever hope to. Let's hope he comes back with a killer album for the kids or gets the proper recognition for the years and dollars he has invested in kids.
Christmas again? ...geez I just got rid of last years tree. Haven't done a thing yet this year, not sure I will, maybe this year I'll make it a REAL holiday!
Just doesn't feel like Christmas around here it was 60 degrees and sunny today...I'm a northern Ontario boy and I like my winters cold and with snow! I was out hiking in the hills with Blackie this afternoon and we came upon another black dog... well Blackie has issues with other black dogs, not sure why...but I held on for dear life and the life of the other dog and did a few hundred three sixties down the hill as she threatened war on this other amicable dawg (hence the dirty pants in the pic). Blackie is the biggest suck that ever lived but she seems to think that another black dog might replace her or something... training school is definately in order, best not be any other black students!
So scratched and bruised I sit!
This site has really taken off lately and noone seems to be having any major issues so thats good news. I think the content speaks for itself at this point.
What is with this world and wanting to fight with each other? I figure it's in our nature to argue and bicker and therefore on a larger scale the leaders of various countries just continue that on a larger scale. I think war with Iraq should be avoided at all costs, my hunch is it will be real messy this time.
Well so much has happened since I last wrote in here I don't know where to start...so I won't...hehe. I'll add a good long entry here in a few days (it's November 9). But tonight I'm bagged and off ta bed!
College Boys Live will be joining the line up on Monday (Sept 9), a great "condo style" feed featuring a bunch of really outgoing college students. This site is just getting massive...but it's still just me, no suits here, that's why I can offer you guys so much for such a reasonable rate... as long as I can eat and Blackie can eat I'm content! Loving the US Open, the men are starting to get more entertaining...or maybe just more cute (Hewitt and Roddick...rowf!) Sampras and Agassi in the final...who'd a thunk it? And the women were great as usual...but enough already with the all-Williams finals...they suck, I'm never sure if they are really trying. Well, happy back to school time to those who do that, thanks for your continuing support (2 years on Sept 24) and keep spreading the word!
OK...two complete site design changes in less than three weeks!!! I just hated that purple...like going to work everyday in a purple office...no thanks. I had several recommend me NOT to change it so fast...but I figured you guys would forgive me and I just HAD to. I won't be changing it again now for at least a few monthes now!! I haven't written in here for a while I've been so damn busy...I'll try to keep it up a bit more often. Wanted to let you guys know I have been on my cam just lately, so check in now and then. Prague Buddies has been welcomed warmly and is getting alot of you guys visiting. These are real mens men...a nice balance with the young cuties from Miami Studios. All for now...
Hey all, how's it going? Seems like things are improving around here...Gaywatch and Boys Condo are faster (better servers), Our Guys has a new look and the videos work better now....Dude Magazine actually put up a new issue (it only took 4 monthes and the new issue is still four monthes back!) I am still looking for new feeds and will have something soon. It's been a slow couiple of monthes in the industry for new stuff.
Miami Studios is cranking it up just lately and their boys are really hot. Something for everyone's tastes at this point...OK I can't hold back any longer...What a disgrace this situation in the Middle East is...as far as I'm concerned the whole lot of them are responsible for war crimes at this point.
Bush has been so indecisive and flaky on the issue (more of his "governing by committee" crap) it's almost embarrassing. I must confess I'm no expert on the subject but one thing seems all too obvious to me...Israel cannot possibly gain from this military nonsense, as a guy from the UN who finally got in to see the Jenin refugee camp said "they may be getting rid of some bona-fide terrorists but their actions are breeding a whole new generation of hatred". If you're an Alanis Morrissette fan then, like me, you must be in some sort of "Utopia" about the new album...if you're not a fan...treat yourself, it's really good, I mean REALLY good. One of those rare albums where EVERY track seems to grow on you like a rash (A more mature, artistic, sonically superior Jagged Little Pill). And guess what!!! Celine has a new album out...just to torture me! See ya.
Summer 2002
Woohoo...spring is finally starting to break on the west coast! Can't wait, it's been a long dull grey winter on the island. Almost finished the re-design of the site...proved to be a much bigger undertaking than I anticipated...your feedback has been really good and I appreciate that. Hey members, have you had a chance to check out the new streaming video...Bottom Boys and Ass Hounds...truly remarkable quality...FINALLY! I have become friendly with the guy who actually codes these things and the reason they are superior is that they are coded from their own high quality DVDs , not just the "Flea Market" videos we see so much of. Another advantage these streams have is that the company started as a DVD producer in 1993, online, and now leads the industry...in other words, we are getting access to some very fine stuff and he vows to add many more movies regularily. I'm travelling to Great Britain to see my Mum in a couple of weeks...it's so nice that I can just take my "work" with me!
It will be the first time in many years Mum, my sister and I will all be together. On an alarming political note...George Dubya was a madman when he implied the US will use nukes first if necessary to PREVENT an attack....just what in the world is he setting us up for? I honestly thought we had heard the last of this nuclear nonsense when the USSR ceased to be and the supposed "cold war" was over. It's maddening, not to mention frightening.
Uh oh, I feel a bout of Olympic withdrawal coming on. Congrats to the USA for putting on such an awesome show. I think they are the only country who could have it pulled off safely and without a hitch such a short while after 9/11. Good work. Now here comes the good part...we ARE the first nation of hockey...WOO HOO! Hats off to the Canadian Men's and Women's hockey teams...we rule on the ice! Marc Gagnon thrilled us with blistering fast skates! Finally, the hosts walk away, desevedly, with a record amount of hardware...how fitting! Canadians had the best outfits again...Roots rocks. USA also wore Roots and looked great as well.
One more little bit of Canadian pride... Barenaked Ladies, Alanis and The Tragically Hip put on the best shows and brought down the house. Now, what the hell's on TV?
1998
Give our skaters their gold medal, dammit. What a disgrace. I am no figure skating expert but even I could see that David and Jaime's performance was by far superior to that of the Russian pair (who were very good and most definately deserved their silver). We should hire Tonya Harding to "talk" to those crooked judges. They should break them up and bring in fresh blood for each major event. There must be enough figure skating experts out there. Other than this incident the Olympics have been a great show so far, loved that French women's downhill skier who just smoked Pikabo et al. Very impressive. I haven't picked on GWB for a while, war and all, but he still seems to be behaving in a very one dimensional way. Without sounding disrespectful of his fine "wartime" leadership and morality, he seems to skirt any questions about domestic or foreign policy in favor of war talk. Enron could prove very interesting, although I must say US Congress seem a little out of line in their methods of investigating so far. Speaking of Texas, I have to admit the TV show "King of the Hill" makes me roar at times. I saw a particularily funny episode last night about soccer vs. football, there was a really funny exchange between the soccer coach and Hank about faxes and emailing. See that one? Oh, one more thing, that live feed "Our Guys" is the kewlest of the lot in my opinion, really engaging boys and the "Naked Male Studios" have a few real cuties and the pics are really good quality. Really sad news...Mum's got cancer, here's wishing she outlives me...love you Mum, for me and her, thanks to ma peeps for all your support.
HAPPY NEW YEARS GUYS (AND GALS)! Thanks muchly for your support last year, this site has grown beyond my wildest dreams and I vow to go right to the top of the pack this year, bringing you everything gay and sexy the internet and porn industry has to offer. To all my members an extra thank u and a great big hug!!
ABOUT ME I'm Tyler, I'm 5'11" and weigh about 150 lbs.
I was raised in Ontario, Canada where I did well in school,
not so well in athletics and was very shy. I moved to British Columbia a few years ago, started working out and quickly got over my shyness.
Boy's Condo is a damn good feed no two ways about it. I am really impressed with their setup and their very hot boys, yet another place I'd love to move in! I've been working very hard on the site lately and I hope you're likin' the additions, I'm thinking of making a non-frames simpler version of the members area as an alternative, I'd appreciate your feedback. I have got quite a few good cyber buddies now ( u know who you are!) and I really enjoy chatting with you. Have you seen the documentary "Behind the Veil" and it's follow up "The Unholy War" on CNN?...wow, what brilliant, moving reporting, sure leaves you with a very bad feeling about the poor Afghan women and a vitriolic anger towards the Taliban. I can't believe Christmas is just four weeks away...yikes, my sister, her boyfreind and kids are coming to visit and I have some MAJOR cleaning to do! Like I've said before these words are not all written at the same time so it might not all make sense, I might even contradict myself as I find myself morphing with the times!
Well the bombs started dropping this morning over Afghanistan...I don't really know what to think...just have to wait and see I guess. I heard this song the other day and at first I was a little angry that John Lennon's anthem of peace "IMAGINE" had been remixed with clips from the troubled world we now live in...but after a few listens it struck me as very powerful, a call to arms in the name of peace. It is such an emotional peace that I decided to put it on my server for anyone to download. Here it is...JOHN LENNON _ IMAGINE (WORLD TRADE CENTER VERSION) Click to listen for fast connections...Left-Click, Save Target As to download for slower connections. Thanks alot to all of you who have notified me of errors on my site. It is almost impossible to keep up without your help. I customized my Error 404 page with an e-mail link to report the error. Hopefully you will never see that page, but if you do, and have the time...drop me a note. GAYWATCH is a pretty cool new addition, Wolf is very sexy especially his jerkoff video...nice dick! I added a new "Help" page which hopefully will answer any questions you might have (technical, billing, FAQ). I strongly reccommend all Netscape and Internet Explorer users avoid the latest versions of each respective browser (both named version 6) they are highly unstable. It has become a major issue at Microsoft and Netscape and hopefully they will work out the bugs soon. The newest, most stable versions of each are; Netscape 4.67 and Internet Explorer 5.5.
Usually you can't shut me up, but for most of last week I was truly speechless. After all the mass destruction and horrendous stories of suffering, even thinking of my website seemed so trivial...however, life must go on and we all still have to relieve ourselves...My first reaction, like most others, was for the US to show it's mighty rage and obliterate somebody. Now, I see it won't be so easy. I have a strong suspicion that Saddam has played a very prominent role in this. Not only must Young Bush hunt out and squash that Usama Bin Laden crew of madmen, but I believe he must also finish the job his Dad started. I hated everything about George W. Bush since he was elected but in this trying time he has handled himself with incredible grace. His open showing of emotion at that press conference last week really touched me and made me realize having a man of such strong faith as US President might not be so bad after all in these times. If the world and that includes Canada, doesn't stop this now, it will indeed escalate to Nuclear, Chemical etc., it's just a matter of time and money. I am a pacifist at heart but unfortunately, I don't think there can possibly be a totally peaceful ending. God bless us all.
On a lighter note, I am adding a really cool new premium feature in the next few days called "Gaywatch", live guys, videos, galleries and more. This is the latest "Dudedorm" only the guys will go a little further!
Geez, sorry if offended anyone with my anti-popup rant, I didn't mean that all popups are evil, just when they are abused and cause your browser to hang. I know some freehosts force them on people. Speaking of hosting, if you are thinking of starting a website or already have one consider WeareProud.com for all your hosting needs, these guys are friendly, accomodating and a lot of fun. The shit I put them through in the early days and still they kept the faith and believed in me even when I was way behind in my payments. Good guys, good service, check them out at weareproud.com. I have been having some fun lately messing around with Flash, check out my little site pitches, one, short and light, the other longer and pounding! -Heavy Flash-Light Flash A little rough but kinda kewl anyway!
YIKES! I decided to go surfing through other porn sites, something I generally avoid, and I have to say I'm almost ashamed to be a part of this business. What a huge amount of creepy webmasters there are. I can't believe all the popups, complete screen takeovers, and uncloseable windows there are out there. A big pile of stinky shit to all those who unleash this nasty practice. I will never do this to anyone who surfs this site or any of my UGAS sites, I totally despise this practice and will never go surfing sex sites again, unless the site has been reviewed by a trusted link list. Even that is risky as some of these pricks change their sites as soon as they are listed. Surfer beware, but hey, ethics and fairness are needed.
Well it's August 19 and the summer is almost over...this one really did just FLY by. I am having a very hard time keeping up with all the work involved with my site and am looking for an assistant. Please E-mail me for details if you are interested. I have a buddy who is helping out with the model recruitment, we are now running ads in several gay publications, and hope to premiere all of these hot boys and men soon. I have been amazed how many guys have responded to the "Models Wanted", some of the guys who have responded so far range from a streetboy in Vancouver, a student in Seattle, a stunning coverboy-type from India, the diversity is what I'm after and so far so good. I want this site to feel like everyones site. I am trying to add lots of free sexy stuff for you guys who like the site but don't want to join. Stay tuned for all the upcoming stuff!
I have been trying to get used to the various Netscape browsers and just HATE them. Navigator is out of date, and the new 6.1 is absolutely riddled with bugs and plugin/javascript conflicts. I have tried to make this site equally accessible for both browsers but Netscape keeps throwing me curve balls. On a consumer level, I cannot stand the way Netscape tries to take over your entire computer with their various applications... sure, I'll use Netscape Download and let you pop up your dumb ads and make them uncloseable....NO THANKYOU. One of the biggest challenges for webmasters is trying to make a website look and act the same for all browsers. This has been an absolute nightmare for me as I all but ignored Netscape while designing the new site and realized afterwards how fucked up it looked in Netscape. I've done my best to make everything as browser friendly as I can, make sure you enter the correct way...or use the link to change formats. I would love to hear from some of you Netscape users (silly people...just joking!) on how the site acts for you ie: Can you see the Live Counter? Do the Real Videos work?...etc. LMK.
Dancin' Dubya is silly but a good laugh, if you find any funny Bush stuff send it in. You might ask why, being a Canadian, I love to make fun of GWB and not my own Prime Minister, it's just that George is SO very easy to make fun of. Chretien is as humourless as a guppy. So, in an odd way I guess I'm paying some sort of respect to GWB, I really don't mean to, though. I want to thank the guy who wrote about my escapade with a "radioactive hedgehog" neverending story, I laughed out loud when I read that. Enough for now. If the rest makes no sense it's because I just add to the page whenever I have a spare minute and don't delete the older stuff. Consider it my online diary of sorts!
Porn star Chris Steele has joined the cast of "Spy on Him" and he puts on quite a show. Members check him out live on "Spy on Him"! These live cams are very horny although sleep deprivation sets in quickly. I'm going to add some more of these shows plus get on my own cam a little more often. Watch out for that nasty Sircam virus, see above, my PC was infected and I woke up a few mornings ago to find my entire HD wiped out. What a freakin' drag. Next thing I know I'm biting my nails over the CodeRed Virus which infects the exact type of server I just recently upgraded to, Windows 2000. Luckily my buddy, Jack, at weareproud.com, my hosts, installed the Microsoft anti-virus patch just in time! Have you checked out Dudedorm yet? I am thinking of starting my own Dudedorm...anyone interested?...E-mail me. I am serious and have a few guys very interested already. These guys at Dudedorm are "celebrities" in the gay world! I got a copy of a letter I requested from my fellow Canadian Alanis Morrissette the other day and I would like any of you guys who follow me and my political views to read it. It's a very intelligent plea for GWB to step back and have a look at what he's doing to this world in his short time in office. Watch a funny movie about the Bush Energy Plan here.
Well what a month it's been. Huge changes around here!!! I decided it was time to offer some really good quality shit ( I personally was getting tired of the vivos!) The full length movies especially the "Hard Bodies" collection blow me away with their quality. Even full screen they come off as close to TV as I have seen on the internet. I'm happy to offer them to you guys. I have made this a private site, although their is still more free here than the average "free" site! As you can see I intend to pamper my members with the latest gay porn available. If you see a feature somewhere else that you would like to see here just let me know and I'll see what I can do. I have enjoyed being able to be on my webcam lately and meeting some of you guys. I'm also preparing a special mini video for all my members, I'll keep you posted. I turned 26 last month and have noticed since I started working on the computer, that life seems to just fly by...I really have missed alot of fun stuff this summer...so my latest lesson in life is to try and put some balance back in my life. I try not to even turn the computer on until my dog takes me for a walk and I've done some form of physical activity. One could just waste away living and breathing computer. Well that's enough for now...feel free to read on through my older ramblings. Take Care. PS. GWB is still a dufuss and has yet to impress me in any way!
"HEY THERE, YOU WITH THE STARS IN YOUR EYES..." Archie Bunker....Carroll O'Connor - 1924-2001. Thanks for SO many laughs.
I work in website design and love surfing the web discovering new applets and webpage scripts. If you are a regular visitor here you probably have noticed how often I change this site. I change my bedroom around once a week and I think it's just a continuation of that. If you visited me before you will notice I've bailed all the eye candy ( java, applets, gifs etc.) in favor of faster loading ( hopefully) simpler pages. The site doesn't seem nearly as big or as flashy but there is actually more content now...just more neatly packaged.You can tour around now and find all sorts of stuff.
I'm glad this website is entertaining so many guys. I just hit the 2 Million mark today, May 25, so a huge THANKS! This site costs $600 US a month to stay up plus has it's own dedicated server...not to mention all my time, so I love your letters, they make SOME of it worthwhile...he he. Many of you have asked about the webcams and the problem is this...Too Much Traffic! anytime I've tried to go live I've almost blown up my server. I have several people queued who want to broadcast from here and I'm talking to my Hosts about how it could be done technically without restricting access.
Hey, good news on the US Senate...a little balance is always good. The environment might not take such a hit.
I've also had to password protect some of content for two reasons. 1) I have tried and just can't afford the expenses. I could pollute the site with banners and ads but I have no interest in that. 2) I get so many visitors that when I try to offer everything for free my server slows down to a crawl. I'm on a dedicated server now and can't afford to upgrade it at this point. UGAS is decent enough..there are some real good sites like this one! and some shit but there are many rules webmasters must follow including no popups and misleading links, so it's all preetty safe, entertaining real estate. For those who want to help me out with a few bucks feel free to donate using my secure server instead. With a bit more internet income I will be able to keep adding exclusive movies and content. Another bonus in the misery ...my webcams will work with more limited access. Sorry to anybody who's dissappointed...I did try.
Here in my home province, British Columbia, we just elected a completely Liberal government with no official opposition...sounds like a bit of a dictatorship to me...it's going to be a long four years. And as far as the latest GWB line about "our neighbour Canada's abundant energy resources...", GET LOST!, manage your own resources.
Summers back and it's tanning time! Therefore new pics soon...I looked pretty pasty these last few monthes!
I look forward to some feedback on this design...good or bad.
If you want to appear on this site or have a business proposition please E-mail me.
I'm always looking for new friends, ideas and suggestions.
Even if you just want to bitch about something drop me a line.
Please bookmark my site if you liked it and come back and browse all the upcoming additions.
Take good care...Tyler
P.S. A Canadian perspective on the US election...YOU picked the WRONG man...just stand back and take a good long look at GWB!..he he he
Sorry I just had to get that off my chest! UPDATE: I am sorry if I offended anyone with the GWB crack, but judging by my E-Mails almost all you Americans seem to agree...So What Gives?! Also I've received alot of fun questions from people about why I feel the need to brag about my being Canadian, someone went so far as to say that all of us Canadians are rude and overpatriotic...that's exactly why I added the Canadian thing because "us Canadians" actually have always been less than enthusiastic patriots. When Molson released the Joe Canadian beer ad...it caused a much needed swell in Canadian pride amongst us younger folk...no harm there I don't think.To balance it out...GO USA, for that matter GO WORLD!!!
We Rock!
Later Gators!
I have always loved the winter Olympic games (there's stuff about Turin and Salt Lake City in this blog) but these games were so much more special in my own country and my favorite city in the world! The opening ceremonies just blew me away and now the closing ceremonies are due up this evening. 
The USA (our neighbours 
) had an awesome Olympics, especially their amazing Alpine team! Canada, well we broke the all-time most gold medals at a single games record with 14 awesome gold performances! Holy man have we got some patriotism going - every city, every town, every street - we are one happy and proud nation! We've spent so many years sort of hanging our mantra on being proud NOT to be American - something has happened this past decade, maybe our work in Afghanistan and all our lost soldiers, not sure, but this Olympics has brought my country together like never before in my lifetime and even if it's just been a temporary break in our normally aloof way - I'm thoroughly PROUD to be a Canadian!
Some of the many hilites for me were... Joannie Rochette skating to a bronze medal days after her Mother's unexpected death, she was truly golden to all of us. I am not a big fan of ice dancing but I definitely saw how good those two Canadians, Tessa Virtue and Scott Moir, skated - talk about in synch with each other during that spinning part. Charles Hamelin and the awesome reaction of his girlfriend Marianne St. Gelais (who also medaled) when he won the gold medal in the 500M short track speedskating! Jon Montgomery drinking a pitcher of beer during his victory walk through Whistler for his gold medal in skeleton. Shaun White's preformance in the pike was just plain stunning. I could go on and on but likely you were watching too! 
Gotta love curling - you tell me in what other sport can you drink beer while you play! Did you know there's only one place in the world, somewhere in Scotland, they can get the granite from to make those rocks so they don't break and they sweat enough whatever that means and - brace yourselves everyone - they are running oot! Curling is doomed! Big congrats to both our women's and men's teams! Silver and gold respectively.
It is so completely uncompetitive - only the US women's team can challenge Canada - all other teams get beaten 20-0. 
If the rest of the world was catching up slowly fine but they're not - it's going the opposite way. Time to dump women's hockey from the Olympics. 
And I feel almost blasphemous for saying this and I'm glad we won our first gold and all - and I was totally caught up in the moment but - I have a very strange fascination with Dale Begg-Smith, I have for many years now since I lived In BC, and I think he actually won that race handily as do alot of people. He made no errors whatsoever and Alexandre Bilodeau did make a few but like figure skating we have to take the word of the judges. 
but he missed the first 20 games with a foot injury. Add Alex Burrows to the mix (he surely must have some Sedin DNA hehe) and you have the league's best line by far. Watching the twins play is surreal, I have been watching hockey since I was a kid and never have I seen two players so in synch with each other - not even Gretzky and Kurri. It's uncanny and super fun to watch! Henrik and Daniel have been very underated and are just getting better and better every year, I think they're going to get lots of attention soon. Then there's Ryan Kesler's line and Luongo in net and well it's looking really promising this year for Vancouver - first the Olympics then the Stanlety Cup - yup, that sounds just fine to me.
I also found out a good friend of mine, with whom I've had a combustible relationship with over the years to say the least, also had this diagnosis many years ago and I have enjoyed immensely relating our life's experiences since and understanding each other better.
On the road to hell with "his porn" according to Sarah though on Oprah today. 
So after many years of smoking (heavily the past few) I've quit. It's been four weeks now and I can confidently say I'm done. Forever. 
Bandit hasn't been a "bad puppy" but I made this thread about him years ago so I thought I'd add his latest drama here...
Just a quick update - there is some exciting stuff coming up this fall, I am pleased to say we have partnered with a world class producer/director and have started shooting scenes for our upcoming new section 'Canadian Beef'! This section will be the new 
I've been enjoying Wimbledon this year. Just finished up the round of sixteen and both my picks, Serena and Roger are still going. Predictable I know 
Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett dead in one day? It's like fate has taken to acting like a serial killer. 
Michael Jackson was murdered by a sort of cruelty, too large and viscious to fathom. Not unlike Elvis Presley, who had already been assassinated by the public and press and his closest friends, Michael had been shunned by the same over the past few years, even Quincy Jones, who made millions off his younger protege, had refused communication with him.
Seeing as my hockey team got knocked out in the second round, every other team I even vaguely like are gone and the freakin' Red Wings and Penguins 
I have been a Vancouver Canucks hockey fan for longer than I care to admit and have a great sense this could be our year. We have to get by the young and eager Chicago Black Hawks first and that series is currently tied 2-2 with game 5 tonight in Vancouver. Vancouver plays like a defensive clinic when they're on their game - boring as hell at times - frustrating for the other team, but ask The New Jersey Devils, this is a way to win cups. 
Why, as a Canadian, am I biting my nails down to the bone about the 2008 US election? Because what happens in the US will shape our future far more than anything that happens here at home. If America doesn't prosper, neither do we. If America isn't safe, neither are we. Canadians desperately want America to find it's way again.
I think (and really hope) Barack Obama is going to win, all the momentum and polling seems to be going his way. One week out and he's up by as much as 8 points in Virginia, a state that hasn't voted for a Democrat since 1964. He draws staggering crowds in both traditionally red and blue states like never before in the history of US politics.
Sometimes you don't know until near the end what an election is really all about. This election is no longer about the audacity of hope, or the first black president, or Sarah Palin, or the Iraq war or even the total ineptness of the current president. It's about America on the ropes, and it's ability to regain it's footing and find it's way again in a troubled world. The stakes are high for us because, until it does, we're all in trouble.
After midnight on Saturday night I let Bandit out for a pee and he came face to face with a skunk. 
) I have never smelled anything like it. It was nothing like the drive-by smell of a skunk, not only was it 10 times stronger - strong enough to burn your nostrils - but it had this almost "burnt" smell to it. Really, really gross. 
I've been enjoying the Olympics so far. I love watching the swimming and the new suits (though less revealing 
Should be interesting who Obama picks as his VP. I find it a little odd that Bill Clinton will be introducing him/her on Wednesday night of the Democratic National Convention in a couple of weeks 
My Challenger is finally in 
I really disliked Hillary Clinton little more than a year ago but I must say she won me over during the last three months of her historic campaign. I was sad to see her go and don't really think she will be on the ticket as VP. I read somewhere that Michelle Obama can't stand her and is seriously pressuring her hubby not to choose her. My bet is if Barack Obama continues to lead in the polls closer to the August convention he will chose someone else, if he's behind or neck-in-neck maybe he'll take Hillary but I still think it's a long shot. For the past few months Clinton showed herself to be articulate, well informed, smart as a tack and graceful. The biased US press made me sick, the night Obama got the number of delegates he needed to clinch the nomination, when they jumped all over her because she didn't concede and throw her support behind him that night. What a crock, can you imagine how hard that must have been for her after getting so close? She bowed out graciously a few days later in a very eloquent speech that she gave a pass to speech wirters on and wrote herself. If only she had found her own voice a year ago. "We didn't quite break the glass ceiling but there are now 18,000 cracks." 
It was a shellacking very unbefitting King Fed. 
Spring has finally arrived up here and not a minute too soon. In typical Eastern Ontario fashion we went from 35 F to 85 F in 4 days. 
Well this site has sure grown over the past couple of months. 25 new quality feeds have been added, fulfilling my promise that I would replace all the stale stuff I removed in the summer. Now the bottom of the page is just as important as the top! Among the noteworthy new feeds is 
If you like hot Asian guys then I just added a new site for you! 
When I moved out west I let my Ontario license expire for more than 7 years. When I moved back they told me I'd have to go through the whole process again. I have been driving but I've needed a licensed driver with me. 
As some of you will know I've been a pot smoker for a very long time. I started in my late teens and never looked back. I even tried growing the stuff for awhile. Over the years I have defended it's use with the common arguments such as "it's not as harmful as alcohol and that's legal", "it doesn't lead to heavier drug use", "pot smokers are mostly pacifists", "it's natural" all of that stuff. Well I still believe that is doesn't lead to harder drug use, if it did I would surely have died from a heroin overdose by now. I also still find the comparison to alcohol legit and believe it's prohibition goes way back to the 40's and 50's and the chemical industries' desire to put the hemp industry out of business and pave the way for all the chemicals and plastics the world consumes today. I still believe it is a peaceful form of recreation and doesn't lead to barroom brawls. I don't think it's entirely natural. The way it is grown hydroponically nowadays is definitely not natural and the pot has gotten extremely potent with the grower's interference. Bottom line I don't condemn it.
Lots of new stuff coming up this fall and I was particularily pleased to add 
The US Open was truly entertaining this year. No rain like the washout that was Wimbledon this year and lots of close, memorable matches. Seeying Moya get so far was a highlight. 
What a match Federer and Nadal just played in the Wimbledon finals. Wow. Federer won but Rafa pushed him to the edge, Roger was truly lost in the fourth set and I have never seen him unravel like that, true champions can pull themselves together and that he is and that he did in the fifth set. Nadal is getting closer and closer to Federer with every tournament it seems. I am quite pleased with myself 
July 2, 2007 - I hope everyone is enjoying their summer.
Wimbledon seemed to come really fast on the heels of the French Open this year, not a bad thing for us tennis fans though. The rain, however, has made the tournament a real drag to watch and is obviously starting to wear on the players, Rafa Nadal has been downright cranky which is unusual for him. 
They are almost four days behind schedule now. My picks for this one are Venus Williams and Nadal. Tall order for Nadal to beat Federer at Wimbledon but ya never know, surely he has to break out of clay at some point. Just watched Serena Williams play through and win with a nasty leg injury, watching it happen at the end of the second set was brutal. What a performance in grit and determination that was.
June 4, 2007 - 
Well that bites, that rotten 
I'm not very popular with the hockey fans around here (Ottawa Valley) as I've been cheering for the Anaheim Ducks since they knocked 'my' team (The Vancouver Canucks) out of the NHL playoffs. I always root for the team that beats my favorite team - I think it's better to be beaten by the eventual champs - sorta makes them like the runners up.
May 14, 2007 - Warm weather means guys in shorts with no shirts on. 
Well it's nice to see Daimler and Chrysler split, Daimler has been bleeding Chrysler dry for the past ten years. Too bad they still own 19%.
Feb 6, 2007 - *repeats to himself*
Jan 14, 2007 - I hope everyone had a good holiday season! I did but happy it's over and now it's back to work. I've been spending the first few weeks of the new year cleaning my place and catching up on webwork. 
The Jeep is another fast one though. Here's a 
So I went to the Chrysler dealership today to check out some pick up trucks. My poor old Jeep isn't doing so well and I don't know if she'll make another winter. 
On the men's side I bet on Rafael Nadal (what a freakin' hunk
June 11, 2006 - So I took my first trip to the big city in ten years this past weekend. I went with a couple of friends I met through the forum. The $300+ speeding ticket my friend got after being on the road only an hour should have been warning enough of what was to come 
Anyway the way the weekend had been going I'm really surprised I hadn't got him up to my room before the SWAT team broke down my door and arrested me for abetting a terrorist 
- stay tuned.
This picture is the last day of Blackie's life, I guess my face says it all. A member made 
I was out painting the deck this afternoon when the doorbell rang, after I bought a box of cookies off the Girl Guide I came back up and guess who was relaxing in the sun right up againt my work? Doh. Oil based paint, not sure what to do about it. Maybe a dalmation, yeah that's it, a little work and she might pass....
Speaking of Hummer's, have you seen these two fabulous TV ads? Even if you're not a fan of the truck itself ya gotta love these spots. The first one is the new ad featuring Mojave3's "Bluebird of Happiness" from the album "Spoon and Rafter". I bought this album just the other day and I recommend it highly. The 10 minute long version of this song is about the best thing I've heard in years, so infectious. Watch 
Just doesn't feel like Christmas around here it was 60 degrees and sunny today...I'm a northern Ontario boy and I like my winters cold and with snow! I was out hiking in the hills with Blackie this afternoon and we came upon another black dog...
well Blackie has issues with other black dogs, not sure why...but I held on for dear life and the life of the other dog and did a few hundred three sixties down the hill as she threatened war on this other amicable dawg (hence the dirty pants in the pic). Blackie is the biggest suck that ever lived but she seems to think that another black dog might replace her or something... training school is definately in order, best not be any other black students!
